I Fell In Love

I was in 3rd grade when I saw her. I didn't forget her and now I am in 9th grade she is not with me. When I first saw her, she was like an angel. At that time, I didn't know the meaning of love. I always wanted to see her. I wanted to talk to her. I did talk to her. She smiled very brightly. Her hair was Yellowish Brown. Her eyes were light brown. When I talked to her to her, I wasn't sure what will happen. I of course was nervous. I was in 3rd when I first talked to a girl in my life. And when I talked to her, I fell in the depth of love. I was looking at her face as she was talking, her voice was euphonious. Our school was way too far from our home. I confessed my feelings after Final term. My face was red and I was embarrassed. She smiled at me and said yes. I was like 'Yes, yes'. Although, I left the school after 3rd grade we were in contact with phone. I was in 8th grade when everything changed. She wasn't responding my calls all of a sudden. I was anxious. In 9th grade I was able to get her address from my old school mates. I reached at her house at once. I waited for that moment patiently. An old man opened the door. He invited me in. I was happy. Very very very happy. I was sitting on the sofa inside the Guest Room. That Oldman came and sat in front of me and asked why am I here. I told him that I am a friend of his daughter and he was happy for some reasons. He told me that she is not in this world. He was crying but his face had a smile. He said with a smile

"She was happy and she didn't want to tell you about her death and her diseases. She was looking very happy. After her death, she was smiling."

As he was saying he was crying. I couldn't hold my tears too. He gave a paper and said that it was a letter from her.

"Dearest Talha,

Sorry for not telling you about my disease and my death. I know you're angry and sad too. Don't be sad. Your life has just begun. Forget everything. I know it's not that easy because when I wasn't responding yours call, you know, I was crying. I was in the death bed. It was like I am seeing hell. I wanted you at that time. But I didn't want you to witness how weak I really am. You know, I was very pathetic. We didn't meet for last 1 year and that year was really hard. I wanted to see you. I thought that you will forget about me and it was my mistake. You always called me. I knew you would come and look you are reading. I loved you the time I saw you in 3rd grade. I wanted to show my affection towards you but I didn't know what to do. And finally you came and talked to me. I was happy but I didn't want to hurt anyone. I didn't have many friends. When you came and talked to me I was happy and then I wanted to make friends, thanks to you I was able to make friends. It was like dream come true and I lived my to the fullest. I regret only one thing in my life. I was selfish and didn't tell you anything. Sorry. Sorry for everything and thanks for everything, too.

I am sorry!

Thank You!

Your Love!"

I was crying. Tears were falling like a water fall. I didn't notice that I was crying. I said with a painful voice

"Stupid!"

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I don't know what will happen. I am living my life with full of regrets and in pain.