Chapter 156: At this point in time!

** "Why are we meeting at this point in time?" I asked as we stood abreast beside the shore at the beach. "Why here, at the beach?" I asked. She scoffed.

  "I Er...I just thought that we could set aside our differences and get this over with." She stated crossing her arms against a white body hug and high waist black jeans and then a brown ankle boots.

  "Last time I checked, we had nothing in the way so?" I pointed out

  "Mr Jordan, don't act like you really don't know what I mean, we were getting along really well. I just think that we can do that all over again." She stated

  "I know Nessa but things has changed, because of you...sorry to say...I haven't been able to convince my wife ever since. She's changed, she's a different and its hard to live that too!" I scoffed "I plead for attention I never get in return."

  "I'm really sorry about that, you know that I've tried to apologize and also convince her but you can't really blame me for that, I don't have bad intentions dear, I'm solid." She stated trying to coax me.

  "I understand your point but as for now, I'd love to keep my distance. I hope you understand..." I said giving her a light pat on the arm then I turned to leave. I exceeded two steps then she screamed out loud

  "Mr Jordan," she called out then I turned to her abruptly "we don't have to end up this way. I'll respect boundaries, we don't have to be strangers that we are not. I know you like me and I really like you too, we may need each others' help someday. What do you say?"

  "I think its a good idea, but I have to go right now. I got a lot to do." I walked up to her then gave her a hug, I regretted that action afterwards. She smiled at me whilst mine was a faint smile.

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I've been home for over three hours and Gia was not home, I've been speculating yet I couldn't reach a conclusion, I've tried to call her phone yet she would not pick my calls neither respond to my texts. I was restless, with the little understanding I have about caring for a newly born son, I managed to coo Khaleed into sleeping which made me satisfied even if I've had a very tiring day. I stood at the porch of our bedroom and where the view seems better and captivating, even the cold breeze refreshed me yet the smell of lavender and roses seeped into the atmosphere respectfully. All I could do was pour some vodka into my glass then I rested my elbows on the surface of the bars of the burglar proof staring into the tall storey buildings, the fancy apartments at the extreme ends, the coconut trees and a lot more, not even the quietness and serenity of my rich neighborhood could ease the fact Gia was hurting me in the worse ways.

I just realized that I haven't spoken to my mother nor father about it, I actually thought that I could handle my situations but this was really getting out of hand, on my terms.

Could she have discussed all these to mother? But mother would never advise such taking this long while I quiver in pain. I took a sip from the drink, i turned to the bamboo table where the bottle of vodka was kept erect. I poured some into my glass and gulped from it instantly.

The thoughts of Gia and I bombarded my mind, from the first day I met her at the strip club to the last they we made love, I couldn't forget the highs and lows, the beautiful moments we lived.

I plopped my face into my hands and then tears rolled down my eyes before I could say a word, it didn't respect the fact that I was in charge of my emotions.

   *Mama, I need to talk to you urgently!*

I texted my Mom but there wasn't an instant reply, it broke my heart even more. I dialed my Dad yet there wasn't a response, Lamar was not an option because he had informed me about the business he was trying to work with the foreign investors, I didn't want to bother him on no account of mine.

I cried silently for roughly five minutes then wiped my tears, I hadn't cried in a very long time if I could still remember vividly, I thought of dialing Gianna again. She wasn't answering my calls.

    *Gianna, you don't have to treat me this way, I need to talk to you. We need to talk about us, if this is a punishment then I've learned more than you can think of. I love you. Always.*

I took a drive to the outskirts of the city then pulled over along the woods, then strode down a little. I sat beside a flowing stream as well, throwing some stones into the water intermittently. My phone buzzed then I peeped at it, It was Nessa. Sometimes, I wonder why she pops up every single time I need someone, my wife, she'd always call up. In her, I find solemnity, I feel better but I can't just admit it to her. All these thoughts accumulated in less than a minute, then i answered. I sniffed.

  "Nessa!" I could hear my voice fading into a whisper

  "Mr Jordan, are you...you really okay over there? Shall I drive over to you?" She asked on concern "Where are you anyways?" She asked yet in the midst of my despair, her British accent triggered my fantasies. I liked it.

  "You didn't have to know. You don't wanna know Nessa, in having a rough day right and I'd like to be alone." I said

  "I understand but let me be there for  the friend I am, is that alright?"

  "Oh no, thanks!" I snapped politely

  "I insist. Please Mr Jordan, I'll find you ok!' She hung up instantly.

I did not take her words serious because I knew that she wouldn't find me.

20 minutes on,

I felt someone touch my shoulder lightly then I turned abruptly with a tinge of scariness. Nessa again. My eyes squinted and opened again and I found myself embracing Nessa tightly to the extent that I felt her breasts rub against my chest then I refrained, maybe I overdid it but she didn't seem disappointed.

  "Er! Uhm! I'm really sorry about that, I don't mean anything otherwise. I promise" I assured but there was a little lie in my words.

  "Oh no Mr Jordan, its nothing I understand, I know you wouldn't hurt me." She snapped as we sat on the rock beside the stream. "I didn't know we have a lot of things in common. You love serenity, do you?" She asked calmly

  "Its really not my thing but some situations place me in such positions. I find myself doing things I never think of doing...." Then I turned to her slowly

  "Including being with me....a friend like me?" She asked, that was cunning.

  "Kinda!" I snapped turning to the stream

  "Why are you here, my friend?"

  "I...I thought it would be of help to ease my pain..."

  "What pain?" She asked

  "Like not getting the attention you seek,  I've been nothing but a stranger to my wife likewise herself, I can't really place my hands on all of this misunderstandings, its stretching longer than it should." I turned to her slowly again "And I still can't place my hands on something strange. Every time I go through something horrible, you're always coming into the picture!" I mentioned sternly, her smile faded into a tight one. She was thinking about what I had just said. "Don't get me wrong, its just one of the things I've observed lately." I added

  "Do you...Do you think that I have bad intentions?" She asked

  "Do you?" I snapped "Do you have bad intentions? I curse the day I first saw you at the hotel, it was the beginning of my misery!" I blurted, I knew it was hurtful but I had long wanted to say this.

  "I see that you're really hurt but you can't keep blaming me for all your pain and misery, I did not put all these on you, our emotions..."

  "What fuckin' emotions?" I yelled out standing on my feet. "What's going on with you? Why are you always popping up at that time I need my wife, when I need someone to make me feel better...Nessa you are always there and it hurts really bad that it's not whom I'm always expecting. What's going on?" I yelled out then turned away staring into the water, my reflection was all I could see. I was rubbing my hair restlessly.

  "Mr Jordan, I'd always accept all your accusations because you're right, I interfered even after the time you told me that you were married...I insisted and that was not nice of me but I'd like you to know one thing, you can't always run from the truth Mr Jordan. Something about this whole thing proves its point. I mean, look at your wife, she should be here with you but she isn't, she would always reject your calls and never respond to your texts neither your wants or needs or desires...She's hurting you so bad that you don't see any of that, you only see the fact that I once showed you my flip side. I'm human just like yourself..." She stated coldly creeping from behind.

  "Don't talk about my wife that way...she was right. I should've thrown you out when you walked into my house..." I stated defensively

  "Your father hired me..."

  "I could always replace you..."

  "...With no one, Mr Jordan. Mr Khaleefa would never hire me if I wasn't good at my job, that little time we spent working on you paid off, didn't it? You've successfully gained the trust and respect from the world, you are a whole new man but she would not acknowledge the fact that you apologized to her on air, how many men like you would take such risk? She never for once acknowledged your love and respect. You made her who she is today....because of you she now owns her cosmetic line and lots of written and signed documents under her name. You made every thing smooth and luxurious not the stripper that she was back in the day, which man does that? You've got to let yourself feel even not guilty. We all make mistakes and those mistakes deserve a second chance, Mr Jordan" she stopped after a very lengthy but truthful speech. No matter how many things she tries to point Ill of Gianna, it wouldn't change the love I have for her. Never. 

  "I agree to all that but it will never change the love I have for Gianna, she'd always be the one I love. Got that!"

  "I get it! I'm only thinking correctly but none of that matters to me as well." She turned away "I don't know what you must be thinking but I've got to let you know that I'd always be here for you when ever you want me or not! I promise to be that friend you've never had."she turned to leave then I questioned, maybe it was my time to ask

  "Why did you come around, despite being the outskirts, the woods?" I turned facing her back while I pocketed my hands, how I could clearly see the thin straps running across her back. She turned

  "Honest?" She snapped smiling tightly as she turned to me.

"Honest!" I snapped

  "I want to do something friends don't do!" She stated confidently while my eyes gave a questionable look. Did I really have to ask that question? Oh damn!

  "That sounds like taboo to me. What is this thing that friends don't do? I'm only curious?" She added a few steps closer.

  "A kiss! Is it normal to kiss a friend? Your female friend? That's one of the reasons I'm here. Most importantly, I wanted to make sure that you were doing alright. Its for a good reason." She added. I scoffed a little then folded my lips.

  "I see!" I was lost for words, I turned away not knowing what to do.

  "Come on man, you asked for honesty. You're a hot guy, who wouldn't want to kiss your lips or even more. Anyways, I should be on my way!" She said then I turned away. After a minute, she ran to me then jumped on me and grabbed my lips. The more I wanted to push her away, she more she made advances, she wrapped her arms around me so tightly. I tried to force Gia's thoughts out of my head, maybe I needed some distractions.

The kiss we shared got more intense and rough, this is pure lust; I squeezed her round sizable butts, my hard cock had gotten harder and harder. I trailed kisses on her neck but attempting to go further to her chest was a hard one, even on an empty vicinity like the woods, she was sexy but everything I did was to get distracted. 

I stopped as my phone vibrated in my pocket.

  "You've got to take it!" She said rightfully as she walked two feet away from where I stood. It was actually a text.

      *Where are you? I'm at the house. Come home now!*

Mother texted.

  "Nessa...I Uhm..." I began stuttering

  "...Its ok, Jordan! I totally understand everything, our emotions keeps playing us, right?" She asked teasingly but she had a point.

  "Right! Thanks for coming over, talking to someone was all i needed, I just realized."I said heartily

  "Exactly! I'm only a call away, Jordan! I guess we broke the rules, I don't regret." She said then we hugged like we missed each already. "I know you loved it!"

She walked away towards her car then zoomed off, I heaved a deep sigh then scurried to my car.

I couldn't stop thinking of what happened, Gia pushed me into this, into another woman's arms. I regret but what else was I suppose to do. Don't say I needed to push her away 'coz I was vulnerable and I was too weak to fight it. It was a kiss and I hope not to exceed the kisses, my head echoes Nessa will my heart remains locked on Gianna

Gianna must have used black magic on me, just saying. Always glued to this woman knocked name over the plank, why can I not get angry at her, why couldn't I shove her off my mind, why couldn't I hit her every single time she spits rubbish to my face? I find myself running to her.