STRENGTHEN I SURVIVE

Aska looked at Karin who was walking towards him. Karin kissed Aska's forehead, shamelessly seen by Doctor Irwan and two other nurses. Aska's face turned pale red, between embarrassed and happy.

"Since when has Mr. Aska Aliando been a shy person...hem?" whispered Karin softly in Aska's ear.

Aska looked at Karin's face, the face he always missed. With a weak smile, Aska whispered softly.

"Accompany me here, I'm afraid the syringe will stab me again." said Aska with pitiful eyes.

"Close your eyes now, and just listen to my voice." said Karin still in a whisper.

Slowly Aska's eyes began to close.

Karin gave Dr. Irwan a signal for the chemotherapy process.

"Keep your eyes closed...listen to me, I have good news for you. You know Aska, Edo has accepted our relationship. Even Edo asked me to take care of you, take care of you and love you sincerely. Edo is eager to meet you, wants to meet a man who has been able to captivate my heart." said Karin telling all that happened, and the story was able to calm Aska's heart from his fear.

Karin repeatedly rubbed Aska's long finger, So that Aska will focus more on her touch than Doctor Irwan's syringes.

The chemotherapy process has been completed and Aska went through it smoothly. Doctor Irwan and other nurses left Karin and Aska.

Doctor Irwan told me that the chemotherapy effect would wear off after two to three hours. Within two and three hours, Aska will experience great pain. If not helped by high doses of anti-pain medication, can be sure Aska will not be strong through the pain.

"Aska, Wake up honey." Karin called softly in Aska's ear.

"You can wake up now." said Karin while gently rubbing Aska's cheek which was getting thinner.

Aska's face looked so tired and very pale. His body is getting thinner every day. Karin's heart was touched to see Aska's condition which she loved so much.

Karin's tears fell down Aska's chest. Slowly Aska opened her eyes. He saw that Karin's eyes were already filled with tears. Aska's hand reached out for Karin's face, then wiped Karin's tears with a finger that felt limp.

"Do not Cry anymore, I can't bear to see you cry. Moreover, crying because of my pain, if you cry ... how will I be able to stand against my pain? please, do not Cry anymore." said Aska looking at Karin's face with a sad look.

Karin's heart was screaming even more, Somehow Karin's chest hurt so badly.

"Why can't I be strong seeing Aska like this? why can't i be tough anymore? I have to be strong so I can strengthen Aska's heart." Karin said to herself while kissing the back of Aska's hand with feeling.

"I love you so much, I love you so much Aska." Karin said in a low voice.

"I love you so much, too Rin, love you so much." replied Aska with a smile that seemed increasingly weak.

"You sleep yes dear, I'm here to take care of you." said Karin while stroking Aska's head hair.

"You look very handsome when you sleep." said Karin with blinking eyes.

"Is it true?" Aska's lips smiled happily at Karin's praise.

"That's right, you still remember? how many times have i kissed you, and I do it when your eyes are closed." said Karin with a smile.

"How many times Rin?" asked Aska, trying to remember how many times Karin had kissed him.

"Um...how many times yes Ka? four times maybe yes." Karin replied staring into Aska's face.

"Only four times, right? not the fifth or sixth." said Aska not finished talking, Karin's index finger had closed Aska's lips.

"Do you want the fifth Aska?" Karin asked, looking softly at Aska's eyes that were starting to fade.

"Hem." replied Aska softly. Missing the touch of Karin's lips which has become addictive to him.

"Do you want?" Karin's voice got lower and closer to Aska's face.

"Hem." Aska looked at Karin's lips which began to touch his. Karin's eyes closed, with a heart full of longing and a million sadness seeing Aska who was lying weak.

Karin kissed Aska's lower lip very slowly as if she didn't want to hurt Aska's lips.

Aska opened her lips a little, gave him a chance on Karin's lips to get into his mouth.

Karin crushed and played Aska's tongue very carefully. Slowly Aska replied to Karin's lips playing in him mouth.

Aska's breath seemed to be panting, Karin gave Aska room to breathe by letting her lips stay on Aska's lips for a moment.

"Does it hurt?" Karin asked, looking up at Aska's face.

Aska shook his head and smiled, then rubbed Karin's red lower lip with him fingers.

"These lips, now not ashamed to kiss me anymore and are getting smart." whispered Aska in a low voice.

"Am I already smart as you?" asked Karin with an innocent face.

Aska laughed softly while holding his chest.

"If we are married, I will teach you how to art in love." said Aska with a smile.

Karin chuckled as she covered her lips with both hands.

"In a state of illness, you still have a dirty mind." Karin said, not getting bored looking at Aska's seductive face.

"Karin." called Aska a little getting restless.

"Yes, dear?" Karin drew closer to Aska's face again.

"I want to go home, can i come home tomorrow morning I want to stay home." Said Aska staring sadly Karin's face.

"But, you haven't fully recovered Aska." Karin said sadly.

"I don't want to die here Karin. I wish that I died, I want to die at home there are you, Momy and Daddy." said Aska hoarsely. Aska's throat was choked, Aska's face began to turn pale and his body began to react agitatedly as if it was enduring an intense pain.

"Karin." called Aska grabbed Karin's hand and held it tightly.

"Can we go home?" a tear trickled down the corner of Aska's eyes.

Karin's heart was broken, her sadness could no longer be endured. What could he say to Aska, so that Aska can calm down while she herself is not strong enough to endure her sadness.

"Aska, I hope...don't talk like that anymore. It hurts me so much, if you want to go home ... we'll go home. But wait for your health to improve first. I promise we'll be home soon." said Karin with tears in her eyes. Karin couldn't take it anymore, seeing Aska who was starting to be in pain until he didn't realize what she was saying.

"Karin, it hurts so much! is there no higher dose? it hurts so much Rin!" said Aska in a cold sweat. Aska's body curled up still holding Karin's hand very firmly.

Aska's voice began to sound heartbreaking, He moans, he screams, he cries, really made Karin's heart weak.

"I'm not strong with this pain Karin." wailed Aska hugging Karin's waist and crying.

"Call Doctor Karin, I'm not strong anymore." again Aska moaned in pain.

Karin's tears began to explode, unable to hold back her sadness anymore. Aska's pain is still an hour, even though the pain had only been passed for about two to three hours.

"Aska you have to be strong, where is Aska who always looks strong? Come on Aska, show me you're strong baby." said Karin crying sadly while hugging Aska's body very tightly.

"Karin, call Doctor ... give me any medicine, the origin of this pain is gone. I'm really not strong Karin anymore." said Aska still moaning in pain.

Hugging Aska, Karin pressed the emergency call button.

Not long after that Doctor Irwan came and checked Aska's condition.

"Nurse, please prepare an injection for a high dose of pain relief." said Doctor Irwan seriously.

Quickly, the nurse prepared it and handed it over to Doctor Irwan.

Immediately Doctor Irwan injected a syringe into the back of Aska's hand.

"Karin, even though we have injected painkillers, none of this has much effect on Aska. Because Aska's pain was excruciatingly painful. So, if possible, transfer Aska's pain to something that makes Aska calm. This will reduce the pain you feel Aska." explained Doctor Irwan at length.

Karin nodded her head very knowingly.

"Give Aska love and encouragement, it will help him a lot." said Doctor Irwan before leaving the place.

Karin was still hugging Aska's body who was cowering in pain.

He stroked Aska's hair gently. Aska was still moaning, although not as loudly as before.

"I want to go home Karin, take me Home." groaned Aska with his eyes closed.

Karin climbed onto Aska's bed, grabbed Aska's body and hugged him tightly. With all feeling, Karin lifted Aska's body in her lap, then hugged Aska's full body into her chest.

"Aska, you hear me honey? listen to my heartbeat is very fast. When I hug you like this, this heartbeat gets faster. My heartbeat is a sign of my love for you. I love you Aska, love you very much." whispered Karin in Aska's ear. Aska's moaning began to sound a little, Aska's head crept into Karin's chest with his eyes still closed. Aska's hands were still tightly hugging Karin's waist.

"I love you too Karin, love you so much." Aska replied softly on Karin's chest.