Chapter Five

“Why are you taking me to his house” I asked Charity as we stood in front of my neighbor's house.

“That's where the party is and I knew you were going to reject my invitation if I told you, so let's go”, She replied, quickly opening the door and dragging me inside.

“ Jesus this place is loud” I said loudly

“Stop using the Lord's name in vain” Charity said.

When we got to where the drinks were placed, charity grabbed a cup for she and I. The drink wasn't really strong or alcoholic, I guess they watered it down with something. I took a small sip as I wasn't sure how my body will react to alcohol.

“I see Lin, I'm going to talk to her”She said pointing at a red haired girl standing alone.

“Okay” I said nervously. I didn't want to be alone as this was my first party. Most times if charity asked me out I just plainly refuse her but I wanted to be here today. Everyone at bladsville knew each other as the community wasn't that big and we had a central church so alot of people knew me,so they waved at me. I wasn't really a social butterfly so each time they waved I did a little shy wave of my own. My eyes discreetly looked for Morningstar but I couldn't find him anywhere. I felt someone standing behind me, all my hairs stood up, chills ran down my spine causing a tingling sensation in my body for a moment I couldn't breathe as I knew that it was him behind me as his shadow towered over me.

I felt weak and all my courage disappeared from me. I didn't even have the courage to turn around and look at him. I felt him grip my arms, I was close to fainting when he turned me around at a fast speed that made me slightly dizzy.

He took my hands in his dragging me out of the party and up the stairs to a room I felt was his.

“I didn't expect you to be here” He said leaning on the wall. I stood opposite him, feeling awkward to be in a the same room with him.

“Charity invited me” I whispered. I didn't even know why I was whispering.

“So pink huh. You look good” He said staring at me with a dark look in his eyes that was fueled by lust.

I didn't dare raise up my head to look at him. My hands started shaking, I didn't even understand what was happening. I felt him coming closer to me till our nose touched, our breath mingled together. I shivered and the place his nose touched mine turned numb. My eyes widen as i felt his hands on my face, I didn't dare raise up my head. He carress my face, touching me softly.

I felt his hands on my naked thigh, It made my eyes to redden and my chest, heaving up and down. The air felt ambiguous and sensual , all I wanted to do was run away.

“Look at me” He ordered.

The order gave no room for retreat but to obey him. I lifted my head to his, my brown eyes meeting his green ones. The stare felt as if he had sucked my soul away and the deeper I stared into his eyes the deeper I fell. His hands on my thighs moved further, dragging upwards slowly, with each touch it ignited a fire that couldn't be ignored. My body felt weak and I couldn't move from the spot I was, I moved a step backwards but my back hit the wall.

Morningstar stared at me as if studying me, his moving hands had stop just mid thigh and I breathed a sign of relief at the same time missing his touch. We were standing so close to each other that I could feel his body. My redden eyes looked up at him showing that I've been wronged. He moved both hands to my face as though he wanted to kiss me. His head bent to my level. His nose rubbed against mine and it made that place itchy. His lips moved closer to mine, his hot breath landing on my face, I close my eyes half in anticipation and half in trepidation but I was surprised when his lips didn't meet mine but my neck inhaling my scent, his teeth scraped the skin there, sucking on it gently till am sure it left a mark. He removed his lips from there and stared at me. I swallowed hard and took every courage in me to talk to him.

“What are you doing” I asked him, looking at my hands that I raised to push him away was holding tightly to his shirt.

Embarrassed I removed my hands from his shirt hiding it behind my back.

“Why.... I love the feel of it” He said, gesturing to my hands.

I blushed shyly refusing to look at him.

“I need to go. Charity must be looking for me” I said creating an excuse for me to flee away.

“Oh really”He replied leaning against the wall, standing beside me

“Yes so bye” I said, running away with my heart beating loudly.

“Little bird you can't run away” Morningstar said whipping out a smoke from the back of his pocket and lightened it up.

I laid in bed last night feeling giddy about what happened that night, just the thought of it made my heart beat a little faster even now, this morning. I laid on the bed thinking about last night and trying to find the reason for his actions. The spot on my neck was so sensitive and the Cool breeze of the morning didn't help matters, I looked around my room the purple walls stared back at me, I had this huge urge to peep at him from my window.

“I would just do it, it doesn't matter” I said aloud giving in to the urge. I stood behind my grey curtains and looked inside his bedroom for any sign of him since his window was close to mine. I didn't know how long I stood there staring until I heard a knock on my room door.

“Eleven can I come in” Owen's little voice sounded.

“Come in darling” I said adopting Thea's words. Owen was really cute with his beautiful blue eyes and adorable cheek.

“Eleven Mom said you should get ready for Church and come down for breakfast” Owen said moving to my side. I couldn't help hugging him and kissing him

“ I'm coming” I told him smiling

“Okay” He shouted running out of the room.

I looked towards Morningstar’s house one more time before entering the bathroom to take a hot shower.

I wore a blue short sleeve dress that reached my knees with a black hat to cover my hair, my curls let loose. I wore flats and I was ready. Since I was adopted I've been attending church, Chris and his family were religious and it also helped me during my weakest times. My belief in God was something I fought with most times but I'm coming to understand and love him and with Thea's positive words I find myself being at peace.

“Come on people let's go” Thea shouted as we entered Chris black SUV and he drove us to church. The only one in town run by Charity's father, Pastor Wilson and his associate pastors.

Church service went on as usual and we closed early, I sat on my seat as people filed in greeting Chris and Thea.

“Eleven how was the service” Charity asked me smiling, her black eyes shining with satisfaction.

“It was good, I enjoyed it” I replied

“So see you in school tomorrow?” She asked

“Of course sure” I replied laughing.

Charity and I understood each other, we didn't really talk alot but we spoke when needed.

Thankfully Chris was done talking with people so he took us home. The Sunday afternoon sun shined brightly and I wondered if Morningstar was at home, if he was alright and if he was thinking about last night.

My thoughts were clouded with him till the wee hours of the night. When I closed my eyes to sleep, the dreams started.

“Shoot him” An unknown voice said, The childlike me was holding a gun and when I looked at were she was pointing it at was at the green eyed child.

“Lee do it. Am going to be fine” The child said smiling.

Lee couldn't do it her hands began shaking and the man beside herwhom I couldn't see his face started shouting at her. The green eyed child looked worried as he looked around, shouting frantically for her to shoot but she still couldn't do it.

The soldiers around came to her and placed something on her body which made her to vibrate till she fell on the ground. The little boy's cries a far distance in her memory. The shock forced me up from the dream. Thankfully I didn't wake anyone. I put my hand on my heaving chest and wiled my heart too stop beating so fast. I curled on my bed and wondered what the hell was I missing.