I was breathless.
It was as if my head was going to burst. I have no energy in my body, and now that I think about it, the sun is kind of coming out. I started meditating at night and it's fucking dawn now!
I am nowhere near making a proper thread, there was no progress. I can now see why this process of making mana thread is discouraging for the students and why it took some students years to even make a single mana thread.
I buried my head inside the pillow as I let out a deep yawn.
There is at least one upside to this process, I can feel sleepy. I don't usually sleep a lot at night. Usually, I sleep to one to two hours a night and when I am lucky I might be able to even sleep for three.
The voices in my head are calmer...
I feel sleepy...
"Grey! why did you kill me?"
"Grey, You were supposed to save us."
"Grey, Aren't you a hero?"