Shall we dream?

The Extreme North

Deep North

Fan Lin was sleeping. He was beginning to dream about his past life. He wanted to return to it.

Rational one : How are you Captain? How much...

Captain : Three months. Should be over in three months

Altruist one : Now don't talk about that kind of stuff during dinner. Talk about it later.

Captain : *stares* ●_●.

Altruist one : (;ŏ﹏ŏ)

Rational one : I am calm. I am calm. I definitely am.

Psychopath : The soup's tasty today. (٥↼_↼) *Looking away from Captain*

Net geek : That's water you are drinking. Did you drink one of the Gloomy forest's new medication or poison? You are acting weird.

Chunnibyou : ←_← →_→ * starts silently eating while lowering his head *

Know it all : Sorry guys I was a little late for dinner. What is for dinner to-? I have work that I forgot, I will come later. ⟵(o_O) * His reaction after watching Captain.

Gloomy forest : *silently eating while lowering his head*

Net geek : Why do you guys always become scared after looking at Captain? He looks like a harmless little girly boy.

Captain : Yeah. I don't know why they scared of me? I made sure to wash of the blood and organs before coming here too.

Altruist one : Y, you- you should not men- mention that while dinner.

Captain : Ok.

Said our slightly girly looking innocent faced little boy like Captain. No one would believe that face is the one of a killer.

Net geek : and congratulations Captain. You got 1 million today. We will reach around 10 million at this rate by the end of the month. We needed that to make our plans smoother.

Captain: hmm. How are you? Good.

Net geek : I am. Most of the times is just simple hacks on the government database and... that's it. There's nothing else to do. So I am watching all the animes and movies that I never got the chance to. Rational one knows a lot of girly films but I don't know why he recommends me. Rational one, Gloomy forest and I watch most of them together. Sometimes Psychopath also chirps in and...

The one who was talking happily with the Captain was Net geek. He was a beautiful boy. More beautiful than some girls.

He was the second weirdest one among us. The first being the Altruist one.

That was the day when all of us were eating our food together for the first time.

I still remember Captain gorging down three TIMES the amount that all we ate.

He was a monster. I always thought about where did all the food go? His body was barely 165. His face was like a middle schooler and his actions, of a Devil.

Life was good those days. I was able to see the life outside the forest. Not every human has to be killed. I learnt from them.

There are also good human. Humans with the heart of a pure gold. They were just hard to find in the sea of rotten trash.

Life was like that. I was beginning to enjoy it...

Then...

It all ended. The life after that was regret. They regretted. All of them. Probably.

Atlast, Fan Lin or should we say Surya Jayavardhan chose to give his life into the hands of an honest Officer. He was happy that he died...

That was why he was devastated when he came to Douluo plane. He was a person who wanted it die but it takes a lot of courage to do so. He had died a single time and he felt as if his whole existence was empty, like there was nothing inside at that time. It was horrifying for him to personally experience it.

It was like his whole existence was being torn apart. His memories lost and his will dissipating before That God took him in and let him recover.

The noises he made that day was him checking his memories.

He wanted to die but his body wanted to live. He didn't know whether he took someone else's body or was he created.

He felt empty. He wanted a reason to live. A reason to exist in this world. He was not a sociopath, he was like a normal human.

[B-kun: Yeah. YOU are a normal person 🤨🙄]

<E: I think he does not know the meaning of normal.>

If he wasn't then he would not have been able to live till now. His Captain would have killed him long ago. His body would have been either eaten by animals or rotten without care.

He knew that his Captain would do that. He didn't know about mercy.

He found his reason in the soul beasts here. Just like humans defiled the nature on Earth. They were defiling the soul beasts here.

Here soul beasts were used as a source of advancement. Just like what they tried in Jurassic park.

He began his plans. He knew that for him to succeed, he would need money and connections. He planned the massacres for three reasons. He got connections from high ranking members from the money. He got admitted in Shrek through that.

{A-kun: He does know that his actions are far from normal, right?}

In Shrek, he met Qiangu Dongfeng. They caused the biggest massacre in the history of Federation.

A total of more than 600,000+ lives lost and many more missing. He betrayed Qiangu Dongfeng. Got betrayed by his own men later. Was trapped in the Shrek for six years. Lost his most trusted informer and a good friend and human being.

He vow to become strong. He stopped the extinction of Shrek. He got his body nearly destroyed and him near death again. He didn't regret that.

He killed those envoys sent to capture him. He took the responsibility of killing and massacre he had done in the past.

He killed Titled Douluos. Killed mecha masters and then trapped Harosha.

He humiliated Chen Xinjie. He went to listen to Yun Ming and refused him on his face. He gave the list to Yun Ming. Fought that weird soul beast. Later destroyed the counterfeit trident of the sea god and battled Di Tian.

He trained and got the information of Millennium Ice shards and then came here.

Many things happened to him. This things were replacing what he once was. His memories were changing.

He hated that feeling. The main reason for him wanting to become a Spirit Domain realm expert faster was also this. He knew of his strength and he also knew that the plane could never keep him forever but he was losing his old memories everyday.

This was the reason for him to hurry. To go from one place to another. He wanted them to preserve at all costs. He wanted to have them back. He wanted to never lose them.

Those memories were what made him. If they were gone , then he will too. The only one remaining would be Fan Lin.

A person who could not become a part of any of the worlds.

He wanted to preserve his memories so that 'he' can live and he will preserve them.