♡ Chapter 32 ♡

Stella left with so much anger after saying that. She can't believe what she just saw. Zach and Madison!?

That day she went home and hurried to the washroom. She felt so helpless and useless that she wanted the ground to tear and swallow her to death. She couldn't stop thinking about Zach and Madison.

She is sitting on the floor. Under the shower. Crying and crying to let all the pain out.

"How could they do that to me? Oh God... both of them betrayed me." she sobbed.

"Whom I think are the closest betrayed me!?" She screamed under the water to let out all her anger and pain.

She has to pretend that she's just fine in front of her family members and everyone.

So, she's gonna let it all out right in here, put a smile on and get out of the washroom as usual. As if nothing happened!

"Did anything happen? You're fine darling, smile." She said to herself looking at the mirror but her mind reminded that she was heart broken.

She just couldn't resist the urge to kill herself or Madison.

"But that's not how things are done." She's trying to calm herself down. "Let them be happy if they want to."

She wears something she likes a lot - a black T-shirt and black leggings and a pair of shoes which is black of course.

And she looks gorgeous.

Beth comes and asks, "Aren't you gonna have your lunch? Wait... are you going somewhere???"

"Nah darling, I'm just wearing what I wish to wear." Stella replied while drying her hair.

"And I'm not gonna eat my lunch today. I... I had it with my friends." She added. A lie.

Just to pretend she's alright she had to lie. Cuz if she goes downstairs now, she knows she can't face her mother. She's gonna be silent all the time and her mother's gonna ask her what happened. She'll either be silent or shout without any reason so why should she go downstairs.

"It's better if I keep myself away from people for some days..." She says after Beth leaves and imagining all those things.

She didn't had anything after the breakfast and now it's almost afternoon but seriously she doesn't have any appetite for food right now. Nor she has a brain that will support her while studying. So she sat on the bed with her phone and headphones of course.

She'll be listening to music until she gets fine. She has a playlist for her sad mood as well. "Six feet under" a song by Billie Eilish. "Happiness is a butterfly" by Lana Del Rey. She's bursting her ears by the music but her brain doesn't care much about it as its still thinking about Zach.

It's comparing the Zach Stella knew and the Zach Stella just saw today.

"That can't be possible. Maybe it's just not my Zach, maybe it's his twin brother or something or maybe I was dreaming or ughhhh!!! Shut up!" She shouted so loud and she didn't even know because music was bursting into her ears and her mum came all of a sudden. "What happened Stella?" Her mum asked and she didn't heard anything.

She's feeling the music with all her heart. Her eyes are shut as well.

Her mum got mad at her behavior and walk past the distance between them really fast. She snatched her headphones first then the phone.

"I asked you what happened?" Her mum asked again.

"Nothing. Why? Did I ask for anyone's help?" Stella replied in a calm yet angry voice which made Deborah more angry.

"You should be studying Stella! What are you doing? Haven't you any sense!?" She slapped Stella across the face.

Stella felt like she's the saddest person on earth. She sat to study but she just couldn't concentrate.

She cried now and then. Here and there.

She just didn't come downstairs until night. After Deborah had left she locked the door of her room and sat on the chair like a dead, for hours.

Mum took her phone so she had nothing else to do. She took her journal out of a drawer thought of writing something but didn't felt like so she threw it with so much anger.

She started crying again, wanting to break everything that's in front of her but can't. She cried till her head ached.

She has never been or felt like this in her sixteen years of life. Never!

Stella's windows were wide open and the light of her room was coming out.

Ron saw that while passing by and so he thought Stella might be awake right now even though it was her time to sleep.

He looked at her window again and again. Even if Stella hurt him a thousand times, he felt nothing like leaving. He wanted her to be his one and only. To make her happy. Something about Stella drove him crazy all the time that he still wants her.

"But she's happy with Zach." His brain reminded. He let a sigh out and walk past her house and Stella came beside the window to enjoy some cold breeze.

She needed an empty place to breathe fresh air as she was having difficulty to breathe after the incident happened.

"Without Me" by Halsey is playing now. She's just vibin' with the music.

Also waiting for the pain to end. But it isn't ending so she went to sleep so that she can get a break from these pains and tears.

Even in her dreams she saw them, kissing. And she was crying in front of them while all of them were laughing at her.

What a scary nightmare. She couldn't stand it so she woke up suddenly.

"F**k!!!" was the first word that came out from her mouth this morning.