Chapter 3

On the day the of this party I getting ready to go hang out with my friends and go out and I was thinking about my ex. I haven't been out since I broke up with my ex. This gave me a chance to see what it was like being single. In my relationship I was never able to go out with friends because my girlfriend always wanted to know what I was doing. I mean there is nothing wrong with checking on the person that your dating, but when they check on you every hour of the day then that is when it becomes a problem.

I really loved my ex god knows I did, but closer to the end of relationship she always wanted to be around me especially when we had date at her place when her parents weren't home. When ever her parents were around she kept in telling them that I was her friend and u was sick and tired her treating me like I was secret. I waited for months for her to tell her parents that she was in a relationship with me. But she never could stand up to them and tell them that she was in a relationship with a woman. I hate that she was unable to tell her parents about the being a lesbian.

She thought everything was about her was so cute. But I'm not sure if she feels the same about me as I feel about her. She was the best thing that I could hope for. We were together for 3 years and I wanted no more than for her to come out to her parents. I was kept her secret and yet I still stayed with her because I thought it was the best thing. Everyday I thought today will be the day she finally comes out to her parents and once again I was let down.

I finally had enough of all the bullshit because I was sick of hiding the real me. I found it hard for me when we broke up. I tried to be her friend and it was the hardest thing to do because I loved her so much. I often wonder what it would be like if we were still together. I wanted to be with her for the rest of my life. But things between two people always change.