Sorry

I slowly walked down the hall and started to count the numbers of the door as If I did not know which room was mine. twenty- two, twenty - three, twenty - four, twenty - five... well this is it. The room was quiet but the lights were on. I slowly opened the door hoping that Eli would be somewhere else and just left the lights on or fell asleep while doing homework. Lucky for me Eli was not there but Nullus was there sitting at the table pouring himself a cup of tea.

¨Hello¨ he gave me a subtle smile before gesturing to sit down at the other end of the table.

I didn't know how to feel as I sat there I sensed sympathy in his eyes but also felt as if I were being pitted. I´m not a prideful person but even it makes me feel pathetic. I never said anything knowing that anyone who felt this way toward me never had any bad intentions.

¨ So you want to talk to me about this morning, don´t you. ¨

¨ You pick up quickly I admire that about you. since you know why I'm here let´s not beat around the bush.¨

I nodded. he poured the second cup of tea and handed it to me. I held the small ceramic cup in my hands the warm heat transferring to the palm of my hands and stinging the tips of my fingers. It´s one of the warmest moments I've felt all day. I brought the cup to my lips and took a sip and brought the cup down letting out a sigh of relief and satisfaction.

¨I myself enjoy a good cup of tea. That's why I always prepare it myself. but enough with that that´s not why I am here. I am here to apologize on behalf of Eli. I understand that he was harsh on you this morning when he had no rights to do so. I´m sure that you have already figured it out for yourself that Eli is very protective of me and tends to become more sensitive when someone mentions me as abnormal. I have already talked to Eli on this matter and I am aware that I tend to come off to strong but that is because I'm not normal so that is why I am not bothered when I hear whispers about my sanity and normality. As you know I - we have had a not so wonderful childhood and I´ll admit that it´s something I can never forget but I try not to rule my life. The situation is different for Eli, we are similar in many ways. We are both constantly running away from the past as it tries to catch up with us. But unlike me who has decided to try and let go of what has happened and move forward. He has decided to hold on and grow a burning hatred for what has happened. Even though you can do nothing to change what has happened. I ask that you have patience with him. May you please do that for me?¨

¨Yes I can." I told him taking another sip of tea.

¨Thank you. That is highly appreciated.¨

-Click

the door opened and Eli stood there drenched in water. I looked outside and realized that It had been raining. It was silent as he looked at the both of us.

¨Well If you'll excuse me I best be on my way. I'd like to give you space to talk." He turned to Eli ¨Please come talk with me tomorrow.¨

Eli Nodded and Nullus left the room leaving us both.

¨Let me take a shower first.¨

I nodded and took another sip of tea as he prepared his cloths and made his way to the bathroom.

He was tired.