Prologue

"Treat people the way you want to be treated"

Such a simple sentence, yet for some reason, it's so hard to follow. So many adults tell you this. I guess they say that to help you be a more morally right person, ya know. So why is it that wherever I look, there are people treating others like trash?

Sure, I see smiling faces and happy folks walking around, but beneath that is something vile and disgusting. These smiling faces lie, cheat, hurt, and turn on others like it's normal. I know this because I've seen it. You have too. What's even worse, is that you whose reading this is, i'm sure, the exact same as the people I've described.

It's ok though, because i'm the same too. It's natural to be like this, I realized. We all have opinions and hateful thoughts. It's what makes us human, and that human part of us is something that we will never be rid of. Of course that doesn't mean we should openly show off our hatred and our rude opinions.

I suppose that's something I picked up rather late though. For some reason nobody told me that there are some things that I should keep to myself. I know now of course that some things shouldn't be said. I just wish I had learned a little sooner.

I guess what i'm trying to say is that because of this mistake, i opened my mouth and said something that was viewed as rude and unnecessary. I didn't know that my life would spiral out of control because of that one statement. To think my comment on someone's stupid fucking hair would lead to years of bullying and resentment form my entire school.

Barely a freshman, still optimistic and hopeful, and then suddenly crushed by reality. And just two years later, here we are. You, reading this, and me, hanging here.

Sorry you had to see me in such a state. I'm sure you're quite shocked too. But now, i could care less, since, y'know, i'm dead.

Guess its time for my final words.

I was told to shut my mouth by so many people. Even when I faced bullying and depression, " You're overreacting" " Stop being so dramatic" " If that were true then why are you still here?". Shut down again, and again, and again, and again.

Don't spout bullshit that if I had just talked to someone, or asked for help, this wouldn't have happened. Because I did. And nobody listened.

Nobody

If they wanted to teach us something about morals then don't say shit like " Treat people the way you want to be treated". It's all bullshit and nobody listens to it. Instead teach this.

Don't think about others. Think about yourself first and foremost. Because when everyone leaves you, you'll only have yourself. So you better love yourself a lot or else you'll end up like me.

Sincerely,

Me