MY FIRST DAY

Hearts can break.

Yes, hearts can break. Sometimes I think it would be better if we died, but we don't.

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It was a cloudy day which I hated, gazing through the window I witnessed how the sky clouded over at each passing minute.

I hated the dark because I had always been in it. I was alone from my childhood. today is my first day at the University after my school studies. I didn't want to go, I didn't want to feel left out again, I didn't want to be avoided and I didn't want to feel down on myself anymore.

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I promised myself that I will have a new start but still, my heart kept aching at the negative thoughts. I would be pleased if I got at least one friend. taking a deep breath, I was ready to face this, I've gotta do this! reminding myself once again I got downstairs as I saw the light of my world, my heart instantly soothed after seeing her.

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"grannie"

I ran up to her and gave her a sweet morning hug.

she had been the only person in my life who didn't judge me for what I am. The only person who never failed to bring a radiant smile to my face.

she dragged me away and glanced me up and down examining my outfit.

"oh god I couldn't believe my small baby matured into a big man "

she cringed as she faked her tears.

I chuckled at her cuteness.

"Still a kid, can't you even wear your beanie properly?"

she scolded me as she fixed my beanie.

"I'll get going then "

I grinned as she nodded and pecked my forehead as I took fast steps to the door.

I peeked up at the sky which was even more darker.

This was a really bad start to the day. I eventually arrived at the University and I stood outside gaping at it. I saw a bunch of people chatting and laughing, probably eager for the first day. anxiety took over as I started to lose my mind, everything was in slow motion until I recognized what it was.

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"no not now"

I tried to calm myself down, it can't happen, not now.

after taking numerous long breaths I was steady again. I don't know how I'm gonna manage for the next few years, it's gonna be an immense challenge.

I left a long sigh as I strolled into the university not daring to look at other people. I straight away went to the board where they had displayed the classes. It wasn't crowded which was unusual. I went as I looked for

my name.

I caught up with the room number and my locker number as I went to my locker and stuffed my beanie and coat in it. I proceeded to my allotted class. I went to the class only to be seen by a big crowd.

I got inside and directly went to the last bench. already a girl was sitting while reading a novel. I had that cold and uncomfortable sensation when the crowd began to grow more. but the crowd was at a certain place. then some exited the crowd and we were gossiping.

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"she is hella gorgeous "

" I'll make mine"

"Bro you think so "

"at least I have to ask for her phone number "

"you think she will have that dumb liking to choose you, stop dreaming "

The two males began laughing as they passed by me.

Then I figured out that she must be the heartthrob of our class. heartthrob on the first day of the university, I pity her, she will have everyone's attention which will make her feel uncomfortable. everyone had made pals on their first day here but not me, I couldn't bring up myself to talk. I wonder how even people get attached too easily.

my thoughts were put to an end when the homeroom teacher entered. everyone went to their respective places as we stood up and have a welcoming bow. the homeroom teacher had a gloomy and positive face which helped me ease up a bit.

I took a look at the girl whom everyone was crowding and talking about. I could only see her blonde hair because she was really so far from me. I shrugged it off as I adverted my gaze to my lap.

The teacher asked us to introduce ourselves and he said to start from the last who was none other than my suspicious bench mate.

she got up and spoke in a bold voice

"I'm Ritsuko Ayumi "

her cold voice gave me shivers as I looked up at her. next, it was my turn. I stood up as everyone's attention was on me which made me feel too nervous.

"I'm Azumaya Kiyoshi "

I said in one swift movement as I immediately sat down. One by one introduced themselves as I was waiting for a certain person to get introduced. but the blonde girl was at the front it took a long time to reach her. after waiting for a long time.

it was her turn. I don't know why but my heart was too curious to know who she was. She stood up as her long blonde hair flew making an euphoric feeling building inside me. but before she could tell me her name she left sneeze which felt cute to me. my lips were already dancing with an unknown happiness. she fixed her dress and bowed to our homeroom teacher.

"hi I'm Hiromi Yoshimasa "

Hiromi? Wait what! She can't be my Hiromi right?

she turned around the class and gave a sweet smile which was the same sweet smile.

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"Hello I'm Hiromi Yoshimasa, I'm 10 years old "

she giggled as I sat there in awe. I followed her since then. since from my small age, I've had a huge crush on this girl.

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"so kids, Hiromi will be leaving this town soon and this will be her last day here so let us all wish her a sweet goodbye" my teacher announced as tears welled up in my eyes. she can't leave. everyone was bidding her goodbye but me being a coward stood against the wall shedding tears. I felt a tiny tap as I looked up to see the last thing I ever want to see.

"why you didn't say bye ?"

she asked as she pouted. I immediately wiped my tears and gathered all my courage.

"bye hi-Hiromi "

I said with a smile when my tears were protesting to escape.

she yet gave a sweet smile and got in her car. She left waving goodbye.

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"Hiromi Yoshimasa"

my eyes left a tear ...

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Memories are the best souvenirs...