Teng Yuan wasn't speaking loudly, but his words roared like thunder in my ears. My mind went blank.
"Bai Ye might have been able to stop you sooner … if he wasn't away from Mount Hua on the same errand that day with the Gatekeeper and me." Teng Yuan looked out the window, as if gazing into the past through the blanket of whiteness. "But it was too late when we returned. You had completely lost control. If he didn't kill you then, the bloodshed would've spread much farther than just Mount Hua."
I opened my mouth, but I couldn't find my voice. If he didn't kill me … But how could he not? With the blood of all those innocent people on my hands … How could I live?