MESSED UP LIFE!
I was shocked to hear the fact Gaya loved me for years. And my mom knows it?How?Why I didn't realise it?She was with me 24/7 but still I didn't see through her feelings.What would I have done if I came to know this earlier?Date her?That doesn't make sense. I only see her as best friend. She never said anything before when I date around but why today?I am confused.
Am I supposed to be this confused?I already have a girlfriend. I want to be serious with her but Gaya's confession just messes things up in my head.Wasn't I sure about this before?What happened now?Oh Shit! I let Gaya run just like that...I should find her to explain . I didn't mean to hurt her with my words.I really thought she was pranking me. Gosh!. I didn't know my words will hurt her this much that she willing to end our friendship. NO!I won't let Gaya go away from my life.I will convince her until she comes back to me.Well, Gaya always come back to me. We had million of fights but Gaya always apologise first eventhough I was the problem. I believe it will be the same this time too.I rushed to Gaya.I need to find her.
I stopped on my tracks when I saw her hugging Jay. That is the senior guy from her dance club who always cling on to Gaya.Why is he hugging Gaya like that? I definitely didn't like the feeling inside me when I saw they are being so close. People might think they are lovers.One thing for sure, Gaya will push him away because Gaya HATES when people hug her or play with her hair.I was the only one allowed to hug her and that took years too.She always needs my hugs whenever she is feeling down or demotivated.She's such a baby.
What?!Did Gaya just hugged him back?What is their relationship?Are they together?My heart broke seeing Gaya hugging that guy back. I was the only person who gets to do that but now Gaya is letting someone to hug her. He even planted a kiss on her forehead while Gaya just tighten their Hug. I thought I was imagining things when I see what is happening in front of my eyes.I know it not my business who is she hugging or dating but we still have to settle some things with us. She just confessed she loves me a minute ago and her confession still doesn't sit right.I never knew Gaya was this close with this Guy.Did I miss something? The way he caressed her cheeks and wiped away the tears of Gaya just irratates me..Gaya seems calm in his embrace.
Is this how Gaya felt all this years when I was dating other girls? Heartbroken and betrayed is what I am feeling right now. My heart aches seeing them together. But Why am I feeling heartbroken seeing them?I got a girlfriend who I wants to spend my life with.I only sees Gaya as my bestie.Maybe because I am protective towards her.Yeah that must be the reason! My anger was at peak seeing them still not breaking the hug. I turned my back when I saw Gaya going in for another hug. I closed my eyes shut not knowing what to do.Should I go after her or just leave it for now? I can't decide. I might need some space and time before seeing Gaya again.
She always do come back to me again.. I will just buy some roses and chocolates for her if she still angry.She always liked that.I sarcarsitically chuckled and walk away from there.They can do whatever they want.I have to meet my girlfriend today. We have a date.I think I should spend some time with her before talking to Gaya. It was too much information to take in today. I have to clear my doubts with my mom. Why would she encourage Gaya? I took a last glance at them..they still hasn't broke their hug. Gaya you have so much explaining to do tomorrow..How can she just let random guy to hug her even if she is angry with me. Why am I getting angry when I was the one who always ask her to date someone.Well, I will talk to her tomorrow when I am calm too..thats better way to solve things between us..
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"MOM!
"I NEED TO ASK YOU SOMETHING!!!MOM!!!"I shouted on top of my lungs.
I have to confront my mom. I know it is a revenge prank. This must be my mom's plan.I don't why I can't seem to get rid of this uneasy feeling within me...I feel something is missing from me. It feels like I did the wrong by leaving matters to be handled tomorrow...Ahhh!!I should have talk to her..I feel it was the last chance for me to make up with her but my girlfriend called and I decided to go to her instead. I was absent minded the whole time so we decided to end our date earlier. Gaya's broken expression keep crossing my mind that I can't really focus on my girl.
Should I just go to Gaya's and talk to her.Yeah....after confirming things with mom.. I should go there and apologize immediately. She might want to rethink all the things she said ..right?
"MOM!"I screamed again as I was not getting any reply from her.
"Aishhh...your mom is here..What do you want..I was busy gossiping with Gaya's mom..and you interupted"
Gaya?
"Mom...do you know about Gaya and her feelings for me..she said she love me...you planned with her right?This is all a prank to get back at me right...please say it's a prank"I wasn't sure if mom catch all my blabbering . I didn't know how to talk about this.
"Ai..you already know?"I was suprised to hear that from mom.So it wasn't a prank. Gaya why would you do this?
"So it is true..she loves me.." I can't believe this is really happening right now.
"To be honest,I always liked Gaya.I was the first one to notice that she saw you more than friend and I encouraged her to chase you so that I can make her my daughter in law.I really wanted to her date you.But everytime she wanna confess... you always introduce new girl that too ..every week..until I thought she is too good for you.But she never gave up...that poor kid...Did you ever noticed how her eyes sparkle everytime she talk to you?"
"Why didn't you tell me all this earlier?Why hiding this for years?"So everything between me and Gaya is fucked up?
"Well, I thought you will realise it one day.What happened?How do you know about this?Did Gaya confess?"
I just nodded to her question.I mean I am shocked to learn the truth.I sighed and roughly ruffled my hair. I might messed up in this. Will I able to correct my mistakes?
"Mom..I am going to my room..if Gaya visits just ask her to come upstairs.."I said to my mom. I think if I clear things with her...everything will go back to normal. I am exaushted from all the overthinking so I need some rest.
"So what are you going to do?Gaya must be heartbroken now. Shouldn't you be beside her and console her.That poor girl must devastated My mom questioned me.
"No mom.Do you think Gaya wants see my face now.Let her calm down. She will come back to me anyways. It just matter of time mom."I don't know why I was keep repeating those words....Its more like I am convincing myself that.
"Ai! Don't take her for granted.You always do this. Think about her feelings too.Don't regret later for missing her then.What if she don't need you anymore."
"What do you mean mom?I don't understand! What late?"
"You know ..I was talking to Gaya's mom just now..well Gaya brought a handsome young man home today.Kamala was very excited.She told he was a one whole package.Seems like Gaya's parents gave him green light to pursue Gaya...Gaya might not need you anymore as she have another man taking care of her..You know he will be replacing you soon..Come to think of it Gaya was the one who always take care of you while you roam around looking for trouble.."
"Momm!!!!!"I rolled my eyes and went to my room.It was annoying listening to my mom. I plopped myself on the bed.
Was mom talking about that shithole senior Jay.That guy was interested in Gaya? Gaya brought him home to meet uncle and aunt? Well,will Gaya agree to date him....if he confess?He quite a looker too.I shook my head to get rid of all the negative thoughts. Hey...there is no chance.I know about Gaya and her taste in men.Gaya always say I will be the first person to know if she have a boyfriend.So I believe in her words.Why am I giving it so much thought.
Should I pay a visit to Gaya's house. What will I say when I meet her?Since when I became awkward to speak to Gaya.Is Gaya feeling this too...hmm I wonder.....