Chapter Three: Locked me up!
i got dressed up in striped blue floral western dress, below the knee, one of the most simplest one present in this wardrobe. i could finally balance myself and feel better than before. I realised he was the same guy , who came to the bookstore....the horrifying thoughts were rushing in my mind...i was anxious....deadly anxious...Godd! i need to escape as soon as possible. I cant be here , i have to go back...i cant stay away from my home... i want to be that girl again,starting new, erasing all the tragic. i want that girl back, vibing on the things like, dark romance books with mug of coffee, under the roof of rainy clouds, music of taylor swift tearing my heart with emotions... i want my peace back...i took a long breath and started to find a window, i found it... i rushed myself, opened the window only to get disappointed... it is the highest floor that i am leaving in and a deep ocean down there. if i jump, i will die or drown and get lost in the ocean....there is no way to escape... how am i going to get rid of this stranger monster who has left me suffering...my soul in torment...i gathered myself at the edge of the bed, folding my legs towards my body, my arms wrapped around my knees, clasped with agony...i buried my head between my knees....i feel so helpless and alone... again... everything is same... terrible things following me like a stalker. tears from my eyes rolled through my cheeks....the pain in my heart, shredding it into pieces....a hope rushed through my mind. i erased my tears, walked on my legs towards the wardrobe to find something that could escape me through window... there are some bedsheets that could help me atleast...
'knocks at the door'
I panicked! A sudden visitor knocked the door...i walked towards the door...my fingers hesitates to open...but my heart eventually opens... it was him...the grey eyes... i looked into his eyes with hope and demanding questions for my misery.
Come for the dinner love...
I have lost my appetite...I replied
Dont provoke me...do as I say... I am waiting down.
i will never ever ever let you control me... you can kidnap me but you can never have me.... so stop acting like you own me...and stop calling me love... i was irked...
his eyes were dead furious....it was so intimidating... i was scared...i feeled a most horrifying and terrible response awaiting....i had no words... nothing to speak, my lips mute at the moment.
Why have you brought me here?...
my shameless words still asking it in fear.... he is still staring with his creepy grey eyes... he took a short breath controlling his anger and said,
if you argue any more ,i will not have a second to throw pieces of your body on floor, dipped in the blood.... you are lucky that i need you....else you are a useless dead and annoying, stupid and helpless girl... do as i say or you will suffer the worst.... dont provoke me...
my heart stopped with fear and his words teared out my soul into pieces, my mind shattered in fear... my stubborn words will never give up to fight back...i cant be the toy he controlls for his selfish motives...
i am not listening to you... you cant controll me!
my eyes and words gathered all the hate i have for him...
kill me... because i am not going to be controlled by monster like you... you are the most selfish person ,you kidnapped me for your wicked motives... i dont fear death... so stop dreaming that i will ever help you or obey you...!
he was furious with my confidence...
you want to die...! die suffering alone and empty...
he slammed the door shut with a clang... he was so terrifying... i steped back with sudden reaction... my heart beat was faster than normal... i was scared but not going to accept his vicious demands...
i was literally locked in room i dont belong to, i was not allowed to eat anything. i was starving but my courage was only weapon i could hold in a dark room, my all emotions are haunting me, all the pain and agony i have ever suffered is tormenting my mind my heart my...my soul my everything... i am locked here, not sure for how long...maybe some days , maybe untill my body dies and stink in sorrows...
its been two days i have been locked. no food, no water, just breathing air and my empty heart. the birds chirping at the window every morning gives me hope to survive every seconds ticking in the clock...its hands are slow...the time is running slow...it is the most terrible feeling... i feel empty here, destroyed and alone locked between the four walls and with the useless expensive things....catching my sorrows,in my red and inflamed eyes, holding my tears and finding no reason for grieving, just staring at my fate with questions in my mind, howling.... why?....why?... me?
loneliness travels with me everywhere. this world is cruel and selfish, they use people like us for their criminal activities and ruin the hope of existing in this brutal life... i feel like i am a useless character in this world, who lost her parents in accident, before i could even grieve i got kidnapped by a discourteous monster.... i feel like i was a liability to my parents, i dont deserve this life.... i couldn't even fight for myself... i... i couldn't face it.... its too late to realize... i am dying today...!! i grabbed myself with a warm hold, hugging my soul and my tears mourning on my miserable life...