Chapter 6

It was a Tuesday morning and I finally decided to talk to Wilfred.The day had already begun and like always I was staring at his behind.

"You can do this,be brave after all his just like any other boy just talk to him like how you do to your classmates"

So I didn't want to tap him from behind because that will too close for me so I used the pretense of going to take my pen from my bag then I moved to his table slowly.when I finally got to his table I just froze,but when he looked at me and our eyes meet I finally managed to say my constructed sentence.

" Hi I didn't get to copy yesterday social studies note,please can you lend me your book"yay! I finally said it but what if he didn't hear me,or doesn't give me the note,or ignores me.A lot was going through my head as I nervously awaited his reply.

"Sure no problem"said Wilfred while taking out his note from his desk and handing it out to me.

I immediately took the note while mumbling a thank you then I quickly went to my sit behind his.

I didn't really finish the note yesterday while I observed if Wilfred wrote the note so that when I collected the note he will see that I was actually writing and not lying.

So I finished the note while handling his note note like an egg until when I returned it back to him.So from that day I started borrowing some of Wilfred things increase our interaction with each other.

A week went by,I observed and learnt that Wilfred was good at maths in which I sucked at so I saw it as an opportunity to "learn maths".So I asked him if he could teach me maths and he agreed.Of course while learning maths I took a lot of glance at his and admired his cute face which led me to be in a daze sometimes while he taught.

Other times I wasn't even listening which made him to explaining it more times before I actually understood it.

I and Wilfred became closer and closer eventually we became close friends. I won't lie it did feel good but I wanted more,I wanted him to be for only me.I felt angry when he interacted with my other school mates and made friends that wasn't me,wanted to be his only friends.

This sudden urge to keep him for my self can of changed my behavior but I tried my best to hide it I order not to scare him or push him away from me.

When I saw that couldn't work I to make him feel jealous by pushing him away and hanging out with other people.

I got annoyed when he didn't react like I wanted him to and he seem like he didn't mind me not hanging out with him like before. I quickly reverted to my past gossiping and attention seeking behavior.

Since I didn't get the attention I needed from him I now craved attention from everyone.I wanted everyone to know and want me,to be the center of attention that was my goal then and to do that I had to start making up stories again about my life and people.