9. Chapter 9
Chapter 9: What I Deserved
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AN: Hey guys, I don't know why but I feel like I've been on a roll so far. So, I guess that's how come I've been doing more writing on this story than my other ones. Now I know I shouldn't be going that, but it's just so hard to get on with one story and than get back on a totally different one the next. And because of that. I decided to continue writing on this story because why the hell not. Now that doesn't mean I'm not forgetting my other stories and leaving them for dead. I'm only doing what I love, and that's writing. But you see when I'm writing the same stuff over and over. You can see why I want to focus on certain things or even take a break from time to time. Which is why I'm more focused on this story because there is so much for me to do. So yeah, I hope you guys can understand why I'm not working on some of my other stories. OK, now this is the part where I answer some questions but unfortunately I couldn't find any in the reviews. However, I did see that a bit of you guys don't like how I'm pacing the story. Because we're on chapter 9 as of right now and Lincoln still hasn't reunited with the rest of his family. Now I can see why some of you don't like that, but you have to understand that I'm not on a normal schedule like some of you. Because when I write, it's ether early in the morning, late at night or in the middle of the afternoon when I'm lucky. Now the reason why it's like that is because I'm trying to become a pro wrestler on my spare time and doing my job all in the same day. Now I won't go into much detail other than that, like where I work or what my work schedule is, because that's my personal life. So yeah, you can see why I pace the story the way I do. It's not because I'm a lazy turd, it's because I have other things to do. Not that I don't like doing this you know, but it's just hard sometimes to find the time I hope you can understand. Anyways, let's do this! ON WITH THE CHAPTER! Hope you enjoy! Also sorry about taking awhile guys. It's just been a hectic time for is all. Oh and there might be some mature language up ahead as well. So yeah, just a heads up. Don't worry though, nothing too major.
"WHERE WERE YOU WHEN LUCY WAS BORN!? WHERE WERE YOU WHEN THE TWINS WERE BORN!? WHERE WERE YOU WHEN LISA WAS BORN!? WHERE WERE YOU WHEN YOUR 11 MONTH OLD LITTLE SISTER WAS BORN!? WHERE WERE YOU WHEN YOU WEREN'T THERE TO HOLD THEM WHEN THEY CAME HOME FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME!?" Lori continued to scream at Lincoln, who could only keep taking all the verbal punishment she gave him. And slowly it was beginning to take a huge toll on him, word by word was hurting him to his very core. So much, that tears were threatening to fall from his face. All of it, all of it was too much for him. As every word was beginning to process through his head, Lincoln had finally decided enough was enough.
"WHAT DO WANT ME TO SAY LORI!? TELL ME RIGHT NOW AND I'LL SAY IT! BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE TO STAND HERE AND LISTEN TO THIS! I CAN LEAVE RIGHT NOW IF YOU WANT ME TO! JUST SAY IT!" Lincoln yelled as he looked down at Lori with anger in his eyes. Which totally caught Lori off guard, so much so that she almost felt fear when she saw the look in his eyes. Because she never once saw a look in her brother's eyes like the one she was currently seeing right now. If she had to be honest with herself, it frightened her a little bit. But Lori wasn't a coward, so she decided not to back down not even a little to a still distraught Lincoln. In fact, Lori decided to say something that would probably even make Lincoln more upset than he already was.
But before she or Lincoln could say or do anything, both brother and sister began to hear a door begin to open. And that door so happened to be located right behind where Lincoln was standing. And while that was happening, Lincoln slowly started to realize something. The music that was playing loudly in Luna's room had came to a stop. In fact, as Lincoln began to think harder on it. He suddenly started to realize something else, something very important that he almost wanted to punch himself for forgetting it. Lincoln had figured out that the music coming from Luna's room… had stopped playing long ago! As he began to remember it more clearly this time, he remembered that it stopped when he and Lori started to talk! Which could only mean one thing!
'Oh no, please don't tell me she heard us arguing! Oh please no!' Lincoln thought as he began to panic when he came to the conclusion of what was happening and going to happen. But before he could do or say anything. The door slowly began to open.
Now, while Luna's door continued to slowly open. Lincoln and Lori were both beginning to fear the worse. Because both siblings had finally figured out that not only had Luna been eavesdropping on them. But had overheard everything, including when Lincoln came clean about the reason why he left. And that wasn't even the worst part. The worst part was that Luna most likely also heard their little shouting match they had a little while ago. And if that was the case, both Lincoln and Lori knew that wasn't good. Not good at all.
'Oh man, what do I do!? What do I do!? WHAT DO I FREAKING DO!?' Lincoln thought as he began to panic as his expression was that of fear and anxiety! As only thing going through his mind as of right now was what could he do? What will he say? What's going to happen? Those were the only thoughts Lincoln could worry about. And that would be his undoing because the door that he was so worried about was now wide open. Then before Lincoln knew it, he was now facing the person who he was originally going to see right before he ran into Lori. He was now standing face to face with his little sister Luna.
But, something was very strange. At first glance Lincoln thought the girl standing before him wasn't Luna. However after a solid minute of getting a better look at her, and seeing how her expression was when she came face to face with him. It wasn't long before he finally figured out that the young girl staring back at him with tear filled eyes was in fact his sister Luna. She just… looked different. Very different.
The girl standing before Lincoln as of right now wasn't the same little girl that he'd left all those years ago. No, not by a long shot. Luna had short brown hair, something she inherited from their dad and had it styled into a pixie cut. She also had freckles on her cheeks and had light purple eye shadow on. But it appeared that as she was crying, a little bit of the eye shadow was beginning to wash down her face. Luna was also wearing some very interesting clothes that Lincoln distinctly remember her not owning the last time he saw her. She was currently wearing a purple t-shirt with a skull on it, a light purple skirt with a square pattern, a grey belt wrapped around her skirt and was also wearing some high purple boots, and was wearing paperclips for earrings for some unknown reason. She also had two black bracelets on both of her arms that matched. Overall she almost looked like a punk rock star, or was trying to seem like one.
'OK… my little sister is a rocker… that's something. Well, I guess that explains the music and guitar from earlier.' Lincoln thought as he remembered the reason why he came upstairs in the first place. However as he was remembering, he took another look at Luna. And saw that she had appeared to be crying. Probably because of what she heard when she was eavesdropping on his conversation with Lori.
'If you can call getting kneed in the nuts and get shout at a conversation? Then yeah, guess Luna got the whole thing loud and clear.' Lincoln thought sadly as he had a small frown and disheartening when he saw the condition of what his sister was in. It only got worse when he continued to see tears fall gently from her face along with a few bits of eye shadow she had too. It was then at that point of time Lincoln only felt worse for what he did. And it would seem he wasn't the only one ether.
Since it appeared that Lori wasn't faring to well ether. The expression that the young 17 year old girl had was one very similar that Lincoln currently had. But it quickly changed when she took a sideways glance towards Lincoln. The expression Lori had now was that of what a very pissed grizzly bear would have if you had just messed with one of its young. So yeah, even though Lori felt some of the guilt for getting Luna into the state she was in right now. It didn't mean that she didn't think this whole thing was Lincoln's fault. After all, it only made sense for her to blame someone else for this whole mess. And unfortunately for Lincoln who was still unaware the look Lori was giving him, was in fact that someone.
'How come I just felt a sudden chill on the back of my spine just now?' Lincoln thought as he now had a small and questionable look on his face. But after a few moments later, he began to brush it off and think nothing of it.
"So, is it true then?" Said a feminine voice in quiet and shaken tone, which was similar to a few Lincoln had heard over the course of the last hour. A tone that he's heard from his mom, Lynn, Leni, Luan, Lori and now Luna. After hearing what he had just heard, Lincoln slowly turned his attention towards the voice. And saw Luna who still in the shape he last saw her in only moments ago. However this time it was different though. Mainly because the look Luna was currently giving him and the expression on her face.
The look she was giving him wasn't too bad, but was still able to be considered somewhat like a glare. While her expression was something between anger and sadness. However Luna looked to be more depressed than angry. Something that Lincoln took account of quick.
'And here we go again.' Lincoln thought with a small dejected sigh as he started to rub the back of his head once again. Which was something he was doing a lot as of late, probably because it was his copping mechanism when dealing with stuff like this. Honestly he didn't know.
"Well… I'm waiting." Luna said simply as she continued to lock her gaze onto Lincoln, who still appeared to be at an impasse on what he should say. And the look Luna was giving him wasn't helping ether. So, he just decided to wing it.
"You know what… I just don't know what to say Luna. Alright, I just don't know." Lincoln said simply with a small sigh and a dejected expression on his face. But even though he admitted what he said was true. It would seem that wasn't good enough for Luna.
"You don't know!? Really!? That's all you have to say!?" Luna asked as the tone of her voice got a little bit louder and bit more aggressive. Something Lincoln took note of quickly. In fact, if he was being honest with himself. Lincoln was getting a little bit sick and tired from all of this. And it was only going to get worse since it would seem Luna wasn't done with him yet.
"I mean really!? After all the stuff you said to Lori!? Your not going to do some heart felt speech about how you feel terrible for what you did!? Your not going to say sorry, really!? REALLY LINCOLN!? AFTER EVERYTHING YOU SAID, YOU HAVE NOTHING TO SAY TO ME!?" Luna exclaimed in a very loud tone and with tears still continuing to fall from her face. The crying rocker girl then decided to get up close and personal with Lincoln and slowly marched her way up to him. And now she was staring up at Lincoln with the best glare she could manage. But even then and there Lincoln kept his composure, not even backing down a little to the young rebellious rocker standing in front of him. However that was going to immediately change when Luna decided to push her luck with her already irritated brother.
"GOD, YOU ARE SUCH GOOD FOR NOTHING BASTARD!" Luna yelled out at Lincoln, who still kept his calm and collect expression. But that expression was slightly changing when Luna decided to try and shove him. Luckily however Luna wasn't too strong like Lynn was when she caught Lincoln by surprise. So the shove was nothing more than a little nudge to him. But the words of malice that Luna continued to scream at him was beginning to take affect on him.
"I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU! AFTER ALL THE HELL YOU PUT ME THROUGH! AFTER EVERYTHING YOU DID YOU HAVE NOTHING TO SAY!? AT LEAST TELL ME IT WASN'T EASY FOR YOU TOO YOU ASSHOLE!" Luna continued yell at Lincoln while she also kept trying to shove him off balance. And the shoving and yelling continued, all of it was really starting to get on Lincoln's last nerve.
It was only right that he was feeling the way he was as of now. Especially after everything he's been put through today. So, after a few moments of getting shoved and letting Luna's cold words sink in. Lincoln finally decided to give his dear little sister a response.
"ALRIGHT, YOU WANT TO HEAR WHAT I HAVE TO SAY!? FINE!" Lincoln yelled out at Luna who was completely caught off guard by her brother's sudden outburst. And she wasn't the only one either, since it seem Lori was also surprised by Lincoln's outburst. Furthermore, it appeared that Lincoln wasn't done yet. Seeing that he finally got Luna's attention, Lincoln decided to give what she wanted from him.
"MY LIFE WAS HELL OUT THERE LUNA! THE FIRST FEW YEARS OUT THERE WERE THE WORST YEARS OF MY LIFE! AND NOT JUST BECAUSE YOU GUYS WEREN'T THERE WITH ME EITHER!" Lincoln continued to yell out while tears were starting to fall down his face, just like what happened with Luna only minutes ago.
"YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT I HAD TO GO THROUGH OUT THERE BY MYSELF! THE AMOUNT OF DAYS I HAD TO GO WITHOUT FOOD! THE MOST DESPERATE TIMES I HAD TO DIG THROUGH THE GARBAGE JUST TO FIND THE SCRAPS THAT NOBODY ELSE WANTED! THE DAYS I HAD TO DEAL WITH STOMACH SICKNESS I GOT LATER ON FROM THOSE SAME SCRAPS!" Lincoln yelled out at Luna as he continued on his relentless tear filled rant. Which was beginning to take affect on both Luna and Lori, who were starting to let Lincoln's words sink in their minds. And in their hearts.
"THERE WERE TIMES I THOUGHT THAT WAS MY PUNISHMENT, MY PUNISHMENT FOR LEAVING ALL OF YOU! ON THOSE DAYS, WHEN I WAS COLD, ALONE AND HUNGRY! I THOUGHT MAYBE THAT WAS GOD'S DEVINE FURRY OR JUST PLAIN KARMA GIVING ME WHAT FREAKING I DESERVED!" Lincoln yelled as his voice was starting to get little shaky, and the tears he had on his face remained. All the emotions he's had pent up, all of it was beginning to slowly be let out. By every single word he spoke or yelled out. Was one he let everything out. And every time he did that, the less he was afraid to say what he truly wanted to say.
"THERE WERE TIMES I JUST WANTED SOMETHING BAD TO HAPPEN AND JUST TAKE MY MISERABLE LIFE! THE AMOUNT OF TIMES I HAD TO LAY DOWN ON SOME DIRTY UNDERPASS JUST TO GET SOME SLEEP OR SOME SHELTER FROM THE DAMN RAIN OR THE FREEZING SNOWFALL WERE HELL!" Lincoln continued to yell out as his anger and self loathing were beginning to get the better of him. And as every word he spoke got harder for him to say, Lincoln thought back to those days were he suffered on the road. The days he went without food, the times he got sick and the those rare moments he got so exhausted from exposure that he couldn't stand or move. Those rare moments where he almost thought that was it for him.
"SO YEAH, DON'T TELL ME YOU WERE THE ONLY ONES WHO WERE PUT THROUGH HELL! BECAUSE I HAD TO GO THROUGH SOME OF THE WORST YEARS OF MY LIFE OUT THERE ALONE! THE THINGS I HAD TO DO JUST SO I COULD KEEP ON SURVIVING UNTIL THE NEXT DAY, AND THE DAY AFTER THAT!" Lincoln managed to yell out as his voice was beginning to get a little weak and shaky. And him crying his eyes out weren't helping either. But Lincoln didn't seem to care the least about that. Since it would seem he was too preoccupied with dealing all the emotions he was feeling currently. And what he was doing to express those emotions.
Which was him releasing all those emotions by him crying his eyes out, or him yelling out his anguish and sadness out for everyone to hear. That meant more so for both Luna and Lori, who were both shocked and a little shaken by what their big brother had said. It was more of a shock to say the least. Especially since both girls have yet to hear what went on with Lincoln's life after he left. So, hearing what happened to him out there for the first time was shocking and a little hard to hear. And as Lincoln's words began to process through both girl's heads, both couldn't help but feel a bit sorry for their brother. But before either Luna or Lori could say or do anything. Lincoln, who now started to calm down began to speak once again.
"Sure I managed fine after awhile, but it wasn't easy. I had to do a lot of things I didn't want to do out there. From doing a bit of shoplifting to being stinking pickpocket. Stuff I'm not proud of, but I did it." Lincoln said as his tone was quiet and his voice was calm but still a little shaky. Maybe because of all the yelling he was doing, or even the crying as well. Either way, he just felt exhausted and a little bit weak to his knees. But that didn't stop him from continuing to speak.
"I did it… because no matter how much shit I had to put up with out there by myself, it gave some sort of hope that when things got worst for me. Things probably got better for you, for all of you. And that's what made everything I had to be put through all worth it." Lincoln said simply as he slowly started to wipe away the tears that remained on his face. And as he was doing that, both Luna and Lori were both speechless and had no idea what to do.
While at first Lori and maybe Luna were both alright with them making Lincoln loosing his cool, both girls didn't count on him telling them what he's been telling them. Mainly him telling them what happened to him out there shorty after he left and what he did. To be honest, it was a little hard to believe what he was saying. But somehow both girls knew that what he was saying was true. No matter how much they didn't want it to be.
Now, while both Luna and Lori did feel some remaining anger and bit of animosity towards Lincoln. Both girls couldn't help but feel a little sorry for their brother. And it would appear Luna, the one who probably escalated the whole ordeal, felt more sorry than Lori. So, for whatever reason. Luna slowly started to reach out her hand towards Lincoln, hoping to maybe comfort him in some way. Even though she did feel a little angry at him at the start of all this. The young rocker girl couldn't help but feel like the naïve young girl she used to be. What she uses to be before Lincoln left. Which was almost a life time for Luna now that she thought about.
Now before Luna could continue to think on the matter, she quickly took notice that her hand was inching closer and closer to Lincoln. And just as her hand was about to make contact with Lincoln. A sudden voice called out to Luna, Lincoln and Lori that got their attention.
"Now girls, I think that's enough. Give your brother some space." Said someone in a calm and authoritative like tone. And as soon as Lincoln heard that voice, he immediately brought his head up and looked towards the direction where the voice was coming. Which was at the end of the hallways where, if he remembered correctly, was where his parent's bedroom was located. And he was right. Because when he looked to that direction, Lincoln had finally found the person who called out to him and his sisters. A person that Lincoln instantly recognized as someone special to him. And that someone was his father.
"Because I think me, him and your mother need to have a long and serious discussion." Mr. Loud said in a serious and calm tone as he looked towards Lincoln with his cold and harden eyes. Which almost made Lincoln flinch a little as he tried his best to avert his dad's gaze. But not before getting a good and long look at his dad, and taking notice on how much he's changed over the last few years. Lincoln could see that his dad was wearing a green sweater with a yellow checkered collar and cuffs, and brown slacks. He could also see that years haven't been too well on him like it was with his mom, since he could see a bit of his hair thinning on top of his head around his curly brown hair.
'Great, here I am spilling my guts out and dad just so happens to hear most of it. If not all of it! It's official… my life sucks!' Lincoln thought simply with a large and dejected sigh as he looked to the floor with a small frown.
To Be Continued
AN: Looks like things aren't going Lincoln's way. First he takes a tongue lashing from Lori and then Luna, he then also decides to spill his guts out for Luna and Lori. Telling them he's suffered just like them if not more than anyone. And now he finds out he has to deal with the patriarch of the family, his dad. Man, things aren't look too good for Lincoln. Hopefully he can survive what his dad has in store for him. Anyways, sorry for taking so long for the this chapter. I've just been a little sick and the last couple of days have been very hectic for me. So, I hope you can understand why I've been absent. Also, I hope you guys loved the chapter and like the little preview of what Lincoln used to do when he was out by himself. Yeah, stuff wasn't too good for our young friend out there when he started out. Alright, guess this is goodbye for now. You know, until the next chapter comes out. Hope you guys can forgive me if I've made any errors or mistakes, also I hope you leave a review and a question if you want. Heck, even leave any ideas you have for the story too if you want. You can also PM if you want, which I will respond if I have the time. So yeah, thanks for reading and do please leave a review. See ya!