8. The Moment I Matured

Today, is the day I came back from a four day family trip. The trip was filled with exhaustion, backpain and momentary happiness. But, as I was going to reach home, it came to me like the knowledge of a skill...some system sends to its user.

It was like...

"Oh! Is that how I was behaving till now? How Childish!!!"

I matured in that very moment. I don't know what made it, I don't know the reason, the timing and the phenomenon. It's just, I realized. That I got matured.

My past behaviors came to my mind one by one like a flashcard. And I realized how childish was I behaving and how, the reactions of those which I thought were annoying, were right on the mark.

Now, It's been One Hour since I matured. And, I'm writing this chapter to take a note of this.

After that moment, My mind has become calm. I no longer am interested in other's viewpoint of me. Somehow, I have also stopped making those delusional stories I used to make based to the what-if scenarios. I just no longer am interested in any of my past rituals.

My Mind is clear. I have stopped overthinking things. I have stopped assuming things. I am more calm now. I don't try to make small talks. I don't use any words if I'm not truly confirm about their need. I have stopped adding 'i think?, aaahh..,etc.' at the ends of my sentences.

It feels nice. It came to me just like how a thunder comes during a storm in the sky.

It was like BAAM!!! just once. And then, Everything became calm in my head.

It's like one of my heavy burdens were lifted.

I'm feeling safe now.

I realized that I have to think realistically as well. Being an idealistic is not for me.

It is nice to see this change.

I'm writing this chapter to check if I stay just like this, even after I wake up from a sleep tommorrow.

If I can stay like this? I will be filled with joy.

And, if not, rereading this chapter tommorrow cannot harm.

P.S :- Just wanted to share with those Whom I consider My Friend.