Chapter 64: I don't know what to feel!

I don't know what to feel!

Pixie and i sat in an empty class after lectures hours, our tutorials' first day. Her wavy hair was wrapped into a ponytail and she looked really okay to me and everyone I guess. I stared at her questioningly while she wondered why I was staring at her. 

  "Can we start, please?" She inquired. It seemed like she forgot about our kiss last night or maybe she didn't want to talk about it. I stood instead leaning over her a bit.

  "Apologize for the slaps you gave me! Mm-hmm!" I demanded

  "Can you apologize for the kiss as well?" She asked topping my question. I stood erect folding my arms and chuckled.

  "Who apologizes for a kiss huh?" I asked but she couldn't answer me then she rolled her eyes turning away from my gaze. "Are you trying to seduce me 'coz it can never ever work, you know that." I blurted to annoy her

  "What? Seduce you? I don't work extra to seduce a guy, he falls for just anything I do. And guess what?" She looked at me "You fell for it, Jordan, you like me and you obviously don't know how you say it."she blurted

A squeeze settled on my face trying to understand her gibberish. I knew that deep down I didn't like this girl and I just wanted to piss her off to make her pay for the damages she caused me. I wasn't sure whether or not I liked her, outwardly I hated her and inwardly I didn't know about it just yet but I don't think I'll ever love her entirely.

  "Like you?" I asked smiling then I bursted into laughter to vex her again "Do you take kisses seriously or personally--- coz what we had was a grinch, I didn't want to slap you." I said to her while she remained silent

A girl named Carissa, one of the most hottest, sexiest and more flirty dirty girls in my class and school in essence. She liked from the very first start but I gave no reasonable attention. The moment she sighted me, she jumped on me pressing her frontals on my chest, I embraced her to make Pixie jealous over everything.

  "Hey handsome! Tutoring someone?" She smiled as she tucked her brown curls behind

  "Of course. I could give you a private one, trust me! So tell me, what do you want? I got it!" I said to Carissa staring at Pixie sideways 

  "A night stand!" She whispered into my ear

I smiled at her then I said to her

  "Next weekend, I'll text you. And gimme your account details, a'ight? I need you sexy!" I whispered back into her ears then she giggled while i looked at Pixies' direction, her eyes were fixed on us. Good timing I said to myself. I kissed Carissa passionately but forcefully for a few seconds then I retreated

  "Sweet boy! I'll see you soon. I'm here!" Carissa said with a flirty unending smile as she walked out immediately. Then I turned to Pixie with a tight smile.

  "Are we cleared?! Can I know the actual problem?" I asked as I took the marker pen standing next to the white board. She froze yet trying to flip through her textbook for exercises. Her heart beat couldn't stop fidgeting, I could sense it. We spent an hour working on several exercises then I returned to sit in front of her. I took a white piece of cloth to wipe off my sweat. I felt real hot in the class that I couldn't hold myself either. I took off my blazer and unbuttoned my shirt halfway then I rolled up my sleeves. The air conditioner was really not helping my heated situation so I did it my way. She was staring at every little I was doing then I blurted

  "You got a problem or you like what you see?!" I teased then she beamed leaving her lips slightly open. She got uncomfortable suddenly

  "Chill! I won't rape you as well, I'm not an asshole. I'm a gentleman!" I said to her "You got questions from what we just did?"

I asked her digressing to the main cause of out time out. She snapped instantly

  "None! I understood it. You're really intelligent!" She complimented then I said

  "I know about that, Ms Morgan." I said without regards. I tucked my books into my bag then I took my blazer on the other hand turning to leave then she stopped me. I wondered why, I hated to see her gorgeous face and her body physique entirely. I turned to her, the first thing I saw was two buttons unbuttoned on her shirt causing a slight opening of her cleavage. I was surprised about that, I couldn't tell if it has been like that or not. Then I can closer 

  "Are you still trying to seduce me, Pixie?" I asked with a smirk

  "I wouldn't. My buttons went off while I was trying to....Never mind!" She said almost stuttering, maybe she did that on purpose.

  "Ok! See you tomorrow for another-bloody-tutorial! Hmm!" I said. I got pissed for no reason, I felt angry and discontent for no reason. I turned to leave then she called again

  "Jordan?" 

I turned abruptly, she wouldn't go straight to the point, I felt she was wasting my time.

  "Pixie, what the hell is your problem?" I almost yelled at her but she didn't fret, she was calm like nothing happened at all.

  "Jordan?" Pixie called slowly and timidly

  "What?" I yelled. I was furious suddenly

  "W...W...Why did you kiss me last night?"

I was lost for words, my eyes wandered about trying to make up and excuse, I closed my eyes tightly and folded my lips still thinking of what to say then I felt her presence leaning next to me, her hot breath heated my skin then I opened my eyes. I was surprised to see this girl next to me willingly, she leaned forward to kiss me again then I moved away, she didn't expect that at all. Even if I wanted a kiss from her, I didn't want her to have her way; I wanted everything my own.

  "Don't take my kisses seriously 'coz I kiss who ever I choose to, no specifics! You should prepare for the next class....I'm exhausted. Obviously!" I walked out immediately in exhaustion, I did not lie about it. Larry was outside waiting patiently

Then I hopped into the car with a sigh of relief. Larry turned to me with a steady smile

  "You look tired. How was it?" He asked me

  "Hectic Larry! I just need to rest right now."

Then I sighted Pixie walking out embracing dome books to her chest. Larry noticed that I stared at her then he suggested

  "Should we take her?"

  "No. Is that even necessary? Let's just go!" I countered. I didn't think it was necessary to offer a ride. One minute I was angry and the minute it turned something else. We drove past her then she raised her head, I guess she recognized my car. 

04:19pm,

I woke up from the one hour nap I had. My phone rang, a call from my buddies. I rubbed my sleepy eyes Instead then I answered.

  "Guys!" 

  "Have you been sleeping?" Jeff asked

  "What do you think? I've been in the class for over two hours teaching her. She's so slow, man. I just wish I could find a substitute." I complained with a tight frown

  "That's not nice but y'all would get better though!" Lamar added

  "I just don't seem understand." I added

  "Just the first day don't forget!" Lamar reminded me, that was true but it felt like I already spent eternity tutoring her. I was used to the fact that whenever I Was done with classes and assignments I'd play a play station (PS) and online games or hang out with my friends and now my regular schedules has been cut down to a routine of classes, tutorials, assignments and sleep, how boring my life would slowly become if Pixie remains in the picture. Finally, after they summarized their earlier encounters then Lamar and Jeff said they had something today to me. Then I affirmed to whatever they wanted to say. I took a glass of my mother's favorite wine and gulped it down.

  "You hate Pixie right?" Jeff began

  "Absolutely. No two ways about that." I added comfortably and proudly

  "Ok. That's a head's up! Well...Hoodie and I  have decided to take these girls as our dates....and who knows they might say yes." 

  "Its only a time out, just relax!" Lamar specified "I'll go with Pixie while he goes with Zoe. Perfect huh?" He said as they laughed then I beamed forcing a smile. I cleared my throat and continued

  "Why them? Why Pixie?" I asked with concerned

  "Why do you care? You hate them, right? So we'd just have to find out If she's really dumb or not. We got to go! See you tomorrow!" They hung up before I could say a word to them or even ask questions.

I kept my phone on the lamp stand beside my bed then I laid on my back looking direct at the ceiling. I was confused about my friends choosing these girls with being hesitant. I was mad and angry at everything. I Couldn't explain what I felt towards Pixie, my head was clouded with different thoughts and my mind was always redirected to Pixie. I didn't know how I felt and maybe something was just about was to unfold. Well, whatever it was I was ready to pull it down because I wouldn't let nothing web my personality. Then Larry said my father wanted to see me at the garden. I was still exhausted so I hurried as fast as I could. Being grounded was a something to keep up with, no games nor laptops...everything got the best of me. The only thing I was allowed to do freely was study And I wasn't ready to do that just yet. My father was dressed in black suit and shoes as he sat crossing his legs  discussing business with someone I really don't recognize. I interrupted regardless, I couldn't wait for them to finish up.

  "Dad?" I called politely then he turned to me

  "Ah hah Kareem! Come sit." He turned to the man he discussed and continued "I'll see you tomorrow, thanks for coming!" They shook as he walked away taking his briefcase as well. My father turned to me "Kareem? You'd be driving us round town, want that?" He asker but it sounded like a conclusion or an instruction.

  "I don't feel like it. I'm exhausted! I can't!" I declined, I couldn't do anything against my will.

   "That confidence is what I like, Kareem! But you can't say no to me." He turned to the security standing next to him. He whispered something to him as the security walked away briskly and smartly.

My mother approached abruptly and faced my father.

  "Babe, I don't like this. If you got to do something like then I got to know!" She scolded him for something I had no idea about. If Yeesha was here, she'd probably figure it out. My dad stood up walking to her and wrapped his arms around her waist

  "I did not want you to get stressed so I handled it. Danni, you've to delegate these duties to them that's what they're paid for. I wouldn't have my wife work her life out, you got that?" He explained calmly, she smiled

  "Silly man! I wish you could come with us though, we need this Jamal!" She coaxed wrapping her arms around him as well.

  "I would but definitely not this weekend! Mustapha and I have to see the governor, we got business baby!"

  "I know!" 

Before I could snap my fingers, their lips were locked you to each other. My parents were kissing Right in front of me and it felt excruciating. I imagined Pixies' soft lips on mine. Its funny how I think of this girl and Imagine so many things with her and still hate her whenever she stood In front of me. My parents ended up smiling over their butterflies I found myself smiling to it faintly. My mother turned to me

  "Hey honey! Still having a bad day?"

  "Kinda!" I said truthfully

  "You'd get over it!" She rubbed my chin and walked my father giving him one last kiss as she walked away. He wouldn't stop staring at her intensely until she was out of sight. The security he sent returned and whispered again then my father turned to me with a tight smile

  "Let's go!" He instructed as I followed duly

We walked to the brand new Benz truck father acquired a month a ago if my analysis are correct. The same guy drove us out of the mansions' premises.

We drove to a normal and luxurious apartment where my dad began talking while the security waited in the car, dad's orders. We sat beside the fireplace he ignited

  "This apartment was the first house I owned growing up like you."

  "Like me?" I scoffed in Doubt "Did you drop out from school?"

  "I just happened to be attentive and persuasive, Kareem. I brought you here not for any reason but to remind you about our self essence, something my father died to protect. The moment your mother told me that you kissed a girl last night I...I..." He began to stutter then he proceeded "Sometimes, I wondered if you'd make the same mistakes I made." He paused for a minute.