Chapter6

#Chapter6

-Rogue?

Jordan POV.

Driving is a skill I was taught by mom, she started to give me lessons back when I was fifteen, she said it's better to learn early, I agreed with her, I wanted to learn how to drive, I was really interested in learning new skills, I loved spending time with my mom. Back then, I wasn't as pissed as I'm full time, I was a happy person, I loved my mom, my sister, my brothers, my pack, but when did things start to change.

A year ago, I was starting to change a year ago, but why would I start changing, I was almost an adult, I shouldn't have turned this way, I should have started to take my place in the pack, just like Keiran and Jacob were doing, but I couldn't, I was changing, toward the worse, I scared myself. After school, I went to university with Jacob, it was fun to get to college, I had the chance to meet new people, humans, other wolves, some of our pack, some of the other packs, it was a good friendly meeting overall, I graduated earlier this year, a big party was thrown for us, by Ashlynn, and Kiara, it was the first time I ever got mad at anyone, it was one of the times, I knew I was starting to lose it.

The party was going great, mom, siblings, everyone was so happy and dancing around, I and Jacob were the big shot, I got to dance with mom, I danced with Ashlynn, I was dressed in a white shirt with a black leather jacket on top, skinny jeans that made my ass look juicy and some boots, Kiara said I look like a bad boy, and I agree with her, I do look like a bad boy and I love it.

/"Jordy! Dance with me,/" Kiara demands, holding both my hands and dragging me to the dance floor with her, so far so good, you might wonder why and when did I get angry and lose it then, it wasn't then that I got angry, there was no reason for me to get angry, it was later, much later that night.

/"Jordan, you're on patrol tonight,/" Keiran order me, I didn't mind the patrol job, I agreed on going on patrol, although it's my day to be celebrated. I shifted and ran away with some of my packmates, I was the one in charge after alphas and beta, I was the one they obeyed during the patrols. We ran our territories, we made sure they are safe, but tonight wasn't a normal night, tonight we saw a rogue, he jumped on our lands, usually, we just chase rogues away, but this rogue was different, he was attacking us back, he wasn't going down.

As the most dominant one in the group, I took charge, I attacked the rogue, he went for my neck, but I went for his too, I kept going for his neck until he fell down dead.

I've never killed a rogue before, this was the first rogue I ever killed, and it did something to me, it changed me, I loved the rush, I loved being in charge, but I didn't want to kill anymore or dominate anyone, I went home angry, angry at myself, angry for what I did, for the rush I felt. That night made the shift going inside me grow, I turned from just feeling different to acting different, toward everyone, and I hate that.

After that night, I yelled at Ashlynn and Kiara for the first time, I didn't just scold them for acting out, I was actually angry at them that day, I was worried I'd be going rogue. But why would I go rogue, I know I have my loyalties back to my mom, it's my birthday, I'm an adult now, if my wolf wants to go rogue, it's time for it. I decided to park on the side of the road, I'm far away from the pack land, I've been driving for about two hours now, I know mom's pack is back behind me, where they are safe, I parked the car and got out, it was freezing outside, the snow is covering the roads and the side of the roads.

I shifted to my wolf form, letting my wolf take control, it's his time to decide, we'd either be rogues or get back to mom's pack, I fell down on my four paws, the ice underneath my paws wasn't any comfortable, I didn't like being here, neither did my wolf, my wolf whined and cried, he wants to get back to mom's house where it's safe.

'We rogue now?' I ask him, I asked my sassy wolf, the one who's been going insane for a while now.

'No, you idiot,' my wolf answers me, when I was younger, mom once asked where I learned all the sass from, I told her from my wolf, she laughed at me that day, but it's the truth, it where I learned my sass from.

I was going back to the car, but my wolf refused to go back to the car, he wants to run a little bit, we're an adult now, we can become rogues, we can take our place in the pack, we can find our mate, to the last thought, my wolf purred, he wants to find his mate just as bad as me. Our other half, but since we didn't have it, since we couldn't find that other half just yet, we decided to run for a little bit more, to take toward the woods, I looked up to the dark sky, there was no moon for me to howl for, but I howled my pain to the dark sky. After my howling was over after I was done with that, I moved back to my car, my legs hitting the snow slowly, making no sound, I was quick on my feet, I was silent, I shifted back to my human form.

Opening my car door, I got in the car and looked in the mirror, my eyes are still the same green, my fangs aren't showing, I looked normal, I'm not a rogue yet, I'm still me, and I got a long drive ahead of me, I don't want to turn rogue, I'll never turn, not while I got the choice. I turned my car on and waited for it to heat up again, the cold was standing in my way, after five minutes I was back on the road, there would be no sleep for me tonight, not until I reach the blackthorn.