Memories make me sane

Fan Lin returned to the Deep North with the food. He made haste to reach the place as fast as he can.

He literally used his top speed of mach 80 to deliver the food. Since he already knows the location of the Deep North, he was able to fly above the clouds and directly reach the place without any hurdles.

This feat was something that most of the Limit Douluos were unable to do. Fan Lin was currently flying above 70,000 metres the sea level.

Well ignoring the facts. Let's continue to our MC.

Fan Lin reached the place where Heavenly Snow Woman was waiting for him, that is, his room.

"Here. I brought a lot of things. Eat and tell me if I am wrong or not?"

Fan Lin said to Huo Yun while presenting all the food. He created crystal wares to put the food in while using the crystals to make the food as fresh and as hot as they can.

It looked amazing. It was the first time that Heavenly Snow Woman had seen the food from the human world. She was surprised by the colors of various foods.

She picked up the dumplings and took a small bite of it, immediately the aroma and the juices of the dumplings went into her mouth. Her mouth felt like it was on euphoria.

It was the first time for her to taste these kinds of flavours and scents from the food. To be precise, it was her first time to actually taste something like that.

It was completely different from the spiritual fruit and all. It had different flavours, many of which she had tasted for the first time. Her hands were starting to speed up.

She kept eating more and more. Fan Lin was adding food at the side. All the food that he brought was non-vegetarian. Douluo world seldom had things that were pure vegetarian.

All the vegetarian dishes were the ones that were not able to be used with meat. Simply, those ingredients showed their true potential only without any meat.

There are many spiritual herbs like that. Fruits too.

That's why he was looking at her eating stuff.

'she must have felt the same huh.'

Fan Lin thought about his wife. She also had the habit of looking at him when he ate something good.

Ten minutes later.

Huo Yun ate everything. Fan Lin was once again reminded of his Captain. The food that he brought was enough to feed fifty people yet she alone had eaten it in just ten minutes.

"What are you looking at?"

Huo Yun asked. She was embarrassed by the gaze of Fan Lin.

"Nothing, you just reminded me of someone, that's all."

Fan Lin replied while smiling a little.

"Who?"

She asked back.

"Just a glutton. It means a person who eats a lot."

Fan Lin said. His voice warmer than before. It was not the apathetic way that he used. It was his original way of speaking. The one he once had as Surya and Gloomy Forest.

"I know what a glutton is okay? I-I just can't stop myself. The food was too ta- tasty. Why are you laughing?"

She asked angrily. She was flustered by his smile. She attacked him in her flustered state.

He also didn't do anything. He was still laughing at her. He just remembered a really funny memory due to her.

Her physical attack did nothing to his body, not even a scratch. The only thing it achieved was torn clothes.

Fan Lin was not minding anything else. He was reminiscing that memory.

[Flashback]

Net geek : How do I become popular with girls, Altruist one?

Altruist one : I don't know a lot of things but you have to be gentlemanly and need to respect them.

Rational one : You can also try to act like an arrogant prick. That is in the trend nowadays.

Chunnibyou : Don't delude him guys. He is still a kid. Don't teach him weird stuff and you too Net geek, don't listen to them. You will know about it on your own when you are of that age.

Rational one : He is sixteen years old. Nowadays kids lose it around that age. He has the right to date and sleep with women.

Chunnibyou : What the heck are you talking about in front of a young kid? He is still an innocent child and he should give his first time to the person he loves.

Rational one : And will doing that will make it bigger or something. Life is about choices, he should properly test a product first before deciding on making it mine.

Chunnibyou : He can do it without losing it!

Rational one : Why are you talking like those Disney Princess?

Chunnibyou : There is nothing wrong in preserving it for the person you love.

Rational one : Don't tell me? You are still a virgin at this age. Now that's a gossip. Wanna go to the nice club. I can make you enjoy life. You may even thank me later on.

Chunnibyou : Y, you, Gloomy Forest, Psychopath, tell him. You both are widower right? Tell him.

Rational one : So I am. Widower I mean. My wife is also dead.

Chunnibyou : !!!!

Chunnibyou : Then why are you saying that then?

Rational one : So that he can enjoy. The times are not good right now. You already know.

Psychopath : Yeah. Still thinking about lust after marriage with someone else feels wrong.

Rational one : Why? Some defect down there.

Psychopath : *grinding teeth*

Rational one : Just joking. We are the divorcees. Why make others not enjoy there life, plus that kid needs it the most. He will face an—

Altruist one : hmmm.

Chunnibyou : Let's stop this. Start Preparing for plan b.

....

[Flashback ends]

Fan Lin stopped laughing and became his usual apathetic self again. His eyes became cold once again.

He started remembering the things that he wanted to forget once again.

His memories were shackling him from becoming a part of this world. His memories were the only thing that was was keeping him sane.

But it was also those memories that was taking him away from the others. He was afraid of becoming closer to others. He was really afraid.

He didn't wanted to lose people precious to him once again. He was able to calm himself down due to the last words of his Captain last time but he knew that he would not be able to do the same here.

If he lost even a single person who is important to him. His already fragile mental state would break down. After that he didn't even know it himself. He didn't know of what he would do.

Humans were fickle. For them everything has a value. They might never even care if someone in their locality died. But if that someone is the person from their families or someone really close, then the amount of sadness they will feel is something that could not be mentioned in words.

Just like that, Fan Lin was walking on a thin rope that had already burnt. Now even just a single point of extra weight was enough to pull him into the abyss below him.

He didn't cared that much for the other people to be precise but he cared a lot about not harming innocents. This was the teachings that he had learnt from his father, his mother, his wife and all of his colleagues and friends.

It was values, moral values and he wanted to follow them till the last of his breath but he has experience it. The loss of sense and the possession of insanity.

He was a broken person and he was barely working in this world.

He knew that the moment he lost his rationality, the world will be doomed by him.

Because in reality, he never needed to become a God to achieve what he wanted. Becoming a God was something that he chose on his own accord.

Why?

Because it was the most peaceful way for both the humans and soul beasts that he could find.