BROKEN

"Hey, I dare you to spend 7 minutes in the closet with Olivia."

"WHAT!" I yelled in shock. Olivia looked confused, as expected, because she's too innocent for this kind of thing.

"Alex! Alex! Alex!" everyone started chanting my name, so I agreed since Olivia didn't know what it was and it shouldn't be a problem for her.

But things turned out bad for me since Olivia asked me what it was. I told her that they locked two people in the closet for 7 minutes and those two people talked with each other inside. Now she's wondering why I'm blushing and not talking with her. Not my fault she's so pretty; it's taking everything in me to not just go and kiss her. I decided to take deep breaths and started talking with her. She tucked her hair back and oh my god, she's so pretty.

"So... what's your favorite movie?"

"Oh, I like Spider-man. What about you?"

"Mine is Call Me By Your Name. Ever heard of it?"

"No, I will watch it. So what is it about?"

"A guy who falls in love with another guy who came to his house for vacation. When he left, the guy waits for him for a long time and then he gets a call from that guy, who invited him to his wedding. In the end, he just sits by the fire and cries."

"Holy shit, that's so sad. That other guy was a douche."

"Agreed. So what do you think about people who like a person of the same gender?" I could see the panic on her face.

"I- I am not very fond of that kind of people," she said stuttering. I felt my heart shatter, and as I was about to say something, Lia opened the closet.

"7 minutes over, losers," she said, and we went back to play the game. I was quiet the entire game mostly, and I could feel Olivia's glances at me.

Since the party was on Saturday, I was grateful for Sunday. I didn't want to face Olivia. I felt like I would cry. I imagined her dating someone else, and it made me feel worse. Why was I even upset at something I knew could never be mine? Was this the reason she ran away after we accidentally kissed? I kept wondering about all kinds of things.

"Alex, it's afternoon; are you seriously not gonna come out of your room?" my mom asked at the door.

"Mom, I said I would be out once I'm feeling alright, so don't disturb me." My mom was my first best friend and my father was my best friend too, but he was mostly busy with work, and I grew closer to my mom. I'm not spoiled, but if I want something, they will buy it for me. I was sad, and my mom wanted to cheer me up, but nothing worked. I just watched Call Me By Your Name and cried again and again. I came out to my mom last year. I told her I was bi, and she had no problem with it. Guess I am lucky with that, but not lucky with the person I like, and I went back to my crying.

I went to school with a heavy heart. My mom said she would drive me to school. I felt horrible and didn't want to go, but it is my last year. I had to go or I would miss these moments. I went to my lecture, and for the first time, I was grateful that I was not in the same class as her. I was also grateful she wasn't friends with my friends. I went to lunch, and after Lia and Amelia convinced me, I decided to go. I didn't see her anywhere. A part of me was dying to see her; the other part was already dead because of her and hoped not to see her, or else I would cry.

"Dude, what the heck happened to you yesterday? Why the hell are your eyes so puffy and red? Were you crying all day?" asked Amelia, as I said she had no filter.

"Yeah, I did cry yesterday, and I might cry again, so don't pay attention to me."

"How do you mean, not paying attention to you? You have not been eating anything, just playing with your salad, and you even missed your roll call. I think your brain is dead." said Lia,

"I am not hungry, so I'll go first," I said and walked away. I wanted to cry again, so I went to the bathroom. I heard some weird noises coming from one of the bathroom stalls. Since everyone was in the cafeteria, I doubted there was anyone in this bathroom. I went to the stall I heard noise from and slowly opened the door.

"What the..."