chapter 22:

It's been two months now , today we're celebrating Emilia ' birthday, kin is buying the gifts , as Cecilia and sidar decorated the house, hidar was keeping the birthday girl out of the house, while i'm preparing the cake and snacks, ,the door of the house opened as i turn my head nervous hopping it's not Emilia, well it's kin , false alarm," wrap these too kids ,i'll help your mama," kin said as he put the bags next to Cecilia and sidar who seems annoyed a bit , he got to the kitchen, came behind me put his hands on my waist , " what're you doing mama?" Kin said , " making caramel, my baby loves it ," i said as i looked up to see his pretty shiny eyes looking at me , my heart started beating fast so i pushed him, left the kitchen saying

" could you stir that for me , i'll go to the bathroom real quick," i was red , kin and i became really close in the mean time, but, i'm always the one running away, kin doesn't seem bothered, maybe that's because it's normal for him , he doesn't care or he doesn't see me as a woman, **** why am I so sad about that , " mama, father burned the caramel," i heard cecilia shout so i ran to the kitchen," kin what have you done , you've had one job ," i said pouting, as i puched him aside ," i'm sorry ," kin said softly as he held my shirt, come on, don't melt for his puppy eyes he's wrong , oh hell , " it's fine i can still remake it , just stay out of the kitchen this time," i said with complet disappointment in myself ,when suddenly the door rings , it's the neighbors, they're here to help , when hidar brought emilia , we celebrate the whole night emilia didn't stop smiling , it's midnight now the neighbors left ,the kids are asleep, i was cleaning ,kin was trying to help me ,i went outside to see a weird looking guy near our house," hi ,can i help you ?" I asked ," hello, i'm here to give you this," he said while handing me a letter, before leaving, oh no, it's from the palace, please tell me it's not what I think it is,i opened it to read * i ,the emperor ,ask all my people to send a person from each family to serve in the war with the traitor kingdom lilac who broke the old promise , any family that ignore this demande will be sent to prison, this war 'leader will be my own son, the crown prince who will lead us to victory.* The heck , how ? Why ? **** him , They wouldn't notice if a family don't send some individual, would they ? could i ask my sister to help ? heck no she couldn't even save her son , that trach of an emperor i bet it was the mistress 'idea to send my nephew to the war , oh , do i go instead of sending my babies? That wouldn't be too hard to do , i just need to hide this from everyone first, i thought when suddenly kin snatched the letter reading it , i started crying as kin held me in his arms and said " i'll go ,i'm used to wars ,i lived in the northern empire for years, don't cry ,you look ugly crying," i punished him then hugged him tightly, and mumbled

" Can't you just kill the emperor , or send an assassin, i don't want you to leave us, please" he held me in his arms put me on the couch saying" sadly if i kill your sister's husband or lilac'king , your gonna be a criminal's baby mama, though I'll kill the lilac's crown prince just for you ," how could his smile be so assuring," it's gonna be a ten years war , please don't," i held his hands and put it on my cheek ,he stayed by my side for so long assuring me but the only thing i could remember before falling asleep is him saying " i 'll be back as soon as possible," it was a blurry scene i think his hair color change ,was it blonde , did he kiss me ?

I woke the next morning, all along , i hate him, how could he leave after i beg him not to? I started crying again.