I wish I could protect you

When I was done, Jungkook was left in tears. As if he could feel the agony I had to go through in my past, desolated sobs racked his body while he tried to regulate his breathing in order to speak.

"Tia..." His attempt to form words failed miserably as only ragged wheeze escaped his lips.

Nibbling my lips to prevent my self from wailing my heart out, I sniffed pondering on what to say to him however my throat clogged leaving both of us in a similar situation.

"I wish I could protect you, I wish I could change your past and erase all of your pain," Jungkook finally mustered out the words he was meaning to tell.

" I am so sorry you had to go through that hell" he enveloped me in his arms and resting his head on my shoulder he bewailed.

My heart ached to witness him break down in front of me. He had always been rays of sunshine in my life and knowing that I was the reason why the dark clouds were casted upon him made me feel depressed.

"It's not your fault," I said fondling his soft hair as he cried holding both sides of my shoulder to support himself.

It hadn't been much since we knew each other, maybe around four months but the way he cares for me reminded me of Jimin. Since day one, Jungkook had been nothing but kind and considerate to me just like how Jimin was before. However, this was the exact reason that made me worry as well since I didn't want him to change and abandoned me just like Jimin did.

For around half an hour we cried, shared our sorrow and after that, we chatted about random stuff like our likes and dislikes, our hobbies as well as about our first love to lighten up the mood a bit.

"I saw her in a school fair, she was wearing a maid costume and my god she was the most gorgeous girl I had ever laid my eyes on. I could tell that she was a popular girl..." he let out a small chuckle getting lost in the thought of his first love "...Or should I say a girl with high standards? Plus she had a bit of attitude problem but I guess it came with the popularity" Jungkook joked as I giggled listening to him.

"Sounds like you fell in love with a brat " I gasped trying to imagine the girl he was describing.

"I used to be very shy around girls, some even said I had phobia so even if she would approach me I would run away " He looked embarrassed as he gave me a sneak peek into his teenage life.

I could literally imagine baby Jungkook with flushed cheeks gawking at a gorgeous snobby girl in a Maid costume.

"I used to be called the emo kid, wearing all black trying to act mature than of my age" I tittered covering my mouth trying not to embarrass him more.

"What about you?" the spotlight was now shifted to me.

"who was your first love?" As soon as he dropped the question the glee in my face perished and my expression darkened conveying everything at once.

"He was your first love?" he spoke and i

confirmed it with a bob of my head.

"I really loved him a lot," I revealed and my heart twisted in every possible way.

"There hasn't been a moment in my life where I haven't wished things to be different."

I had my head lowered down in shame as I confessed how I loved the Man who mercilessly butchered my friends and family.

"If only he would have trusted me and told me the truth, we could have avoided the disaster from happening. My friends and family would have been alive, and maybe we would have built our own home with us and our child"

It was such a stupid thing to do but still, sometimes I would imagine how my life would have been if Taehyung was a normal guy just like I thought he was. Maybe even if he was a sociopath, I would have learned to live and learned to tolerate him as long as he wouldn't hurt the people I loved. I would help have helped him overcome his darkness. Though not perfect, we would have been a happy couple.