Chapter 36 : Self-awareness?

"Mmnng.."

When I opened my eyes, the sun was already shining bright.

Somehow, my body felt sluggish..

"Ah..I..Yesterday.."

Yesterday's memories returned to me like a flood.

I jumped on my feet and checked that my body was clean even though yesterday I was soaked with slimy lubricant all over my body.

I also had my clothes on.

I looked to the side to see the other three were sleeping on their respective bed.

They weren't showing any sign of waking up.

Last night was..incredible.

The three of them were touching me at the same time, pleasuring me from all sides.

To say I had best pleasure I ever had was an understatement.

"Somehow..I feel kind off uncomfortable.."

When I tried to stand up, my butt.. felt..Uncomfortable.

It didn't hurt but it felt like something was still there..

It was to be expected though since last night Chris-san kept on thrusting his fingers in and out of my butt.

I wanted to use heal but I need to stretched my hand toward my butt and I didn't want to do it with the three of them here..

I guessed the only option left to me was hold it in and be patient?

Maybe I would be able to use heal later at night?

"Ah but.. I'm not wounded or anything like that.. I could use heal to cure exhaustion but I guess it could work because the muscle was strained so 'heal' was able to cure the muscle. Umm.. I don't really understand as well but for my current condition.. I'm not hurting, my muscle is fine it's just.. Kinda uncomfortable.. I wonder whether heal will work? I mean my support magic is somehow like a cheat skill but I don't think it could heal something that is not hurt."

Ah now that I thought about it..

The other three were exceptional in offensive magic while I on the other hand.. I was utterly helpless in offensive magic.

My only good point was that I somehow was quite good at support magic..

Even though we've become a fiance..

Were we going to continue partying together as Luche?

Or would our party disbanded?

I mean just because they were my fiance, they didn't have any obligation to be with me all the time..

My rank would rose from F-ranked but..

I didn't want to become a burden for them..

"Haa…." I sighed.

"What's wrong? You're letting out such a big sigh like that.."

"Eh?"

Apparently without me noticing, Fer-san had woken up already.

He rose up from his bed and looked at me in worry.

"No..I mean.."

"… Are you regretting your decision about..us yesterday?" Fer-san whispered in low voice with a pained expression on his face.

"No! Nothing like that!" I exclaimed immediately in return.

Please don't be sad!

"But.." Fer-san trailed.

"Well yesterday did go beyond my expectations and a certain part of my body does feel the toll today but.. I don't hate it. I felt good."

True.

Yesterday we did more than just a 'little' kissing but I didn't hate it.

I actually.. Liked it.

Ah, when did I become so infatuated with those three like this…?

"If you truly feel that way, it's good then. Why did you sigh like that though?"

"Umm.. You know, the four of us had become engaged so I was wondering whether we will continue to party together as Luche? I mean, I don't want to become a burden to you guys so.. If you want to disband our party I..I understand your reasoning."

The three of them were all A-ranked and before this subjugation quest, they always went out their separate ways for their quest.

They must be had numerous quest waiting for them anyway..

If by any chance they thought something like 'Do you think just because we're engaged, we have to keep partying with you?'..

I would die because of embarrassment!

Fer-san got up from his bed and sat beside me.

"Of course our party will stay as it is and Ren-kun, I want you to understand that you're not a burden. Not even close. I've said it and I will say it again, the reason why we were able to defeat redondo dragon, it was because of your help. Please have some more confidence in yourself." He said as he hugged me close, pushing our chest together.

I could felt his heartbeat pounding against my own, somehow the soothing beat calmed my anxious heart.

I buried my face into Fer-san's broad chest and said,"Have some confidence..huh.."

My voice came out muffled because I was hugging him back tight.

"You know, Ren-kun… Thanks to your debuff magic, 'sleep' we were able to save many lives and because of your 'roots', the three of us were able to avoid heavy injury from the dragon. You know, even for S-ranked.. Inflicting a debuff on a S-ranked monster like that is not an easy feat. Let alone A-ranked, I think A-ranked support magician would already have their hands full by trying to support us with only buff magic like you did to us. Furthermore, you were able to strip off the monster's sight and hearing like that. It was something that none of us could think of in such a desperate time. You're an amazing adventurer, Ren-kun."

"Ah..I never had any confidence in myself but hearing you praising me so wholeheartedly like that.. Yeah, I will also try my best so I could have some confidence in myself!"

Fer-san had tried his best to try and comfort me so of course I also had to try my best in return.

The words that Fer-san said were full of honesty, he didn't try to console me with empty words.

I could truly feel that he trusted me greatly.

I knew it would be impossible for me to suddenly had a surge of confidence like that but, I will try my best so I could grew some confidence in myself little by little.

"That's the spirit! And regarding our party.. We definitely won't dissolve our party. Even if by some impossible scenario we got disbanded, the three of us would follow Ren-kun to wherever you go with or without party."

Fer-san was smiling brightly at me but I felt a sense of chill spreading through me.

How could he said something so dangerous like that while smiling so brightly??

Was it like 'If you try to leave me I will still follow you like a stalker' kinda thing??

W-well, I guess that only proved how deep their love was to me..

"I don't want to be apart from you guys, I also want to be with you guys forever. If I wasn't, I wouldn't have agreed to become your fiance."

Normally, people wouldn't have agreed to become engaged to the people that they hated, right?

Even though it was unexpected, I still agreed to become their fiance.

That was a proof that I also wanted to monopolize them.

After all if we were only a party member, there was a chance that someone would stole them away from me, right?

But since we became engaged, our future were more or less tightly wrapped together.

"Yeah, it's good that we finally come to a mutual understanding.I'm happy that we have a good conversation.." Fer-san murmured lowly.

Just yesterday, I never had the thought of marrying them so it would be impossible for me to just said 'I like you' in the next day like that.

Maybe in the future we would have the perfect timing for it but today was not the day.

"Ren-kun? What's wrong? Is your body hurt anywhere?" Fer-san asked in concern because I seemed distracted.

"Ah..Um…That.."

I was too busy thinking about confessing my feeling to them that I almost forgot about the uncomfortable feeling on my butt.

But I couldn't just say it out loud that my butt was feeling weird, right?!

There was no way I could!

Furthermore, before Fer-san woke up I was busy trying to use heal on myself but thankfully I hadn't.

Otherwise.. Fer-san would've caught me in an embarrassing position…

"Fufufu~ You must've weird sensation on your butt, right?~" Suddenly I heard a voice from my left side.

"Chris(-san)!" Both me and Fer-san exclaimed in surprise.

And how come Chris-san knew about it?!

"Ren-kun is that right?" Fer-san asked, his arms were still wrapped around my body.

He looked down at me while tilting his head to the side.

"Eh! U-Umm..Yeah.. That's right…." I said helplessly.

Ah as expected from Chris-san..

Of course I couldn't hide anything from his experienced eyes.

"Is that so? Even though we didn't go all the way yesterday.. If I were to put my thing inside Ren, you wouldn't be able to walk for sure."

Sig-san had also woken up.

"Hmm~ Maybe?~ But I think even though it wasn't Sig, if any of us were to go all the way.. I don't think Ren-chan would be able to walk too since Ren-chan is so petite and cute~"

What kind of thing are you guys talking about ?!

What a frightening conversation…

Even though I was right in front of you. You two were talking to yourselves as if I wasn't here..

I was trying to find the perfect timing to confess my feelings to you guys but as I thought, it'd be better if I didn't say it out loud!

"If it's like that, we can just use 'heal', right?"

"Maybe?~ But it's not like we tear anything so it's not wounded you know~ Ren-chan is feeling uncomfortable but it's not hurting, right?~"

"Ah..Yes.."

Chris-san was so amazing!

He knew about my condition to that extent.

"Still, it will never hurt to try. Ren, try to use heal. The rest of us will go downstair first, you don't want us to look, right?"

"Ah yeah, please do.."

The three of them then started to change their clothes.

I immediately closed my eyes, I was still feeling embarrassed looking at their naked body.

After they finished changing clothes, the three of them then went out of the room, leaving me alone.

"Ah.. It's not like I'm hurt or anything but.. I couldn't leave my butt as it is.. Well here goes nothing.. [Heal]."

I turned my head around so I could see my butt and casted heal.

From the palm of my hand, white fluttering light started to appear around my clothed butt.

After that, I also started to change my clothes.

I folded my used clothes and put it inside my magic bag.

Somehow.. The uncomfortable feeling disappeared.

"I wonder will they continue the conversation about my..butt? Ah, I guess it's no use worrying about it now.."

I walked toward the door, heading to the first floor to meet up with the other.