LOVE OR LOVE

Aska holds the gun in his hope that his hope has been wiped out, there is no way out other than his death.

Aska looked at Karin with desperate eyes. Karin's heart stiffened to see Aska as if she had lost consciousness.

Aska raised the gun right in the eye of Karin.

"Look carefully, this gun has bullets, and I'm not kidding about death." Aska took a bullet from his pistol and put it back right in Karin's eyes. "If you are angry with me and even hate me and still insist on leaving me. You can kill me now! Because if I was alive I would never let you go." Aska put the gun into Karin's palm.

Karin froze, her eyes staring at the gun that was now in her grasp. His hands were shaking, his body felt stiff and unable to move. His lips were complaining to make a sound. Fear took over him. This is the first time Karin knows that behind Aska's sweet attitude, there is a very hard heart.

"And what is this? A gun? Why does Aska keep a gun in his car? Is Aska's world very dangerous?" Her fear swallowed up Karin's soul even more.

"Why so qiuet! Do it quickly, so you can get out of here." asked Aska in a trembling voice.

Karin closed her eyes slowly, her hands shaking violently. Karin is eager to pull the trigger so that she can get away from the life of Aska, who has hurt her heart by harboring a lie.

Karin's heart was really hurt. But there was an even bigger feeling than it all, and really Karin didn't know what it was.

"Why don't you do it quickly, I'm ready to die." Aska's voice felt heavy. There was sadness there, there was despair in his eyes.

Karin's heart weakened, her hands felt weak to press the trigger. Karin's face fell. For some reason, her heart was so weak against Aska. A so stubborn and arrogant Aska who doesn't fear death.

"I can't do it. I'm not a murderer, let me go. Now I'm tired of this fake relationship." Karin said in a low voice, holding back tears. He put the gun on Aska's thigh.

"You don't have to worry Karin. I will write a final message, that I want this." said Aska in a cold voice. Quickly Aska took out the notebook in the drawer, then Aska tore a sheet and immediately wrote something on the paper. Even Aska also signed the letter message.

Karin's heart shrunk even more with Aska's attitude that wanted himself to die so badly. Karin just realized that Aska was very serious about what he said.

"Now you can do it, I've written a message, my death ... I want it myself." said Aska, handing back the gun in Karin's hands.

Karin waved Aska's hand hard. Until the gun was almost released from Aska's hand.

"Are you crazy haahh! Why do you want to die? If you want to die! Just die yourself!" Karin shouted, her mind raging, between fear and anger. Truly Karin's heart is getting sad and hurt by Aska's attitude.

"Well! I'm crazy Karin! Because I don't know anymore how to make you want to listen to me and not leave me! Why don't you believe me if I don't have any feelings for Sonya!" answered Aska in a choked voice. His eyes were cloudy, with his face getting even paler.

Karin's tears fell down her cheeks, not knowing why she had to cry after hearing Aska's touching words.

"I beg you Ka, let me go. You can start your life with your fiancé's sonya. Let's just say we never met, like when you didn't know me." sobbed Karin, Karin had enough to endure the pain in her heart.

"Fine, if this is what you choose. You still want to leave me right? You can go, and take the key in my pocket, but before that I will keep my promise." Aska tried to grab the gun in her thigh, Aska raised the gun in his hand, the tip of the gun stuck to the side of his head. Aska's eyes closed, ending the love and longing he just felt.

"I love you Karin, goodbye." Aska's voice was soft. Aska's finger slowly pulled the trigger of the gun and was about to release it.

However, when Aska's finger released the trigger, Karin pushed Aska's body hard, so that Aska's hand shook and a bullet hit the windshield of the car.

Karin threw herself into Aska's arms. Her tears were pouring out, her fear was truly at its peak.

She was unable to see Aska's death, even though his heart was wounded.

Karin cried on Aska's chest while hitting Aska's chest repeatedly.

Aska closed his eyes, felt Karin's embrace and cries, not caring about his chest which hurt even though he was hit very hard.

Aska felt that his heart had become one with Karin and found his consciousness again.

Aska is happy Karin doesn't want his death. Aska let Karin cry and hugged her tightly.

"Why are you pushing me Karin? Should have let me die, because as long as I live I won't let you go." Said Aska with soft eyes looking into Karin's eyes demanding an answer.

Karin lowered her face unable to answer Aska's question. Karin was silent, because she herself didn't know why she didn't want to see Aska die.

"I beg you, let me out now, I want to take a break, solve your problem with Sonya." Karin replied softly, unable to face Aska.

Aska looked at Karin with uncertain thoughts.

"Does that mean, you won't go? And won't leave me?" asked Aska with a full gaze.

"For today I won't go, but I don't know tomorrow! You better solve your problem with Sonya as soon as possible. I don't want to be the third person in your relationship." Karin replied, getting ready to leave.

"I gave you a week to work it out." Karin continued, stretching out her hand to ask for the car keys. But Aska pulled Karin's hand so hard that Karin's body fell in Aska's arms.

With overflowing joy, Aska hugged Karin's body tightly.

"Thank you Rin, I will solve this problem as soon as possible." said Aska without letting go of his hug.

"Let go of your arms, I'm doing this doesn't mean I forgive you. I'm still mad at you! Remember that!" Karin shouted, releasing Aska's hug roughly.

Aska was silent for a moment, thinking about how to make Karin no longer angry with him.

"You don't need to think about anything else, just solve your problem with Sonya! And you also have to tell how you got a gun in your car!" Karin stretched out her hand for the car keys.

Aska took the car keys in his pocket and gave them to Karin. Hurriedly, Karin opened the car door and got out as soon as possible, leaving Aska who was still pensive to find a way out with only one week to solve the problem.

Only a few steps Karin remembered something. Halfheartedly, Karin turned to the car where Aska was still pensive. Karin's head poked into the car.

"Why don't you come down? Hurry down now! Immediately fill your stomach, and take the medicine from Doctor Heru." said Karin in a cold tone.

Aska looked up, looking at Karin with a sudden feeling of excitement. Her feelings began to develop again with Karin's attention that didn't diminish even a bit, even though she was angry.

Quickly Aska got out of the car and followed Karin who was walking in front of him.

Arriving in the living room, Karin went upstairs to her room, while Aska turned towards the kitchen to fill her hungry stomach.

Karin entered her room, heart still restless. her life has become very complicated since she got to know Aska. It feels like he was created just to be beside Aska. Can not get away or let go.

"Sonya is Aska's fiancé, while he is nobody Aska. What should I do now? Do Sonya and Aska's parents know about the Leukemia disease that Aska suffered from? Do they know if Aska's life is predicted not to be long?" Karin asked herself, staring at the ceiling in her room.

Karin took a deep breath, her head felt like it was about to break thinking about Aska's problem with Sonya.

Again Karin thought about her feelings for Aska.

"What's wrong with my heart? Why can't I see Aska hurt even a little? Aska ... what have you done with my heart? Why am I so angry and feel so hurt when I find out that you are engaged? Am I jealous of Sonya?" Karin asked silently, holding her chest aching.

"Kn ... Knock ... Knock"

Karin looked at the knocked door. With a lazy feeling, Karin opened the door to her room.

"Non Karin, this is food for Miss Karin." said Aunt Imah into the room and put it on the table.

"Wait Auntie Imah, but I'm not asking for food?" said Karin confusedly.

"Oh ... Mr. Aska told me to prepare a meal for Miss Karin." answered Aunt Imah with a smile.