Vol. 1: Haru to Aiden - Chapter 15

Haru

“Jess, you did that on purpose, didn’t you?” I asked as I shut the bedroom door behind me.

Jess turned to look at me, her pajamas in hand.

Ah, I see she came prepared.

She said, “Oh shit! I’ve upset you, haven’t I? I’m so sorry, Haru. I didn’t mean to do that. I honestly didn’t. If you don’t like it, I’ll take a taxi home.”

I came to sit on the bed and then sighed. “No, it’s not that. I mean… Shit… I have to share a bed with Aiden.”

Which I hadn’t done for a long time.

Jess offered meekly, “I can always sleep on the floor.”

“Don’t be silly. You sleep here on my bed where it’s comfortable. Just don’t complain about the smell though.”

She chuckled, looking relieved. “I won’t. Besides, you don’t smell. I know you’re clean.”

“Why don’t you get changed? The bathroom is free.”

She nodded and then headed out the door, her pajamas and toothbrush and paste in hand.

Alone, I collapsed on the bed and let out a big sigh.

Shit! I had to share a bed with Aiden tonight, and the thought made my heart race in both dread and excitement. How should I behave?

Normal. I should act like this is natural.

When Jess returned, now in her sleepwear, she asked, “Are you sure it’s okay for me to take your bed?”

I nodded. “It’s fine.” I headed over to my drawers and took out my sleepwear. “Good night, Jess,” I said at the door.

She gave me a bright grin, a BL manga in hand. “Good night, Haru. Have a splendid time sharing a bed with your beloved Aiden.”

I chuckled. Jess just couldn’t miss a chance to egg me on.

I headed out the door and left her to it. I didn’t have any doubt she’d be reading until two or three in the morning since she didn’t have class until the afternoon.

Across the hallway, I saw Reo seeing his friends David and Evan off at the front door, meanwhile from the dining room, I heard Mason, Lucas, and Carter talking. Across from my room, I heard Isaac discussing with his friends who was going to sleep where, since his room was small. I doubted all four would fit, even if some of them had to sleep on the futons we had as spares.

I was just getting into the bathroom when I heard footsteps coming out of Isaac’s room and then Isaac’s voice said, “Noah, can Ryan sleep in your room? We can’t fit everyone in mine.”

Noah snapped back, “Don’t be ridiculous. You guys want to stay, you guys make it work.”

Reo said, “Noah, don’t be such an ass.”

I couldn’t help but smile. I didn’t have any doubt Noah’d give in soon enough. Despite how it looked, Noah had a soft spot for Isaac’s friends, especially Ryan.

I heard a big sigh. Then, “Fine!”

“Awesome! Thanks, bro,” Isaac said.

After shutting the bathroom door, I started brushing my teeth very thoroughly. I didn’t want my breath to stink when sharing a bed with Aiden. Once I was satisfied, I stripped naked and then headed into the shower.

I took my time washing my hair and cleansing my body with shower gel until my skin looked like it could sparkle. After all, I didn’t want to smell disgusting when sharing a bed with Aiden. Once dressed, I headed out, and after putting my clothes in the laundry, I was walking along the hallway when I stopped short, feeling a little lost.

I didn’t want to go back into my room since I didn’t want to disturb Jess reading, and I also didn’t want to go into Aiden’s room, either. At least not yet. He might be in there. It’d feel weird, since I hadn’t been in there for ages.

I was loitering in the hallway when Aiden appeared and called out my name. I jumped in my spot, my heart racing.

“What are you doing standing there? I’ve changed the sheets and made the bed. Go to sleep. You’re tired, aren’t you?”

I nodded. “Thanks, Aiden,” I said, and hastily walked past him into his room.

After shutting the door behind me with a firm click, I looked around, noticing the large bed, the drawers, and study desk. Everything in his room was clean, neat, and tidy. Aiden was a minimalist.

I heard the door open, and then Aiden’s voice came from behind me, “What are you waiting for?”

I jolted again. Shit! He had better stop doing that. It was just not good for my heart.

I said, “Nothing,” and then climbed onto the bed and got myself in between the sheets, which felt soft and smelled fresh. I noticed he did just change the sheets and duvet cover as he had said. Just because I was sharing a bed with him tonight?

I said, “Good night, Aiden.”

“Good night, Haru,” he replied, and then switched off the room’s main light.

With only the bedside lamp on, the place gave off a soft glow, exuding a sense of warmth and coziness, and instantly, I felt at ease and relaxed. The feeling reminded me of when I had been small, when I was sharing a bed with Aiden. It was nostalgic, and my heart ached at the thought.

I heard Aiden opening and closing drawers, and a moment later, he shut the door. I suspected he was heading for the shower.

Alone, I turned over and lay flat on my back, spreading my arms and legs out across the bed.

This was Aiden’s new bed he had purchased last year. I had wanted to try it out, since it was supposed to be really soft, but I had never had the chance until now.

I rolled over to Aiden’s side and buried my face against his pillow. Aiden’s scent lingered about my nostrils, and I groaned out softly. I love his smell.

I stayed on that side of the bed, thinking about Aiden as I dozed off. When next I opened my eyes, I felt a warm, hard body against me, holding me tight in a pair of strong arms.

Under the dimness of the glowing bedside lamp, my gaze came into focus on a pale shirt, and I realized that I was in Aiden’s arms. I suddenly felt hot, and my heart started racing.

I eased back as my gaze came to rest on Aiden’s sleeping face. He looked peaceful in his sleep, and I must admit I missed seeing him like this.

I took the opportunity to take in every detail of his features. Then because I couldn’t help myself, being a greedy bastard that I was, I lifted my hand and started caressing his face. I trailed my fingers down his throat to his muscular chest and then farther to his abs. There, I lingered for a bit, feeling the firm muscles underneath my fingertips, liking it.

Suddenly, I was breathless, and my body felt hot. My penis started responding, too, and I knew the signs weren’t good.

What if Aiden wakes up? What if he caught me touching him like this? But fuck, I just couldn’t help myself again and my hand trailed farther down until—

Aiden caught my wrist in a tight grasp, and I jolted, my gaze flicking up to his face in a panic. I saw him staring down at me darkly.

“What are you doing, Haru?” he asked, his voice deep.

My heart was pumping so hard and fast I thought it might jump out of my chest any moment now. My face hot, I licked my lips as I racked my brain as to how the hell I was supposed to get out of this mess I had gotten myself into.

Fuck, but I just wanted to touch him and…

“Sorry,” I said. “I…I dreamed of the person I love, and I wanted to do some…”

“Bedroom stuff to that person?” he asked darkly, his tone so frosty I almost felt like I could freeze for real. “And you decided to use me as a substitute?”

He sounded pissed as hell. But what was I supposed to do? He was the man I’m in love with, and he was right here in bed with me. How the hell was I supposed to control myself? When I dreamed of doing this sort of stuff to him almost daily, so that it was nearly driving me insane?

I licked my lips again. “Sorry,” I said. “I’m really sorry, Aiden, that I can’t help myself. I get turned on when I think about the one I love.” I buried my face against his chest, my body tense. “I’ve never done anything like this with anyone before. Just the thought of that person, I…I can’t help myself.”

I felt Aiden tighten his arms around me. He said, “You’re a growing boy. You have your needs, too. I’m sorry I sounded cold earlier.”

I shook my head. “I understand you’re pissed off with me. I would be, too, if someone did that to me, using me as a replacement, I mean.”

I heard him sigh deeply, like he was both giving up and frustrated at the same time. Odd combination of emotions, if you ask me.

He said, “It’s not because I’m pissed off, Haru.”

I raised my head and looked at him. “You’re not?”

He shook his head. “I’m not. When it comes to you, I can never get angry. You know that.”

I nodded. I knew that. But what the hell was that look moments ago? And the way he had held my wrist had been tight. It still hurt even though he had loosened his grip on me.

He moved his leg, and I gasped. The firmness of his thigh pressed lightly against my hard cock.

I felt my face flush hot, and hastily, I moved out of his arms. “Sorry. I’ll go and take care of this.”

I was just putting my feet on the floor when I felt his hand wrap around my arm. I turned, a questioning look in my eyes.

“I’ll help you with that.”

I could only stare at him. Is he serious?