Her Warmth

Damien Pov:

My son. There is nothing we could not do for you. But sending you away was the most painful sacrifice I could have ever made.

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I know you clocked Eighteen two years ago. But that was when disaster struck and you lost the Shira's parent. You were mourning the lost of the two people who was there for you when we could not. So there is no way we could have reached out at that time.

We wanted to invite you back home but we could sense your immense hatred for your family. We made the choice of been hated if that could at least save you from the darkness that was suppose to consume you. I could bear your hatred but I could not bear to loose you my son.

We had to first let Duriel come see you to see how you will feel around him. We did not want to overwhelm you. He said you seem weary of him and that is quite understandable. We asked him not to get too close due to the other concern we had.

Elder Sisera said the love of the one touched by the goddess and the hatred of family bond will save you. We were suppose to stay away from you until you are Eighteen but that was when Shira parent died. Elder Sisera was also also with them at the time.

So we were initially lost at the time. If she was still here we would have enquired if it is now safe to come around you. We had to wait till two years later before we could risk inviting you here.

My son. I hope you can forgive your parent. We love you so much. I hope you can see that and understand why we had no choice but to give you away.

Hearing and seeing what happened, I know I should hug my mother. She seem to have been through a lot but I had haboured resentment for these two for so long. I don't know how I could just let it all go.

I need some air. I need to leave this room. I feel like I am going to suffocate if I stay here one more second. So I ran out. I just ran to wherever and I found myself at the supposed Duriel safe haven. I needed someplace I could be alone and am glad Duriel is not here.

I need to see Shira. I really need to see her face. I need her warmth right now. I could reach her. We share a bond, our soul are connected. I know she should not be bothered as she will still be in the sacred garden but I think I will go mad if I could not see her at this moment. So I close my eyes and reach deep to my core. I try to calm all of my senses and just try to envision her face. Her warmth. Her bright smile. 

Shira I need you. please come to me. Hear my voice and come to me. I called and she answered me. I know she will come. She could feel my distress afterall.

Damien are you okay? I could hear her soothing voice as I open my eyes to see her worried face. I know she is not really here in body. I could not touch her but I could at least see her face and talk to her. That in itself is the miracle I need at this moment.

Shira I wish I could hug you right now. But seeing your face right now soothes me already. I should not have listened to you in coming here though, coming here has been draining. 

Damien try to stay calm for me okay and I felt her warmth as she hug me. This came as a shock to me. We could only see each other whenever we invoke each other through our soul bond. We could never touch or feel each other.

Shira how is this possible. How are you able to do this? Instead of answering my question she hug me tightly instead. Am not able to do this for very long. I know you needed warmth so am using all the power I could muster to give you a hug right now. I might fade away any moment now. So listen to me as I need you to be strong. I could feel your emotions. I could feel your pain. I need you to let go, it is alright to let it all go now my love.

There is no weakness in forgiveness. You my friend deserve all the love in this world. So I give you the strength to break down those walls. I need to go now but in anything you do always remember that I will always love you. I feel her soft lips on mine and with that she is gone.

I just stood there, basking in her warmth. I still cannot believe she was just here. I know being able to see her is all I needed and I was not wrong. She has always have the power to calm me with her presence and words.

She even has to drain herself so she could comfort me. I still sometimes cannot belief how lucky I am to be loved by Shira. I guess everything has its upside. If my parent has not given me away I would not have met the most beautiful being in this world.

I had to run out of the room after my Mother showed me that vision. I cannot belief I had hated my parent. I had hated them so deeply, I thought I had no love left for them. So I did not know what to do with all those overwhelming emotions I felt as I saw her cry after showing me the sacrifice they had to make so I could be saved. 

I was beginning to hide in my shell. That is what I do, I tend to run away when things get too much to bear. It has been long I felt such self loathing. Shira has always been my anchor. She has always given me so much love. I find strength in her, I will just be a shell of myself if I did not have her by my side.

I think I am ready to face my family now. Like Shira said there is strength in forgiveness. I need not to beat up myself anymore. I thought they had abandoned me. I had no idea of why they seem to not want me. It is only normal I had felt how I did. It's time to learn how to let go and try to be family again. I know it is not going to be an easy road but am willing to try. They are my family after all.