Chapter 11:Zeal

"Passion is wholehearted

devotion; it is fervor and agony; it

is temper and zeal."

-------Rebecca Ross.

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Life hadn't been peaceful at all.But with time, the anxiety had shimmered down to a great extent.....mainly you can assume that it had been due to Almighty's grace yet it wasn't....it was due to Blue and Blue alone.

All these years she had been constant,distant or close.And never I had expressed my emotions to her nor had I confessed how much I owe her till date.....

And see the wheel of fortune, never I will be able to do so even.The darkness had chased me back again and consumed me whole without any return....hmmm..

So many years have passed by .....but the longing never dissipated. Live drifted by hastily, nonetheless the morals, ethics and manners I acquired from her still courses through my veins and is wholeheartedly sculpted in my psyche.

See the fate,Blue was the glimmering light of my wretched life;she taught me how to praise the good things in my life,made me reinvent myself and most importantly she encouraged me to love myself and funnily kids.I always had an revulsion for the kids,may be because I thought I won't be good enough for caring them but she smashed that perception as well...

Only if I hadn't got the experience, I would have missed such an impeccable joy.So I always wanted to thank her but no,more than that I wanted to share the pleasure with Blue...

We have drifted a long time apart,two strangers with vast oceans of unspoken words imprisoned in our hearts.

Thus when one suddenly gets to know that their kid is no more...its a real blow,a tempest of emotions and grief whirling deep within one's heart and a clenching ache slowly incapacitating you .....

Therefore Blue's wrath is obvious. She had loved Angie as her own and that too unconditionally....she lost Angie too.....

Hence I gave her the space but no more....I ought to have my answers and I need to protect them for the storm is

brewing and will approach soon.... because the evil is set free....

And Blue is in grave danger....

Ahh....,regurgitating all this makes my mind detonate.

"Where the hell are you,Pige?" is all mutter to myself as I race back to our Riverside Residence.After hanging up with Galazy,I had searched for Blue,but she was nowhere to be found.....she must have gone back home already.

But what awaited back there, was extremely stupefying....I could have never imagined that this day would arrive and this encounter would be on Angie's burial service day....I simply can't explicate what was I undergoing, a rush of affection swiftly empowering my soul again.

I was flabbergasted on coming face-to-face with David,he had grown up so much,the lanky boy of mine had transformed into burly teenager now with those stormy silver-grey eyes taking me in entirely ....and later,awkwardly we had hugged with the gesture being so genuine that we both whimpered quietly.Gleefully,the rest of the gang had joined us too in our group hug .....and you won't believe the surprise bombshell awaited for me was a little plump chubby doll,so pale like porcelain with brown mop of hair,teal eyes and rosy lips...

As my eyes met her innocent ones,my heart caroled with ecstasy...it cheered up,and somehow I knew she was....

Bam!Bam!!

Blue had abruptly stormed in and on seeing us huddled together,she stiffened momentarily and then in the next instant she instructed all others to get back inside....

Frankly I was rendered speechless for I caught the glimpse of relief she felt on spotting us together but later the solace had faded away....

Subduing my thoughts, I sighed and gazed back at the kids,as they glanced back ....sniffing and wiping away their tears.

Amazingly though,as if oblivious to everything around, the doll wobbly came around me and asked,"Are you my Dada?".

Jolted from her words I broke down....her voice sounded so musical and syrupy that I spaced out briefly.

In the time being, Blue had sent them back to their rooms, and now only I and she stood,motionless.Coughing a bit, I glimpsed at her questioningly .....

On cue she huskily replied, "Well you may be thinking who is she,so here is your answer-she is my daughter. "

"Your daughter, what the hell Blue...",I shouted as I shook her frantically.

"Don't you dare lie,you know how I anticipated for this day with zeal....why didn't you tell me..."

"Tell you,were you even there during then?Nope,you weren't....I was all alone with the rest",she retorted sobbingly.

"She.Is.My.Daughter. "

Later after a minute or two she astonished me by slapping my face squarely and thrashed me hard on the chest.Weepingly she whispered, "She is our daughter...dammit."

Her mumbling rendered me speechless that I collapsed on the ground along with Blue as I held her firmly to me....