The end of my first romance in my head

I have many friends actually... I am not lying. Though most of them are imaginary. It is not because they will not abandon me, it is because I have 0 time for real friends to take care of.

The first guy I met in my class... Well I fell for him head heels paperwork. Not just because he was perfect, but because he was there first.

Being there first is a thing, what overwrites everything. Not just because there might will not be a second, but because there is no other option. That is that simple.

Though I had to break up with all my daydreams. If you want to be a part of the world, you can not lose any part of you. And I would give him all myself, no complaints. And that scares me.

Who would I be? Rethink. I want to be myself. I have an ability to improve, to live the world. To not to be a shut-in or do myself anything to myself.

It is not like, new day new life. It is like continous life, just without that guy, just living.

Naaah screw this. Why not? Until I can keep everything, what I want and I will not be a skeleton and exhausted, why not? I mean yeah, maybe I have doubts, but these doubst are made up by my own fear.

Next second I saw the guy hand in another girls hand and the other you can imagine.

Aaaaaallll the way. And I am looking at it. Yeah. These two are dead meat in my eye. Naaaah... I do not even care, loving the guy is a fact, that is not his fault, punching the girl is not the best advertisement. But daaaaaaang are they not knowing a little too much for their age? or all ages? I mean, that is not what supposed why am I watching, I just go back and throw up from this image should not have been seen, not by me, but they need regulations or I am too conservative.

Dang, this solved, that case at least.