Ups and downs

Yeah, I made a friend, heck yeah, he knows what I am, heck yeah, I could not be happier right now, I could scream and jump. Yeaaah turns out, I could not be happier...

Sitting at the table, regularly eating, ignoring my existence we were eating. Regular home-cooked food, water, soda, everyday training for my nerves.

The food was especially good, I could have no complaint, then my father says the world.

-Father: Alex, we have to speak.

Yeah, time stopped, no people would move after this sentence and I knew what will happen. At least I thought, I should move, yeah, I should have born to be a normal kid, anything would have been better, whatevs.

But no.

-Father : Alex, you will have siblings.

Siblings... I mean, I know how to count. The better option is that my mother has twins, but she was not at that state, when they could see it.

Ooooooh shit. So much questions. I am not shocked, this could happen to any family in my thinking unfortunately. But I have that blue thing, what I want to make better, bigger, like with xp points, you know, develop it. I will definetly will not move. I am living the life here, I will not give it up. I am 15 nearly, suck it up guys, you have to take responsibility over the other ones too. Maybe I am the teenager performing a childish tantrum, but this is not my thing, I will not participate in your affairs and the results of it.

-Me: Yet, you did not end it, but, if the moving m is for me too, I am going to live in dorms. I am not participating in it. You play with me, that is one thing, I nearly get, that it satisfies you, but this is not okay for me for your teenager child.

My mother nearly started crying. My mother, who are always serious at this time of the day.

-Father: I move and whoever wants. I made a bad decision, I have no excuse, but yeah, my other family needs me too. It is up to you, Alex, okay, you not, take care of your mother, I trust you.

Khm. Other family. Trust. Ups and downs. This is under down. The meaning of this is that he will have a kid from another woman aaand he has another kid. Hilarious. Trust. What? What trust? I was a laughingstock for you. I came home for him to just make fun of me to the level I sometimes ran to my room, just at the speed, it looked like walking.

-Me: Yes, I will not say, that I understand you or judtify anything. Move, but tomorrow. I stay. This is the end you made fun of me at the table daily at least dear dad...

Ups and downs. This is not even that down. I was just blind and concentrated about to hide my feelings. After this I realized when, what happened, when I thinked back about it, but what could we do? It happened. For me, kill me, but at least minus one problem... I can concentrate on the blue stuff on me, you might will be happy with 2 of your healthy, real children.

But maaan his timing is something else...