Loneliness and a Lie

At night where it feels lonely and cold that is what Atane feels who is in his own room, no one in his house.that woman or his father, no siblings only alone.

"Huff, normal day without interruption and without sound, silent" Atane looked at the window in his room he sat beside the window with a cup of warm tea, he did not usually drink tea unless he really wanted to.

"Beautiful sky, right mother" Atane holds the necklace that he has been using, it is the necklace that his mother gave him for the last time at Atane's 8th birthday, exactly 3 days before it happened, it is Atane's only memory. left to his mother.

'ringing sound'

"hello, who is this with" Atane picked up the phone then immediately he felt happy and also felt sad "I see, alright. Then how are you dad? Are you okay there?" Atane talked to his father because all this time he wanted his father to come home and greet him like before but it's been a long time. "yes fine then, take care of your health, father, goodbye" once again a lonely night.

Atane lay on his bed still thinking the same thing about why and why, and also about why it happened, when remembering that Atane was immediately emotional he threw everything close to him then pondered again and sat on his bed, that incident was Atane's nightmare .

"Never mind, I'm going to sleep, it's tiring" Atane lay on his bed again and fell asleep. Once again the Moon shining beautifully from the reflection of the sun, the stars in the sky and also the great meadow, then a girl? next to? the girl sat next to Atane, "this dream again" was what Atane thought in his heart. "The sky is beautiful isn't it? The dark sky is filled with stars and the moon that are between them" Atane said that to the girl but the girl just smiled and looked at the sky, it was beautiful and comfortable, even though it was night, the wind was still blowing hard and it feels very soft to the touch. "I'll be waiting for you, Atane .." When he heard these words Atane looked right where the girl was sitting but was not there.

Next day

The house is still quiet, the woman is on vacation with her friend abroad with the help of a ticket from her brother who is the boss of the company where Atane's father works.

"Dad is still working, he expected more from me, but it was just in vain" Atane said that because Atane had lost his way, he didn't trust himself anymore even he didn't care anything about it anymore. "okay, I have to go to school" after breakfast from the food he made himself, he went to school, Atane went to elementary school and he was in grade 2 there, he was not in grade 3 not because of low grades but because he spent one year contemplating over the incident he was 1 year older than his friends. Atane has white hair and blue eyes. He was shunned from his school friends because he was the only one with white hair and blue eyes and the rest was black, brown, yellow hair and black and brown eyes, sometimes there were red hairs because of the color paint.

Atane's hair is white due to her birthright, her eyes are blue like her father's eye color and is a hereditary inheritance. Even so, Atane still didn't give up on this.

"Yo, my martial arts friend" is Atane's friend even though Atane doesn't think of him as a friend just because he is in the same class as the martial arts lesson that Atane has been studying to take care of himself, he also pays with his own money because Atane also works part time as a worker The cafeteria during the break Atane cooks lifting some luggage, and serving others.

Atane not only works in the canteen, he also works in other parts such as cleaning the school or you could say a cleaner, he is paid by the principal there because the principal is actually a close friend of Atane's father, 'Mr Isshiki Mahagatani'.

"You worked hard today, this is your reward and don't push yourself too much" The principal gave a reward but today is not 1550 yen as usual but 10000 yen, "Sir, the money" 'just take it', "but" 'just take it Atane "Thank you very much" Atane was very happy with today's gift and was on his way home

"Mother I'm hungry" a small child cries asking for food to his mother "calm down, son, wait for Mama to get another job, Mama don't have enough money"

Atane was reluctant to leave the location, so he approached the woman

"Excuse me ma'am, if you can use this money, you definitely need it, right?" Atane gave 10,000 yen earlier "Thank you, you are a good person, I hope you are blessed by God" The woman immediately brought her child with the last sentence he heard from the woman before she left "let's eat together" that sentence brought nostalgia to Atane

When Atane got to his house, it was locked "locked? From the inside?" Atane had tried the spare key that his father gave him but it was true that it was locked from the inside, Atane looked through the window and he saw the woman he hated with her friends.

"isn't she on vacation? why did she come here again? and also she brought his friends" Atane held back his emotions and the woman saw him and opened the door and then went out, she scolded Atane for coming home late "I don't care what you say anyway you don't care about me "Atane said that right in front of her because he could not hold it anymore. The woman then slapped him and left him locked outside, when she entered Atane only saw her having fun with her friends inside.

Atane leaves the house, he even intends not to come back, he continues to walk but he doesn't know where to go and he ends up getting lost into the alleys and finally meets the thugs.

"hey hey, look what we got here, a student huh?" The talk was uttered by the head of the thugs "hey young man, give your belongings because you have entered our territory, if you give it we will let you survive" said the thug by baring his teeth and smiling with evil intentions and lies, but Atane was silent, as long as Here he is holding back all the emotions "What's wrong, young man are you afraid? Don't worry I'm not biting" The thug then laughed and his subordinates laughed too then at once Atane hit the thug's face and fell.

"Damn, fight him" Atane could not control himself he fought the thugs one by one until it happened again, the incident happened again exactly like that when he was fighting Atane hit hard unlike that time where he was fought by middle class kids and he held his emotions, and when the thug was hit by Atane he was pushed and thrown into the road then a car passed and it happened ... it happened again ....

Seeing one of their member died , they scream and run away from Atane and left the accident , meanwhile the person in the car that hit the thug run away because of scared being jailed. Atane than left alone , and than..

"AAAHHHHHHHHHH, Why Why, WHY ???" Atane yell loudly when he saw it again he thought of when someone pushes Atane on the way and there is a car coming at high speed Atane just sit there and look and then Atane mother came to help Atane but unfortunately his mother became a victim. From that accident, he remembered the face of the person who pushed him and he will always remember, always will...

Because of that incident Atane ran away and furthermore, it rained so heavily Atane was still wearing school clothes, he remembered carrying ordinary clothes in his bag but he couldn't use them now, he was in the corner of an alley where no one was there, he alone, cold, and full of sorrow.

"For what I was created on this earth? What am I living for? Everyone I love and hurt, everything changes ... why .. why can't I live happily in this world .." Atane pondered and gradually he fell asleep in in the middle of such heavy rain, it seemed like he didn't care about this world anymore.