CHAPTER 14: OPEN UP

ERINE

Every time I am on duty in the club, I always got something in my locker. I know where it came from. I still have not thank him. I know he is always roving around the club because I can still spot him from a far.

We do not have a chance to be alone since that Christmas day. I am still confused with the situation we have. I know it is wrong to assume that he likes me because I know in the end; I am not sexy, young and pretty like any other women he dated.

Being the owner of the club, he should be dating with younger women, sexy with flat tummy; beautiful unlike me it is exactly opposite.

Never been married but have a son, older even he is few years older than I. Not sexy am but I can carry my own style.

Thinking about it, is impossible that he was into me. I always keep thinking that what happened was just an alcohol thing that corrupted our minds.

'If it was just alcohol thing then why until now, he keeps giving you something in your locker? You just kidding yourself and you feel it too that there is something else.' a voice in my mind talking. I shook my head to erase that voice talking nonsense.

I recalled my conversation with son on that day.

In just a few minutes, Dean came home with full hands of take-out order from McDo. I was still in the living room when he came in.

"Hey, mom" Dean was smiling at me excitedly as he entered the house.

"Hi son, how was your day with your friends? Are you having fun?" I always ask him his whereabouts.

"Yes, so much fun and even spend our days in the amusement park." He replied excitedly. I guess, he really was having fun with his friends.

"Oh, really! No, girls?" I teasingly asked then we headed to the dining area to put all the take-outs.

I saw him scratched the back of his head. "With some girls and I met a nice one." he said with a shy smile.

"Oh, that is nice to hear. You are really growing up now that I cannot help it," I said as I pouted my lips.

He laughed as he hugged me. "Do not worry Mom, you are still my number one." he said then kissed my temple.

"I know son, as long as you will finish your studies. I will not against it." I said as I tapped his hands. Anyway, I just want to ask about something."

"Okay, what is it Mom?" He paused for a while as he picked up the burger.

I got a little nervous how to open it but well, I need to tell or ask what will be his opinion about me. I sighed then I glanced at him while he was about to eat his burger.

"Well, I just want to open up something or ask you about me… having a love life or dating someone." I asked me nervously. "Are you okay or what will you say what if there might be men wants to court with me?"

"Really, did someone ask you for a date?" Instead, he asked me back excitedly.

"Ammm… well not yet I was just asking you what if?" I denied. I do not want him to know that there was a man I had been sleeping twice. "Are you okay if I will do dating stuff? You will not bother with that."

"Of course, Mom, I will be happy if you go on a date with someone because you have always been with me." Smiling in his face was genuine. He really wants me to be happy. "I want you to find your own happiness. I am not selfish to let you be alone with me. But if you are not wanted to entertain men that is also fine with me."

"Okay, I know. At least, I know what you feel and think about it. You know that you are more important to me than they are." I held his hand. "In addition, your decision is more precious than anything else is.

"I know Mom, me too. I still need your opinion and decisions too when it comes to me." His assurance was all I needed. That no matter what may come, opening to each other is important. "I will always be there for you when you need me and I am still look after you. I love your so much, Mom." He stood up and hugged me tight. "I will be happier if you will find someone who can make you special and treat like a Queen of England." He said as he grinned.

I slightly punched his tummy. "Crazy son" I laughed then, "I love you too."

We continued chatting until we finished our foods. I went back to my room upstairs very confusing. Half of my brain was still thinking about my boss. All of the things happened last night and this morning was so sudden.

It still never synchronizes into my brain as if nada. I do not how this happen to me. I gave myself to the person I barely know. We just met only few months.

But never really been together like knowing the real individuals. Nevertheless, it was just like magic feeling that we did what we did.

I shook my head to forget for a while what just happened to me. I walked thru my bathroom and cleansed everything in my whole body.

As I looked at my bathroom mirror, I was even more shocking he was a maniac.

Hickeys were more in my body.

'Gosh, I got back then during my younger years was just one but now with him I got even more than one.'

"Urrrgh…" I growled as I looked around my body. Then I looked back at myself in the mirror. I smiled as I bite my lower lips. I was thinking about the way he did to me on my bed, in his bed.

"Geez, he was really excellent in bed, in fairness." I said it aloud.