MY LOVE FOR YOU

I love you too Karin, love you so much." Aska replied softly on Karin's chest.

Karin rubbed Aska's back over and over again, until Aska's moaning started to diminish a little.

Aska's eyes began to close, he slightly slanted eyes were increasingly invisible because his eyes looked swollen.

With all the heart, Karin hugged Aska's body, who was already asleep because the pain medication and sleeping pills had reacted. Karin's tears still flowed, even though Aska was already going through the pain.

Karin's heart was completely broken, saw the person she loved drooping helplessly in her arms.

"I beg your God, don't take Aska from me. Give me a chance to be happy Aska." Karin said in prayer.

For almost four hours Karin was still holding on to Aska's sleeping body. Until late in the afternoon Karin was still in her place, sitting on the bed hugging Aska's body.

"Karin." called Amirah in a soft voice. Amirah's heart is very sad to see Karin hugging Aska's body, as if she doesn't want to be separated.

Karin turned to the voice calling her.

"Aunty? Um...sorry Aunt, Aska was in pain earlier so I hugged Aska so she could sleep." said Karin explaining feeling embarrassed because her position was on the bed while hugging Aska.

"It's okay Karin, I really thank you for looking after and taking care of Aska so well." said Amirah after being close to Karin.

"Aunty, what about the bone marrow donor Aska? has aunt already got it?" Karin asked hopefully.

Since yesterday Amirah went to Singapore to find a bone marrow donor with the help of a doctor in Singapore.

"Yesterday there were four people who wanted to donate bone marrow. But none of the four people matched Aska at all." replied Amirah with a sad face.

"Be patient, aunty. I will also ask my friends who are there, here Doctor Irwan and Doctor Heru are also trying to find a suitable donor with Aska." Said Karin encouraging Amirah.

Amirah smiled even though her heart was still sad.

"Karin, Aska should you just put it to bed. You must be tired of holding Aska like that, don't get sick too." said Amirah, feeling sorry to see Karin's condition who didn't pay attention to herself.

"It's okay Auntie, I'm calmer like this. Can make sure Aska is all right." Karin replied, because the real thing was fear if something happened to Aska without her knowing it.

"Yes it's Karin, Auntie is only worried about your health too Karin." said Amirah attentively.

"Then I'll go out first to buy food for you?" said Amirah, touching Karin's shoulder.

"No need, Aunt, I am still full." said Karin, not wanting to bother Amirah.

Amirah smiled she knew Karin had not eaten at all since this afternoon, because Mr. Damar has told everything.

"Take care of Aska, Karin. I go to the canteen first." Amirah said while kissing Aska's forehead, and rubbing Karin's cheeks with a happy look mixed with sadness.

After Amirah left the room, Karin turned her sore neck from side to side.

Slowly Aska's body moved as his eyes slowly opened.

"Wake up dear." said Karin when she saw Aska's eyes that began to open.

"Hem." replied Aska in a hoarse and weak voice.

"Is my sleep very long Rin?" Aska asked Karin with a sad look.

"Nearly four hours honey." Karin replied in a low voice.

"You must be tired Rin, for four hours holding my heavy body." said Aska, trying to move his body to lean back.

Karin moved quickly to help Aska sit back comfortably.

"You know Ka, I do not feel the least bit tired even though I have to lap you all day." said Karin smiling with a slightly teasing tone to Aska.

"Sit beside me Rin, let me massage my back." said Aska, patting the edge of the bed beside him.

Karin shifted her seat, got closer to Aska's side and sat with her back to Aska. Slowly Aska's hand reached to Karin's back and gave a gentle massage. Karin stretched her back, feeling amused by Aska's massage.

Karin turned her body to face Aska with her big eyes.

"Can't you massage Aska?" Karin asked anxiously.

"I massage Karin." replied Aska with an innocent face.

"Why doesn't it feel at all?" Karin said irritably.

"Is it true? I've massaged it earnestly. Is it true that it is not hard enough?" asked Aska with a muffled smile.

"You must be hiding something? you teased me." said Karin with an exasperated look.

Aska blinked his narrow eyes.

Karin laughed in her heart, it was funny to see Aska's terrified eyes.

"Come on Rin, quickly turned around... let me massage it again. I can't bear to see you tired Rin." said Aska forcing Karin to turn around again.

"Yes...yes, but the strong massaged it." said Karin pretending to be annoyed. Karin immediately turned around again.

Without making a sound Aska took something from under her pillow, Then Aska continued to massage Karin's back a little hard so that Karin wouldn't get annoyed anymore.

A few minutes later, slowly, Aska parted Karin's hair that covered her long neck.

Aska carefully wrapped a string around Karin's neck. Karin's body moved about to turn around, but Aska held her back.

"Don't turn around yet honey, let me finish my job" Said Aska while continuing to wrap the necklace around Karin's neck and hook it.

"It's done honey, now look at me." said Aska with a smile.

Karin turned around with tears that had already trickled down her cheeks. Karin's lips were pressed tightly together. just the sound of her heartbeat and chest pounding beautifully as Aska did it all.

"Aska." Karin's fragile eyes fell on the holes in Aska's happy eyes. With a heart filled with happiness Karin hugged Aska. With a smile Aska returned the hug of Karin tighter.

"Are you happy Rin?" Asked Aska in a low voice. Karin touched Aska's lips with her index finger.

Karin's tears rolled down her cheeks.

"What are you doing Aska? do you want me to die quickly because of the shock that makes my heart this happy?" asked Karin between happiness and deep pain.

"Since I have known you until recently, I can only trouble you. You always give in with my stubbornness, you have always been patient in taking care of me and taking care of me all this time. And I've never made you happy. While I have time, I want to make you happy Rin." said Aska in a soft voice.

"I want to see you smiling happily, not the tears that always flow in your beautiful eyes." said Aska while wiping the tears running down Karin's cheeks.

Karin smiled and laughed, her heart cried even more.

"Who said I gave in? I'm just less smart than you. And who is patient with your stubbornness? I want to always hit your stubborn head." Karin said hoarsely between her sobs. With great feeling Karin hugged Aska's body again very tightly.

"I did it because I love you Ka, since we met in fact i have loved you. Unfortunately my brain is not as smart as yours, so I didn't notice. And don't say I'm unhappy, ever since knowing you I've been happy. Very happy." said Karin again with a look full of love.

Aska smiled, then pinched the tip of Karin's nose in exasperation.

"From morning to night you cry all the time, are you not tired?" Asked Aska while parting Karin's hair which covered Karin's neck.

"Look at this necklace Rin." Aska's hand grabbed the necklace and showed it to Karin. Karin's face was slightly lowered to be able to see it clearly.

"Do you want to know? why did I choose this necklace?" asked Aska in a low voice.

"Hem...What? I want to know." said Karin curiously.

"I chose white gold, because I wanted my love to be white as jasmine white. Which you don't touch but you can feel the fragrance. It's the same with me, even though one day you can't touch me anymore, you can still feel how much I love you. And ... you know what this round circle means?" said Aska, pointing to the circle on the necklace pendant.

Karin shook her head.

"This circle represents the moon. I want to be the moon, which can light up your heart when you are sad. So if later you feel sad or miss me, you can look at the moon. And ... this symbol in the middle is a star. I want to be a star, even if it's just a speck of light but it comes out of the star itself. I want me to remain a light in your life, because that's the power of my love for you." Said Aska, feeling relieved after explaining his heart to Karin.

Karin smiled then chuckled. Karin narrowed her eyes at Aska who was serious about her words.

"Why are you laughing Rin?" asked Aska with an astonished look.

Again Karin chuckled.

"I'm dizzy to hear that Ka, too long means. May I summarize it?" Karin asked, chuckling a little.

"Hem?" said Aska, starting to get annoyed because Karin didn't understand what he was saying.

"It's true you want to know?" Karin said seductively.

"Not!" Aska looked away in annoyance.

"Seriously don't want to know?" said Karin looking softly at Aska's face.

"What?" Aska returned Karin's gaze with a pounding heart.

"You love me and I love you. I don't care whether I'm happy or not, all I care about is one...I want you to promise me to be with me always." said Karin with a serious face.