Down to the water in the modern way...

So after a few weeks of crying over how stupid I am, I decided to actually solve my problem and not just make myself more miserable, than I actually am.

I thought... That those western bands always sing about going down to the water. I mean I can swim, why not? It is better, than rejecting everything.

So I went to the pool. You would think it is romantic, but in my country it is more likely to find fat old guys discussing things with a beer, rather, than seeing couples. Half but score.

I am a pretty good swimmer, so I swam like 2000 meters and thought about stuff. Like how will I continue. Grades are cool and physically I kept the level, but anything else? Those are my body. I want to be more, than a few kilograms of muscles and brain. Those are robots or whatever.

Now I am pumped! Cold water does it guys. Planning starts after I get dry and get home.

So after that, I smoked a nice one, because nicotine and drank a coffee, because waking at 4 am is something humanity can not possibly reach.

Now. No coming out. No showing off. No falling in love. Okay, the last one is not out of the question. Though... What I really needed is a new aim or something I can reach for. Not better grades, better stats at sports or games. Something unique.

So after the incident went down, when I overheated or something... My new aim is to find an actual someone, who I can lean on in these situations. It is not like I need a gay friend, because I am too rich and drowning in bills for a hobby daily or a friend, who gets me into serious trouble, but someone, who I will be ready for at 2 am and he/she will be ready for helping out for me too...

The biggest question of humanity after necessary and reasonable things. Where do I find friends and lovers?

I went this far so after searching it on the internet, I decided it is good if we have the similar interests, similar age, gender and now I am talking to myself, like I am playing Sams...

Okay, the easiest thing is to actually ask someone face to face. But who got time for that? Can it, throw it to the bin, I chose the wildest, at least the most instable or freaky thing! To the apps for these stuff! I mean, at the worst case, my training will show a little solution and they will got the picture...

Swimming classes, Western bands, thank you, I mean, if I meat with someone normal, not with someone... Yeah, now you got the pic...