Thirty five

I got up and walked to the window as i felt my heart. I felt weird. Paining but... I loved it.

A clear picture of her was floating in my head as she healed me and her soft seductive smile she had on her face as she held me on her arms. If only i did kiss her that day. If only i exerted myself and went in a little harder and dominant on her rather than trying to win her heart then.

If only I focused on getting her to be with me rather than being indecisive and passive aggressive on her.

Maybe things would have ended well. Maybe things would've worked out. Maybe i wouldn't have ended up with her dying on my hands.

Maybe if i...

I know i am not really big on domination. I have a strong guilty conscience that would torment me if i went into the dark side but i could have made her mine faster.

Instead of making her be the judge of my character and giving the helm of deciding if i was the one for her i should have done a lot better. She was my mate. I didn't have to be afraid of embracing her or kissing her or...

I turned around as i remembered the Virgin's first kiss.

It landed the girl he fell in love with into a comma and he almost killed himself because of it. If PK didn't find me and take me to him then, he would have killed himself and everybody including the girl he was trying to save. Forgetting the basic of his curse. He cannot sacrifice himself or be a sacrificed when he wants to.

I looked down as i remembered how his girl looked when I saw her. Dying fast.

Looking at her made me thankful I didn't kiss Kiara in all the chances I've had. But I still regret not having done so.

Tiyane turned and coughed, waking up in the process. I wanted to run to her and see if she was okay, but I stopped myself.

She closed her eyes and smiled. A second later, the smiled disappeared and her cute frown took its place. She opened her eyes and blinked twice.

She looked at the covers then at me. Then beneath the covers.

Horrified she looked up and i greeted her.

"Morning." I waved as I walked up to her bed.

She sank into her bed and pulled the covers up to he face. Looking both cute and vulnerable. I stopped and did a quick sweep of the surrounding. Why was she scared. She was safe here. Probably even safer than the US President at the moment.

"Are you okay?" I asked, assessing but not knowing what I should do.

She nodded as she turned and looked at the heart monitor that was going a bit crazy.

Shay. Can i turn the heart monitor off, i think its making her uncomfortable.

DON'T YOU DARE TOUCH MY MACHINES!

sorry.

"Do you need or want anything? Food? Drink? Water? Coffee? No wait no caffeine, fruit, i can go look for some. Or i can call a doctor in here."

"No, it's... its okay. Where am I?"

"Oh, this... this is a hospital, I... you were out, so i brought you here."

Liar.

Shut up.

"Where are the other beds?"

"Private room?"

She blinked like i said something wrong. She looked around and i was completely off my element. Shay, get your ass in here, please.

I am coming.

Hurry up.

"What time is it?"

"Nine. You've been asleep for five hours." I sounded as uncertain as a bitch. Not me.

She blinked and added, "I'd like a glass of water."

"On it. Anything else?"

"No."

"Okay. I'll go find some." I ran out out of the room and teleported everywhere. As i searched for water, i heard shay walk into her room and her laughter as i ran around.

I came back a few minutes later almost sweating from all the running I've been doing. And by a few minutes, I mean exactly nine and a half minutes.

I opened the door and walked into the room and the two girls looked at me.

"Oh lord, no!" Shay said after taking a single look at me bags.

"What?" I asked as she approached me.

"I thought you said he went to get water not grocery shopping."

"He said he was." Tiyane responded as she bent her legs in bed and covered herself. Shay took my bags and looked inside.

"Well, i didn't know which brand you wanted so I got a few types." I admitted though that was a abit of an understatement.

"I'm confiscating half of this, a sick person can't eat half of these." She took a plastic and put it aside and looked at the bag full of drinks. "You didn't check the fridge or the cupboard or tried the tap, have you?"

"No, it never occured to me how many people have used this room this month alone."

Don't be an arse!

"I'm fine with any of water." Tiyane said and I gave the plastic with half the food to shay while I went ahead with the rest.

"What's on the other bags?"

"Just leave, please."

"Sorry."

"Thanks for the food anyway,"

"Eat with the others will you?"

"I will, care bear."

Tiyane looked at me with odd eyes as i pulled a table and laid the food and drinks in front of her. "You can eat chicken right?" I asked and placed the other options she had in front of her. Steamed fish and vegetable salad.

"I can, i just need to watch out for fat." She responded as she looked at the barbecued chicken that cost me way more than it did in the restaurant. I bet she was hungry given she didn't eat supper or anything since lunch, i think.

"Good. Drink? I have juice and..." i faded off as i noted, i might have overdone overdoing it on drinks. I had two packs of juices and all of them were different. Add two packs of yogurts I had, and two half a litre cartons of yogurts too and that was over doing it. I still had to count four bottled tap water and four carbonated water. That was overdoing overdoing it.

I still hadn't counted fruits so i was certain this was the limit of wasting money.

"What do you want?" I ended up asking.

"You didn't waste your allowance have you?" She asked and i knew where we were going.

"Let's not talk money yet, eat first. When you're strong enough, we can talk about it." I said pushing the food in front of her. As she started eating, i placed a pack of small assorted hundred millilitre, fruit juice in front of her.

She stopped and looked at me. I took one out, ripped the straw of it and plugged them into the carton and put it beside her.

"So you don't choke." I explained. It grew odd as i watched her eat. The machine she was connected to continued ringing faster than it was supposed to.

I don't know what got into me but as she ate, i wiped her mouth and for a moment i thought all i could think of was her lips and all the moments in time i prevented that she kissed me.

She looked at me as she after i wiped her mouth the second time. Lyska's beaten face crossed my mind and i shut everything out except her as thunder hit out there and the wind picked up. She jumped a little. The machine sped up too.

"Ain't you eating?" She asked passing the plate of fish to me.

"I will, once you're full." I responded pushing the plate back. "Just eat and rest."

She looked back at me and i took the plate and we ate in awkward silence.

"I'm sorry you had to see me like this." She said as I sat next to her bed with a soft voice and a distressed face. I think.

"You don't have to be." I responded with a soft smile. "we all get sick but you had me worried."

Her face darkened. "I didn't mean to."

"its okay. But why did you run in the rain?" I asked. I know she knew it was dangerous for her. "you caught a terrible instant cold."

She snickered weakly. But her face still remained dark.

"I…" she began fiddling around her sheets. She was nervous.

"Its okay, if you can't tell me. I have like…" I pretended to count a lot of things I didn't tell her about me and after counting instantly to ten, I gave up. "a gazillion things I can't tell you about…"

"Hey Jay!" shay poked her head through the door. I stopped talking and turned to her. "Would you need a ride or you will drive?" she asked.

"I don't drive."

"okay. Guess I'll have to drive you then. Oh continue." She disappeared. Was she really a doctor here or did she enchant everyone here?

"okay, what was I going say again?"

"Why was doctor Sharon calling you Jay?"

Doctor who? "Sharon?"

"Yeah."

"she's..." I thought of what I was going to tell her that would make sense but won't end with me getting caught up in a lie.

I am a doctor here. If you didn't know. I own this hospital with Ava. "…more like my sister."

She looked at me with that puppy eye frown and I almost melted. I wondered what was going on in her head.

"But you won't catch her calling me her brother."

"You don't look alike."

"Yeah. I've been told. But we're almost the same when it comes to character. Except she is a bit too childish."

And you're a big arrogant, egotistic asshat! Shay screamed into my head and I pushed her aside.

"She looked okay."

"oh, you don't know her. If I were to say some things, you'd see her running in here like cat chasing a mouse."

"Guess we are crazy alike."

"I don't see you as crazy." She looked at me. "You are just confident and you say what's on your mind and i like it actually."

The heart monitor started ringing again and she closed her eyes and gritted her teeth as she turned to it.

"But you don't seem to be holding up to that standard at the moment. Want me to tear the machine apart for you?"

Don't you dare!

Get off my head before kill you!

"I want to but i can't." She looked down. "I have a weak heart so i..."

"I know."

"Did she tell you?"

"No, I... I formulated that earlier. I've dealt with a person who had heart problems before, so it's not something I'm a stranger to." I started as I remembered the dark swan. I wonder where he was at these days.

She told me about her deceased. She was born with a generally weak heart. So a lot of things made sense. Around an hour after we finished eating, Shay walked in again and discharged her as my gut seemed by a long shot to be hurting. Like someone punched it. A tell tale of a judge hurting. Something i felt everytime the dark swan was hurt.

But a look at him, he was okay. My best guess was Lys. He was hurt. Shay looked at me as i stopped by the door, carrying my bags out the door.

"I'll see to it." She said with a smile and i told her not to. Why not beat them at their game. The judge and Gaia, i mean. Why not let them go through a little bit of pain before I interrupted. I mean a judge can be hurt but he can't be killed.

She refused to help me clean my messes fast in 2012. In 2016 she sent killers after the dark swan and kept on burying me everytime i interfered. Why not let her endure? I'm sure Lyska would love a few more punches if he was being beaten.

While Shay went downstairs to get the car, I checked out and took Tiyane's prescription before we went to the exit. One more mistake of the day i made, besides buying a lot of food, was handing Tiyane her bill receipt. Her eyes widened as she saw it and turned to me. The third one was Shay's car. Or rather, her option on cars. I'm sure there were cheaper cars she could've taken from the farm, but she came with a 2004 Hummer H1 which Tiyane stared at as she parked it in front of us in in front of the hospital. A customized hummer. Didn't she know these cars were a bit rare in the country. And by rare i mean extremely?

"Its bulletproof." Shay said once we sat in like that was going to be any comfort to us. Well, it may be to me but not her.