I LOVE YOU,I LOVE YOU

Leylah wanted to stop Suraj's from leaving but she couldn't. She just stood there,a heart wrenching pain exploding through her body.

She remembered the pained and hurt expression, she had saw in Suraj's eyes. which has become Suraj's normal expression for the past few weeks now.

She remembered the way her heart hurt and how hard it was for her when she went to the states. The troubles she went through proving her love for him again when she came back. And how difficult it was to get his love back.

She stood in the same position paralyzed for a while before finally blinking her eyes. She looked down at her trembling hands and then at her baby bump.

" ouch!" She winced when the she felt the baby move suddenly inside her. She looked at her baby bump and carressed it lovingly with her trembling hands.

'What are you doing Leylah? How could you repeat the same mistake? How could you let him go?'.

Suraj was downstairs dragging his bag slowly,he couldn't believe he was leaving his wife and unborn child because of a misunderstanding. If he had listened to Leylah when she warned him about Zara,the situation wouldn't have turned out like this he thought.

Suddenly he heard a voice from above the stairs, " wait" Leylah cried out in desperation.

He turned to see Leylah running down the stairs bare foot and without a care in the world if she fell. she held onto her baby bump as she ran carelessly down the stairs.

Suraj was stunned and just looked at her until she came and engulfed him in a hug. She wrapped her arms around his neck tightly and Suraj instinctively wrapped his arms around her waist. her feet were slightly off the floor beacause she hand to stand on her tip toes to reach his neck.

"Don't leave me Suraj...don't leave me please" Leylah cried as she swayed a little to the side still hugging his neck.

"Am sorry...am sorry...am so....sorry. Please forgive me. I must be a fool to think that I can live without you".

Suraj buried his face in her nape and inhaled her scent for a while,he has really missed her a lot. he slowly removed her hands from around his neck,looked at her and shock his head disappointedly. Then he grabbed his bag and turned to leave again.

When his hands suddenly came up to pry her hands off his neck,her chest overflowed with horror. She look at him with an uneasy heart and asked " Baby.....what are you doing?"

"Leaving" Suraj answered painly as he looked into her eyes with indifference. He bent down and grabbed his bag,before he turned to leave.

"How can you leave me,even if I asked you to leave? how could you?" Leylah said painstakingly and Suraj just looked at her in disbelief.

"Okay I know I have been unreasonable and hard on you. I hurt your feelings and I swear,i hate myself for that. But I didn't really mean it when I said I wanted you to leave". She paused a little to catch her breath and wiped the tears off her face.

" I was torn apart when mum died,I felt like it was my fault she died. I could have saved her,I could have stayed away from Zara somehow and protected my mum. I could have stopped her from coming to the hospital"

"I felt guilty for her death,the feeling was just too much for me to handle. I needed to vent my anger and frustration on someone".

"I was consumed with the guilt of causing my own mother's death,so I just became hysterical. I became bitter and wanted to blame everything on you for not listening to me in the first place" her voice trembled as she spoke, a drop of tear made its way to her cheek again.

"I won't blame it all on my hormones but that too contributed and I was overwhelmed by everything. I will never want to be apart from you my love. Never". Leylah said and reached to touch Suraj's face but he fling her hand away.

" Wow! Leylah,you are really amazing. So its okay for you to hurt me and treat me poorly? Just doing whatever you want and I'll have to accept it like a fool right?".

"Everything has always been about you,every time I always put you first. Ignoring my feelings and just want to do everything to please you".

"Have you ever thought about me,my feelings? Have you ever tried to put me first?....No right? because everything should be about you".

" You are the only one who feels hurt,the only one who can throw a tantrum when things doesn't go her way. Badmouth others and hurt them to satisfy you guilt right?"Suraj pointed out as he threw his hands in front of Leylah.

" But guess what Leylah,I can't anymore. I have loved you blindly for years now without thinking about myself and self respect. I have done everything and anything to please you and didn't even care about my own feelings"

"But that ends now Leylah,am also a person too and I deserved to be loved. I will love and cherish myself,away from you". Suraj declared and Leylah nodded her head in disagreement slowly. But she didn't interrupt him, she just let him vent his frustration.

"Mother's death really hit everybody but nobody nobody hated on another person like you did. Am very sure Zara wouldn't get the amount of hate and cruelty you showed me". He said sorrow starting to envelop him. Leylah just stayed quiet and let him pour out his pain.

He was in agony just recounting how Leylah had treated him. He stayed silent for a while before he spoke again "Am leaving now but I'll be always here for my child. I need time for myself,away from you. Good bye" He declared sternly,his voice trembling abit but he tried as much as he could not to cry.

"Baby,baby,baby...don't. Don't do this please. Am sorry,I was selfish...I have always been selfish. always thinking about myself but I will change now....I swear I will change....for you".

" I promise you,I will try to be a better person but please don't leave me.....please" Leylah held his arms begging him with her tears filled face. Her nose were pink and her face has turned red.

She looked pitiful and he felt his resolve breaking seeing the sight in front of him. it broke his heart. But he didn't want to be fooled anymore. he needs to make her start loving and cherishing him,just as much as he does her.

"Leylah stop this,let me go. You say you'll change this minute and the next minute you are back to your old self"

"No that's not going to happen" she shook her head in disagreement with his words.

"This time Instead of me first,I'll put us first. I promise to love and cherish you the way you deserve but please don't go".

" Leylah...I.....don't.... Know ...."

"Kill me then.....if you leave me am going to die from your absence anyways. So.....it will be better if I just died and...."

"Shh.....don't say that" Suraj heart melted. How could she thinking of dying because of his absence. Minutes ago,he was still thinking about the way she had treated him badly. But now he doesnt care anymore.

He lifted his hand and wiped the tears off Leylah's face. He held her small face in his big palms and stared deep into her eyes and assured her "I won't leave you okay. So don't you ever think of dying".

Leylah smiled and her tears fell even more hearing his assurance. She became an emotional mess and thought to act bratty. "I'll tell our baby that his father wanted to leave his mother even before he was born" Leylah said as she pouted.

"Wh....what?" Suraj was surprised and burst into laughter. "why will you even say such a thing?" he pinched her cheeks and teased her seeing her acting all cute and lovable.

Leylah sighed in relief,she felt happy seeing him laugh like this after a while. Her heart lept in joy too. "I love you Suraj.....I love you my darling husband. my first and last love. You are my reason to live Suraj, I will forever love and treasure you". A warm smile spread across her face as she stared at him with loving eyes and caressed his beards.

" And I love you too my darling wife. my beloved Leylah,,my big baby and the love of my life". Suraj said and kissed her forehead fondly. Then he leaned down and sealed their lips.

"Ah....mm" Leylah was caught unawares by the kiss. Her legs went weak and she felt her body going weak due to his intense kiss. His hand held her face,and the other was placed on her waist.

she could feel the desperation in his kiss which made her surrender to his demands. She held onto the sides of his shirt and stood there like an obedient girl while he explored the insides of her mouth with his mischievous tongue.

Mrs Najma arrived at the house but when she saw the couple were engaged in a passionate and intense kiss. she silently left there unnoticed and returned to her house with a huge smile on her face.

Later at night,Leylah took her bath and was looking for her night dress,she didn't have time to arrange her clothes properly due to so many events that happened.

" what are you doing?" Suraj said and Leylah squealed in surprise, when she heard Suraj's voice in a low whisper close to her ear. She was busy looking for her night dress so she didn't hear him enter the room.

"Goodness!! baby you scared me,do you want to scare me and your baby to death?" Leylah joked as she patted her chest.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to" Suraj said in a low voice feeling guilty for scaring them.

Leylah shook her head and smiled 'why does he have to take my jokes seriously?' She wondered.

" I was just looking for my night dress but I can't seem to find it. I'll just wear another one since I can't find that one".

"Is it this one?"

"Ahh yes thats it.....thanks babe". Leylah stood on her tip toes,she put one of her hand on his shoulder and the other on his chest and pecked Suraj on the cheek.

"I don't want to be separated from you my love" Suraj said caressing her hair with his hands.

"I don't want to either. We will never be separated InshaAllah. we will be together forever my darling hubby". Leylah said hugging his chest and a wild smile spread across her face.

They stayed like that for a some time,basking in each others comfort. " let's go home" Suraj suddenly said, breaking the silence in the room.

Leylah hugged him tightly when she heard his words and she replied "okay babe,let's go home".