Waiting for the 12

It was my 15th birthday

Like every teenager, my wait for the first wish ran around the nerves

I squinched my eyes and looked at the phone

Looking for the wish someone did exactly at 12

It was more than 39min but no notification on my ears

I remembered that nobody knew

And dropped the phone

And tears

clutching the past disputes

Past ignorance

And past faults

I blamed myself for people not even wishing me

I don't know how will my day go

I don't know how will my time go

I had no wish except some

I had no hopes except some

Even my mom forgot me

Even my brother forgot me

I was no more me

The past me

The me to be called by many

I had refreshed it more than 100 times

I could see no new texts

And no new happiness

My social behavior is anxious

And I am anxious

I can't believe I am this

I just didn't receive a wish

I got reality

And I got faces

I got the hatred

And I found the strikes

It was about to be one

But my hope for someone carried on

My blood could stop running

But not my activeness to check my phone every second

Wish isn't great they are great

And I am great to take them as great

Roads took me to this direction

And I can't move this way

I need the other one

The one to bring happiness more than hope

The one to bring blames more than fake

The one to stand by me me more than hide

I can't stop thinking of this

I cant

I can't bring my eyes of my phone

And not think of them

It's half morning

And nobody could fulfill hope and change

I don't fear judgment

But I fear me who changed

12 isn't a great deal

I am

I expected more

Thank you for the realization!🥳