TAMARA BLAMES HERSELF

Unable to control her rage any longer, Tamara said out loud, "Will you stop that crying for God's sake mom, it is driving me crazy.

I have told you so many times, I went to the church where I asked Courtney to meet me, and the Minister told me Courtney got married."

"That's not true, you are always lying to me and making trouble, and my child will never get married without informing me?"

"Well Mom, you can believe what you want, I am telling you what the Minister told me and it is the truth, and here is your mail, I am going for a walk, I need some fresh air."

Tamara hurried out of the door grumbling, "I am fed-up with her grumbling and complaining for every little thing. Every day for the last two weeks she has being going none stop."

Thinking about Courtney, 'How is it she has so much patient with her, and I could barely stand being near her, especially when she keep going from one topic to the next.

Courtney has been taking care with her for the last four years on her own, and not one day she has complain, why is she so different?

I can't stand being in the house and she doesn't care to go shopping or to visit anyone all she seems to enjoy is doing people hair and face and plan their marriage life, but now I ruin her life.

Tamara felt this angry from deep within for going to that beach lime, but she thought she would be by the church on time.

If only that fool Brian had listened to me and didn't thought I was joking when I said, I was going to get married.

If only he had taken me to the Church for half two, today I would be the one married instead of Courtney, and I won't be faced with this crisis in my hand.'

When George the neighbor ten-year-old calls out to her, Tamara, just wave, Then Jean another neighbor.

'Boy, you can't step out the house, it's like everyone has nothing to do inside their home. Or is it they are curious to know where Courtney is? She was always kind to them taking them to Church.

Dear God, I can't handle these obstacles, if they only hear what happen, then we will be a laughing stock in the street.

They are popping out of their homes just like that day, obstacles popping up from every direction. It seems as though there was a force that wanted me not to reach by the church on time.

And God, where did that old hag came from, causing Brian to touch his car holding us up another hour.

When we did reach for half four, The Minister said that Mr. Dawson and Miss Brown got married an hour ago,

Knowing I will never get another opportunity like that again. I am sure he had waited, knowing his urgency to have an heir.

I can't blame Courtney, she was just caught in the middle, but now I am stuck with Mom crying and constantly complaining and I know getting money from mom is definitely out of the question.

How can I tell mom, this is not Courtney fault and maybe she didn't have any choice. Then she might begin to worry and the crying wouldn't stop, which is already driving me crazy.'

Recalling that mom said Courtney had the form for her disability grant, 'Now it has already been two weeks since she had gotten married. Maybe where she is, it was difficult for her to send a message?

I should go and see to get another form for her because that is the only means of income she will have and I will have to find a way of getting some money

Mom doesn't want to hear or believe what I said is true, but I know it is true. I had searched everywhere for Mr. Dawson, in every hotel, apartment building, and street even the address he had given had an old man.

No one was fitting the profile he sent to me, and the few addresses with Dawson were of no avail.'

Feeling impatient, Tamara, knew she check every day to see if she had written to mom, but she haven't received any mail from Courtney neither any calls.'

Recalling the few times Mr. Dawson and she had spoken, 'If he was sincere concerning his deal within two years, she would have given him an heir and collected five million.

I didn't mine, but Courtney is completely different, she loves her Church and that stupid Kyle. I hope that Mr. Dawson is handsome because, I saw Kyle with a girl, kissing and making out.'

Reaching the old train where Brian always wait for her, but there wasn't anyone, seeing a few cars at a distance driving her way, glimpsing Kyle with the same girl he was making out with as he passes by.

Noticing the way he was looking at her with that smock smile, it seem he was just using her, because if he was really in love with Courtney, he would be heartbroken.

He more seems to be glad she isn't around, and he doesn't seems to care. In fact he never came to quarry of her whereabout, neither call.

And the truth is, true love never dies or forgotten, so if only I could find that Mr. Dawson I will fix everything?

But how? They already gotten married and the few times I spoke with him, I am sure he had already convince her or find a way to have an heir.

What can I do but accept that this is all my fault and make the best out of a bad situation. I should have known that Courtney is the only one who knows how to handle Mom.

Now I am at a loss, I can't blame Courtney, I am the one to be blame, now my problem is to prevent Mom from calling the Police.

I had to disconnect the phone a few times so she wouldn't have any means of communication with the Police, but for how long I can't say?'

Having no choice Tamara decided to return home, I can't believe after everything Brian has turn his back on me. Was he angry when I told him that I was going to get married?

Did he willfully ignored me? Oh my God, how could I be so stupid, and trusted him thinking he had my best interest at heart?'