Making Amends

Elena's POV

When Jonathan came into our home and took over everything that I loved, I felt like my life was coming to an end, he took everything away from me and he wasn't sorry about it. I guess I was waiting for the part when he would say that he was sorry.

We went to the bonfire and we found the rest of the Pack there and for one night there was no Cresent pack or Lunar pack, we were all just one pack. Everyone sitting around the bornfire and talkin about the good old times.

The elders were also there and I got to spend time with my sister's, we spoke about our father and that he would have probably been there with us and telling stories about his battles whilst getting drunk on moonshine.

I urged Jonathan to make a short speech and he mentioned that he was looking forward to working with everyone and that tonight proved that we can all work together if we put our minds to it.

Jonathan said that this is a start of a new era and that it is about time we moved with the times and started treating each other as one. I was holding my breath hoping that he wouldn't mention the conclaid because I wasn't sure that I wanted to go through with it anymore.

I have seen how big and strong Jonathan is and even though I am bigger than most, I can never measure the strength no matter how hard I train. I will be going into a battle that I know that I am going to lose for sure and I was wondering how that was going to be good for me.

The fact is that I needed to face the truth and accept it for what it really was. The truth is that my father went into battle and he lost that fight. I wasn't there to witness what happened but being with Jonathan the last few hours I can see that he is an honorable man so I know that he must have won fairly.

My father was the greatest fighter I know but even I have seen that the last couple of years he hasn't had his full strength, he was old and he wasn't as strong as he used to be. I knew that because there were a couple of times where I was able to knock him out during our training sessions.

I known it deep in my heart for some time that my father was getting weaker but I didn't want to accept it and so did he, we pretended like everything was ok but I think he also knew that he was getting weaker.

I guess I never thought that the day would come when he wouldn't return to us as usual. I never thought a day would come when we would have a new alpha because I always thought that I was going to be the alpha of this pack.

I never thought about the possibility of someone challenging him and beating him. I never thought that someone would actually take on my father's place because that was always supposed to be my place.

Jonathan killed my father but we are at the end of the day predatory creatures. I know that my father was never going to bow down to someone else so that is probably why Jonathan had to kill him.

I am glad that I have my sisters are with me because right now they are the only family I have, my father is not here but I am and I have to make sure that we stay together no matter what.

we came back home a few minutes ago and I am in my bedroom but I cannot sleep. Jonathan has to know what is on my mind. I have to tell him what is on my mind about the fught and the engagement.

This is no longer just about me but about everyone I know. I cannot allow someone else to take what is rightfully ours so the only way for me to protect everyone is for to me to agree to this marriage.

He did say that he had a business to run and while he is busy with his business then I will be busy doing what I was born to do, this is going to be a marriage of convenience so I might as well do what I have to do.

I do not have to love the guy I just have to tolerate him, with my sisters by my side I know that I can do this. I also know that I will have a lot of support and that a lot of people will have my back.

I do not understand why my father did not bow down and save his life but I know that I am not going to do the same mistake he did, he could have chose to stay alive for us but he chose to die because of his honour.

My father used to tell us a lot of things and one of those things was that a living dog is better than a dead lion. I just wish that he had followed his own advise. I don't think that Jonathan would have casted him out if he conceded and bowed down.

I have to let go of the anger. I have to see reason and everything that happened even though nothing makes sense to me right now, if my mother was here she would have told me that everything happens for a reason.

My mother was beautiful just as she was wise. she was kind and she was sweet, unlike my sister's I had the privilege of getting to know her and for the first ten years of my life it was the most wonderful experience of my life.

I can only hope that they are together right now and that they are both looking down on us and protecting us like I now have to protect everyone else.

I changed into my night gown and opened the drawer. I took out my diary and ran my fingers through it. It was the last thing my mother gave me. It's a mystical diary which only I can read.

If someone else attempts to read it the pages become blank. This is where I wrote all my deepest thoughts. I took it and put in under my pillow. I got in bed and switched off the bedside light. I closed my eyes and tried to get some sleep.

I was still trying to think about how to go about telling Jonathan that I didn't want us to fight anymore. I was going to accept his proposal and we are getting married under the willow tree where we will be united not only in body but in spirit as well.

This union will be like no other because it will be the first of it's kind. Never in our history has one pack married into another pack. We always stick to our own kind. we always end up with one of our own.

Jonathan was right about one thing in his speech, this is a new era and with that we had to have change. change isn't always pretty but sometimes it's necessary. I take a deep breath and closed my eyes hoping that sleep will eventually come.

As I closed my eyes I heard a soft knock on my door and I wondered who it could be, my sisters are tired and drunk so I know without a doubt that they are definitely asleep. I got out of bed and went to the door.

I was about to give whoever was on the other side of the door a piece of my mind because we were all tired and we all needed some time to rest, whoever it was that I have a damn good explanation why they are here bothering me at this moment.

I opened the door and found Jonathan on the other side. I didn't expect him to come knocking at my door but I sure was interested to hear what he has to say.

"Can we talk?" He asked me.

"Sure, come in. " I said.

I was watched him come I and I motioned to sit on my bed, I followed and sat next to him. I had no idea why he was here but I know that he has a serious look on his face. I look I hadn't seen in him but then I don't really know him that well.

"Elena I wanted to thank you for tonight." he said. I was confused because I didn't know what he was thanking me for.

"Okay, I would appreciate it more if I knew what I did to deserve that." I said.

"Thanks for having my back at the born fire." He said.

"It's a pleasure, you are our leader and it was only right that you say something to your people." I said.

"My People?" He asked with a bit of shock.

"Yeah, these are your people." I said.

"Okay that's nice..." He said sounding unsure.

"Was that all?" I asked him because I didn't think that this was the only reason he came here.

"I wanted to talk about your training tomorrow." He said.

"Okay... what about it." I asked him.

"I don't want you to do it." He said.