Far from me

It has been four days since I am came in the village. Neighbors were friendly as ever but I was having hard time.

I haven't had anything nicely since I came here. The only thing I can eat is ....nothing I can't eat anything nicely. I wanted to eat something sour so I went to pick up some raw mangoes.

I wish there was someone would take care of me at the times like this.

Just as i was back from picking raw mangoes,I saw my house door wasn't locked. I am sure I locked it.

"W..who is there? (gasp)*shocked* H..how? W..why are you h..here?"

It was Cai. An unexpected person came. He looked haggard. He had dark circles under his eyes and it looked like he hadn't shaved his beard for some days.

I unconsciously stepped backward when Cai started moving toward me.

"That's what I should be asking why are you here? Why did you suddenly leave my place and came to this countryside."

"T..that. "

"Is it because you were pregnant!!!"

"H..how did you k..know?"

"Why didn't you tell me directly and choose runaway? Why Wei Jia? Was that whole month we spend together was nothing to you? Was I not good to you? Was it because you didn't trusted me yet?"

"Y..you said you hated c..childrens(scream)!!"

"Huh? When did...(realization) Ah that time."

"I..l was afraid you w..would make me abort b..bab.... Ahhhhhhhhhh!!!!

....

After much difficulty we finally managed to find the location where Wei Jia was staying. I was anxious all the time. What if something happened to Wei Jia?

I didn't care about my appearance at all. I couldn't sleep even if I wanted to. I was in same suit I wore four days ago.

I didn't realized it earlier but Wei Jia that girl had become inseparable part of me. Now I can't live without her. I need her by my side by force or by her own desire.

The place she lived was little far from road, so we had difficulty finding it. As we were walking towards her I became more and more anxious but when we arrived there was no one in the house.

How could she live like this? She left the door open even thief could have come instead of us . How could she be so careless?

After a while she finally returned. She was shocked to see me. I started questioning her. I wanted to know why did she did that but...

Was I that frightening to her that she had to walk backward to be far from me?

When she answered my question I was shocked. It was due to me that she choose to runaway. It was all my fault that she had to run away while being pregnant.

I wanted to grasp her in my arms and never let her go but if I do that she will be very far from me that I can't reach her.

I don't want to lose her for forever.