Riley

Being in this house is so fucking miserable and I don't think there is an escape the cycle is never ending it's the same thing over and over again. Luke just comes here and does everything to make us feel like we are not humans. "Hey sweetie how was your study session with the rich girl" yep that's wat my mom calls Kiara "uhm it was fine did you make anything to eat where is Ronald" she seemed very uneasy after I asked her that "mom where is my brother" is she really crying right now "riley I sold him off" I cant believe it she sold my brother I couldn't breathe she ….. "Riley stop being such a sissy and go make me something to eat" all of a sudden she was smiling like she didn't just sell off her only son "Mom do you realize what you have done huh you sold of your son that is my fucken brother and let me guess you did all this because Luke told you to do it can you for once not be so selfish and think about your kids mom Luke tried to rape me several times and you still allow him in this house!!!!! he forces Ronald to blow him do you think that is normal he rapes you every opportunity he gets all just because you think you love him mom you need serious help I am only 17 I can only take so much" she was now crying "Riley I am so sorry I promise we will get out this I will get a job and we can do so much" I don't know when last I felt so vulnerable in her arms I feel safe. "now go change and help me make dinner" maybe she is changing for the better but as soon as I opened my bedroom door I was met with the 5 man standing before me naked

Me: what are all you doing here how can I help you

Mom: sweetie these are our guest and you are going to service them they paid a lot to be with you now be a good girl and take off your clothes

Man1: lets see them titties

Mom: drink these (she forcefully put two pills in my mouth and locked the door)

Just like she said these five men took turns on me like a dead chicken I tried screaming and crying but that just turned them on more my mom she did this to me she let 5 men take turns with me… the last thing I remember is one of the men slapping me only then did my mom come in and told them it was enough. All five men walked out and gave her a stack of cash. "Riley look at how much we made" I can't believe her did she just say look how much we made I was fucken gang raped and this is all she could think about just money. She took all the money and left my room while singing. I feel so dirty and ugly I just want to die. Blood splashes everywhere and I can slowly feel my soul leaving my body maybe this is how it's supposed to be maybe....

Suicidal thoughts by Karen

The thoughts that haunt me at night when I toss and turn in bed

Imagine how the world would be without me, more air for everyone less food to buy

I wish I could cry tears would cleanse my soul. Maybe I am just tired of living

Listen when I speak my voice tells the story. But no one bothers

One vein has exploded death is at the door seeking me and my demolished soul

But outside is green grass and the yellow sun, maybe I could stay a little longer.

"Luke call the ambulance!!!!!!!"