Chapter 6

We stopped falling. I didn't hit the ground harshly instead I landed on my feet.

Fear of the unknown. Right now I was in a difficult position. My identity that I held onto for as long as I could remember before all this was stripped away by these new found memories.

I didn't know who to believe and who to trust except one name lingering in my We stopphead ,Micah.

"Open your eyes Tehilla." He said.

I opened my eyes. He stood before me shielding me, I tilted my head a to meet his gaze.

I had mixed feelings about this guy.

My body recognized him, my soul recognized him but my brain was lagging, desperately trying to piece together the bits and pieces of my shattered memory. I however could only make out one thing about him.

I knew him, I trusted him. Him and I butted heads often that's why there was this strong tension between us,not a bad tension possibly a sexual tension to say. I knew I could trust him. I couldn't explain how I trusted him, I just did.

Hopefully my memories would fall back into place. I felt all this, my intuition felt this. One thing about my intuition ,it was always right.

However I also felt a secret hiding at the back of my mind. A painful secret, someone else's secret. Something that was deadly, that my mind tried so hard to deny that it shoved the secret at the deepest depths of my mind. That was the one thing I didn't want to remember.

Micah stared at me intently. "Are you Okey? "

His voice was laced with concern. Besides an annoying headache throbbing through my head I was fine. Well, not emotionally, but atleast I was in one piece atleast for now.

I pinched the bridge of my nose and shut my eyes. "Yes and no I have so much to remember some things I don't want to remember." I wobbled on to my feet using Micah's arm as a crutch. "It's alot to process I'd appreciate if you told me what the hell is going on."

His eyes darted around before he replied. "I'll explain later okey when it's safe and we're alone."

"Promise?"

He noded his head.

"Don't pressure yourself, remember what you can and what you want to remember."

"Look who the dog dug up from the dirt our darling Tehilla." A female voice said. It was approaching us.

That voice. I peaked over Micah's shoulder.

The voice triggered unwanted emotions i had buried deep inside ny heart. Why was I feeling this way?

" It's obviously them." Another voice said.

I recognized all these voices, but the memories to pair them to were still question marks. Maybe if I saw 5here faces it would all fall into place.

Micah brushed a finger across my cheek.

"Look you left some bad memories here, but I know you're strong enough to move past them Okey."

I noded then interlocked my fingers in his. My anxiety was playing hide and seek. Bad memories. Boy I wasn't looking forward to remembering those.

Soon enough people stepped into my view. Five people five familiar faces. Three girls two guys. My eyes scanned each and every one of their faces ,tracing them for memories. They soon landed on one of the females. A petit Asian girl. Her hair dyed purple, with marble brown eyes. Beautiful she was beautiful. My heart sunk when we locked eyes. Sadness and pain swelled in my body.

She's must be one of those bad memories. I was feeling so many mixed emotions. Betrayal was the strongest emotion. I closed my eyes and remembered. I was standing in a white room,must be a part of my mind. A screen appeared I gazed at the screen. I watched the memory. I was looking for Andrew, him and I were supposed to go stargazing. I also couldn't find Nia, I had a bad feeling about this. Frustration filled my body as the minutes ticked by. Where was he ? Walking across the training ground I spotted Micah. I walked up to him. "Micah have you seen Andrew?" I asked.

He looked at me intently. "I saw him heading towards the meadows with Nia." He replied. My heart dropped, my intuition knew what to think, I refused to believe any of it. I sat down next to Micah.

"He doesn't deserve you, you know that Tee.You and I know there's something between Andrew and Nia, whether or not you believe that."

"But he loves...me...." I said softly. The uncertainty in my voiced scared me. Even I doubted.

"If he loved you he wouldn't make you an option and you wouldn't have doubts."

Micah turned to face.

I met his gaze. I wanted to dispute him. But he was right for the first time I agreed with what he said. The hard reality set in. I sighed. I was too scared to let go. I knew what was going on but I was too scared to let go.

"Look if you don't believe me go and ask him, okey get the clarity you need. If you need someone to beat his ass call me." Micah said.

He gave me a a small smile. I smiled back. I also shoved him playfully. Taking a stand I made my way towards the meadows not before saying ,"I'll be back Micah."

My heart was already shattered by the truth of realistion.

Tears collected in my eyelids. Not yet I wasn't going you cry yet. Five minutes later I made it to the meadow. In the near distance I spotted Nia and Andrew.

Her head on his shoulder, his arms wrapped around her. Their closeness made my blood boil ,I felt eveything shattering inside me. As if sensing my burning gaze they jolted up. Their eyes instantly landed on me. Guilt swam in Nia's eyes.

"You're my fucking best friend Nia,my best friend!, h...how could you!"

My body was shaking. I also felt angry. They walked up to me.They said nothing at first. That was the heartbreaking part. The silence, the lack of denial.

"Nia head back to everyone I'll handle this." Andrew said.

"No stay here." I said ny voice dripping with venom.

She stayed glued where she was "I saw the signs and denied them, I thought everyone was being delusional surely you wouldn't do such a thing I thought."

Nia averted her eyes.

"Andrew I saw it too. I kept quiet so I couldn't lose you.You betrayed me and I know that you'll never feel sorry for the way I hurt. Do you love me ?"

"Look Tehilla you're just not what I want or who I want rather, I don't feel the same way you feel about me. I suggest you find happiness in someone else. I can't do this."

His words hit like blows to my gut.

Andrew grabbed Nia and walked away. I couldn't move, I didn't know what to do. How could I be so dumb? The memories of me and him flashed through my head. I wanted nothing but to forget. I sat down in the meadow. Starring at the sky. It felt like a nightmare. Surely it was some sick prank right? They'd walk back in and say sike right? My body shook as I cried all the pain away. I cried for hours and hours, until the sky was dark.

"Tehilla,fuck Tehilla where are you ?" Micah's voice called.

"Here." I said softly. My voice sounded frail and weak.

He hurried to me and gazed down at me. He crouched down and cupped my face. "Hey let's go back inside. " He said.

Who would have thought the guy I argued with the most was here, concerned over me. He helped me up. We walked back inside. That day I realised that sometimes people don't love you the way you love them.

The screen went blank. I scoffed. I left a heartbreak years ago. I mean I was over it. But seeing them for the first time in years definitely did something to me. Slowly but surely my memories were piecing themselves back together. I opened my eyes again. The same faces eyed me intently. I found Andrew's eyes. I looked away.

"Hey everyone, been a while look my memories are hazy. It will take me a little while to get up to speed with your names. Could someone tell me what's happening to the world and how I have powers and all that." I stated.

"Look let's have you settled in alot has happened and you look near to collapsing." Micah stated.

He gave me a smile. I smiled back. Andrew walked over to us. I had a bad feeling about it.