Chapter 10
Lumi's POV
Days after days as it turns to weeks there's not a day she doesn't greet me or hang out with me despite being in a different class.
She spend most of her free time either hanging out with me and my friends or talk to me on messages, if she can't come. She even stay up all night with me till I fell asleep and call me sometimes since I often sleep late. I feel like soon it'll be a burden to her but she always say that it's fine.
It's not just with me... I noticed that even if she's such a rascal sometimes, she always follow or do things as if were an order. She always do things even though she doesn't like it and I never heard her complain, well it's not like she doesn't like talking to me.
She's naughty and hard headed at times But she's just too selfless.
Lately she can't even meet up with me. She goes home way later than I do and judging by the time that she message me it's as if she doesn't sleep at all. I bet she's busy but she never say anything nor complain.
It's making me feel annoyed and angry. She's always like that. And even up until now I still don't know her name, she always has this mysterious vibe going on. At first I thought she's like an open book 'cause she seems easy to read but as I continue being with her I realized that what you see in her is just a layer. That despite knowing a lot of things about her because of what you see you'll realize that there's more to it than what you know. The more you understand, the more you realize that you only know little.
I don't even know when I started caring. But the unnoticeable wall she created is preventing me from getting near her and knowing her.
I sometimes look at her from a far and I sometimes see that when she's left alone she'd often have this face that would make you wonder whether the smile you usually see from her is real or not. *Sigh* Why can't she share things with me? If she do really like me then she'd at least trust me, right? I want to confront her but I can't really say anything... more like I don't know what to say...
I shared my burden with her and even showed her my embarrassing side without caring about what she'll think of me. She stayed up all night with me even though she's sick when I was breaking down because my closest aunt passed away. I never noticed it up until now but she has done so much for me yet she never asked anything in return nor say anything negative.
And knowing that she's having a hard time and she's not telling anyone nor ask someone for help, annoys me. Because I want to help even without her telling me too but I can't do anything 'cause I don't know what to do or how to help at all.
"Why does the two of you looks like the world is on your shoulder?" Jess asked, referring to both Maxie and I.
"I was gonna ask the same thing, seriously guys. What's wrong?" July asked as well.
I don't plan on answering that question after all I don't know what to say at all.
"I'm just a little worried about Riu" Maxie answered.
What? She's worried? The fck! Do they talk always or does she know something?
"Oh hey don't look at me like that Lumi" Maxie said while looking at me, what's wrong with the way I look anyway.
"Why worry about her? That's funny... shouldn't Lumi suppose to be the one who's worried haha" July exclaimed laughing. "Or maybe Lumi's thinking the same as Maxie right now, there's nothing to worry about Riu guys. She's already a senior student like us, I'm sure she's fine" she added.
Huh. A senior student like us... but even us, as seniors break down. How can I not worry.
I can't help but show my frustration right now which they obviously noticed.
"Why is she so effin' busy??" I said irritatedly.
"What? are you worried that she'll look for someone else?"Jess asked.
"No!"
"Ooh someones confident, anyway it's normal for people to be busy specially since the sports week is coming" July does have a point but that's not it.
"We know that. It's just that... she seems to be overworking herself." Maxie said as she take her phone from her bag.
"I even ask those people close to her about this if they know anything but they just said not to worry or pry on it" She added.
Tsk!
"Funny how yoy know a lot of things"
O_O
Sht I didn't mean to say that out loud. "Someone's not happy about this" Jess said referring to me.
"Why do you know a lot anyway? since when were you so close?" July asked.
I want to know as well. Knowing that she knows more than I am leaves a bad taste on my mouth.
"Hmm maybe it's because she's like a sister to me. Besides she's sweet and nice" She nonchalantly said as if her answer was already given.
Like a sister?
Ok.
But why add sweet and nice? I swear that midget monster is really a natural flirt. Arrgh!
I just remained silent as they talk and just burrow my head on my bag on the desk. I'm losing my energy to even say anything. We've been practicing the whole day for our class performance and my mind has been so busy thinking about some certain hardheaded midget.
"hey"
I heard July say as I felt her tap my shoulder.
"hmm" I said as response.
"Your baby's looking for you"
What?
Unconsciously, I found myself moving quickly as I head towards Riu as I saw her back on our door while talking to someone.
Without saying a word to anyone I just tookmy bag and walk out of the room. I grabbed her by her arm as I pass, all I can her was her apologizing and saying goodbye.
"Is your hobby talking and flirting to any woman you meet?" I said without thinking.
Argh! I feel like I'm not myself because of all the things that's been onmy head this pass few days.
"Why so upset foxy? Don't get jealous. I got my eyes only on you anyway" She said as she smile.
I can't help but smile on her seeing how sweetly she smile for me. But looking at her right now and seeing the small noticeable sign that she's tired just don't make me feel that happy.
"You look tired" I said softly.
She was silent for a moment as I felt her gaze on me as we walk but she then smile a little and held my bag as usual.
"Do I?" she said, laughing a little.
As if that little laugh would make me believe that you're not.
"Stop laughing. You're overworking yourself. You need to rest" I told her but she laughed even more.
"Hahaha Should I be happy that you're starting to care?..."
Do I not look like I care for her all this time? Tsk! How dense can she be.
"... I'm sorry" I heard her add.
Don't apologize. You've done nothing wrong. That's... not what I wanted to hear.
"Don't say sorry. Just at least take care of yourself"
"There's just so much on my plate as usual right now. And I'm having a hard time sleeping. I couldn't sleep properly at all. I can't even say if you can call what I do, sleeping" She said looking away.
"Then ask for help. If you need something, say it... and I'll do what I can to help" I sincerely said.
*tsup*
O_O
did she just kissed me on my cheek? This cheeky bastard. How unfair!
"Thank you but I'm fine"
*sigh* She not really gonna say anything or ask for my help at all, that sucks.
"Then next time you're free. Come to me and I'll sing you to sleep"
She look surprised with what I said but it was soon replaced with a big smile as she agree with me. Well that's all I can do for her right now, since she's not accepting any help at all.
"You're not allowed to take that back Foxy. I look forward on that. Never thought that you can be sweet as well"
Dmn this little monster is making me smile for no reason.
"Just so you know Riu, Two can play this game"
Let's do this. I just hope one day you open up and learn to lean on someone else. You're not alone, we're here, at least lean on us, trust us and learn to ask for help when you're having a hard time. You're pursuing me right? I've already given you my trust, I know that there are things that's not easy to say but when things are hard for you, at least acknowledge that you have me right now 'cause I'll do what I can to be there like you were for me.
I'd hate to see that bright smile break down and I've done nothing else to lessen your worries or pain.
I want to say a lot of things but I know that this isn't the right time.