I'm sorry

"Wait,please don't kill me!" the voice begged.

"There's no use in having more then one" The cold voice responded.

That was a short part of my dream,until I woke up on my bed again,with the old me resting while laying against the wall. I was confused by the vague dream I just had,but decided to not think too much about it. The situation was the same,my day that usually went by without anything happening had one thing happen this time: Another version of me fell down from a hole in the ceiling,and is now taking a nap in my bedroom.

The agonizing feeling came back in a rush when I stopped to think again. The feeling of uselessness, of hopelessness...of frustration for never being able to live the life I want to live.

What is it that my future has in store for me?

As I was thinking about it,the other me woke up,his eyes opened wide and he looked straight at me.

"I think it's about time we put an end to this." he said while he got up.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"Say...me...what do you think defines you as you?"

His question caught me off guard. There's no way I'd know when I didn't even properly know who I was and what was my purpose in this world.

"You don't know,right?" as he said those words,I felt a little bit of tension coming from him,and that made his voice more intimidating.

"I don't either...that's why..."

His arm began to glow the same colors of the portal on the ceiling, like small cracks started forming all over his skin,and a little bit of the light went through the openings of those cracks, creating a weird effect. We certainly weren't the same in regards to being able to do that.

I fell down to the ground in shock and fear,the insecurity that I had thought was baseless ended up being justified, this other me is threat. I tried to run far away from him as he approached me,but when I made a leap towards the door,he was faster than me,and quickly brought my face down against the ground,and then he did that again and again,until I could no longer even differentiates the colors of the world,for I was completely dizzy and blood fell from my head,covering my vision like a small waterfall.

It all happened in a fraction of a second, and also in a matter of few hours,in that timespan I went from having the chance to simply leave through my apartment door and go to work to simply dying by my own hands,all because I made one wrong choice after the other,destiny itself apparentl got so tired of my antics that he decided to ignore logic and the laws that govern nature to make me die,but I guess I shouldn't be feeling special about this.

I felt a bit of a sensation in my chest,and when I slowly turned to look,I saw that his glowing hand was inside my chest,and he had just ripped off my heart,I guess he already broke the part of my brain that makes me feel pain,so yeah,I wasn't feeling anything even if I saw it happen.

This is goodbye to the world, I guess...I'm sorry mom,that I never got to be the son you could be proud of,I'm sorry to my high school teacher for being such a failure of a student, and I'm sorry to all the people who could have been my friends, but never got to,well,if you ask high school me,he surely could've used some friends.

A failure down to the end...I do wonder though, other me...what about you?

Are you a failure too?is everyone else a failure?

I just hope there's a world out there where everything went right,and I hope that the me living in such a universe...was happy till the end.