Chapter 17 Secrets

After all the stuff that happened yesterday I just need some time to myself to relax. But everyone is this house is constantly checking up on me to see what I'm doing. I just need a break from this suffocating attention.

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Amy walked into my room this morning and she is the last person I wanna see right now.

"Hey"

I rolled over in bed so I wasn't looking at her.

"Come on, are you seriously gonna ignore me?"

I didn't say anything. I just need a break from hearing people talk.

"Fine, I'll see you later"

And she left.

I sighed and got up because I was tired of sitting in the house all day. I put on a gray hoodie and some sweatpants and went downstairs. Today's Saturday so everyone was home. I said good morning to Stan and Adam and got some water. Amy came downstairs but I wasn't gonna be talking to her anytime soon. I started heading for the front door when of course Adam stopped me.

"Where are you going?"

"Out"

"Maybe Amy should go with you"

Those words just made my blood boil. It felt like little knives in my ears. I tried to keep my calm as I took a deep breath and responded.

"Why would Amy need to come with me"

Amy looked at me and Adam, sighed and went upstairs.

"Your safety is my number one priority"

"I'm leaving" And I walked out the door but of course Adam followed me.

"Either you take Amy with you or you stay inside. End of discussion"

I couldn't care less about his threats and kept walking. He went inside and I guess he asked Amy to follow me because next thing I knew she was right behind me.

"Are we gonna talk about last night"

"No."

"Fine then"

And we walked in silence for another ten minutes before she spoke again.

"Where are you going"

I didn't answer that one.

"I want to be alone Amy"

"I can't leave you alone"

That pissed me off even more. I started walking faster.

"You have made it so we have to watch you all the time"

"What is your problem!!" I turned around and yelled at her.

"My problem?!? I'm just trying to talk to you and your getting all upset"

"You know what, fuck you"

"Are you kidding me"

"I just wanted some time to myself and now I have to deal with you"

"Well I'm sorry I'm such a bother"

"Go home Amy"

"I don't care how mad you are at me, I'm not just gonna walk away"

"Can you just leave me alone!!"

"No. I can't"

This infuriates me even more and I start running. And Amy chases after me.

"Leave me alone!!"

I stop running as I know it's no use. She was right behind me and she's stronger and faster.

"Was that necessary?" She said out of breath

"You wouldn't, leave me, alone"

I start feeling dizzy and I fell down but luckily don't pass out.

"This is why I have to come with you"

"I wouldn't be in the ground if you hadn't chased me"

"I wouldn't have chased you if you hadn't ran"

"I just want some alone time"

"That's just not possible right now Scar. I'm sorry"

"Whatever, just trail behind me so I can at least feel slightly alone"

She said ok and we proceeded to walk. I planned to go to a field and just lay there. I wanted to clear my head and I wanted silence.

When I got to the field I laid down and Amy sat near me.

"Don't say anything, I know you love talking in these situations. But just be quiet."

"Rude, but fine I won't say anything"

My mind was empty and I couldn't feel anything. It was great, until you know who decided to break the silence.

"Can we-

"Amy what did I say"

"I know but-

"So be quiet"

"Ugh, fine"

She is constantly talking and I just need a break from hearing her speeches about life and other stuff.

I lay there for about an hour or so before finally getting up to walk home. Amy started talking once again and I just kind of blocked it out and when we got home I went straight upstairs to sleep.

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When I woke up it was around 8:00, and dinner was almost ready.

I'm not gonna have a repeat of yesterday I said to myself as I heard Stan call us down for dinner.

We were having hotdogs and fries. Not a fan of either.

"You realize I'm not eating any of that"

"You can still be a part of dinner without eating it"

I sighed and sat down. Hearing everyone chew is the most irritating thing possible.

I put my head down trying to block out the sound.

"So where'd you girls go today?" Adam asked.

Amy answered of course. "A field"

"Well that sounds, interesting. What'd you guys do?"

"Absolutely nothing" She said with a little irritation in her voice.

"Is something wrong Amy? Do you wanna talk?"

"Maybe you should be asking her that"

I could feel everyone directing their gaze at me. I slowly lift my head up and looked at Amy.

"Do you have something you wanna say Amy?" I said as rage was filling my body. I started balling my fists trying to calm myself down.

"We're trying to help you but you won't let us"

I get up and sit on the floor because I am about to go off on her.

"Scarlett" I hear Adam say my name.

"Are you ok?"

"For the love of god can you all fuck off"

One more prying question and I'm done holding back my anger.

"This is the problem Scar, you won't let us help-

"I SAID FUCK OFF!!" I stand up and look at all of them.

"You all are driving me crazy!!" I head towards the front door and put my shoes on.

"Where are you going it's almost 9:00"

"Why do you need to know? Are you all that scared I'm gonna hurt myself, or try to? Because I did it before?!? Well maybe you should be scared." I run into to kitchen and grab the biggest knife.

"You think I'm gonna hurt myself?!?" I roll up my sleeves revealing a lot of old cuts.

"Scarlett just wait a second" Adam says as he slowly gets up, and everyone else follows.

"Maybe I should try and kill myself again is that what you want?!?"

"No, not at all. We care about you Scar" Amy says

"You've lost the right to talk to me Amy"

I aim the knife at my wrist. Adam and Stan start moving closer towards me.

"Back up or I swear I'll do it" They stop moving and look at me with such fear in their eyes.

"Scarlett put the knife down" Stan says.

"No"

"Scarlett please put the knife down" Amy says

"Fuck you" And I cut my arm but not my wrist. Adam and Stan try and rush over but I put the blade back on my wrist.

"One more step and I'm dead"

"Scarlett-

"You know this all could've been avoided Amy. I know all your little secrets. It'd be ashamed if those two knew. They know everything about me and so little about you."

"Amy what is she talking about?" Adam says while Stan creeps closer.

"It doesn't matter right now, put the knife down Scar"

I press the knife down on my wrist and start cutting horizontally.

Stan runs over an knocks the knife out of my hand as Adam gets something to stop the bleeding.

"Calm down, both of you" I say in a very nonchalant way.

"You just tried to kill yourself again, maybe we should've kept you in that hospital"

"I wasn't trying to kill myself. I cut horizontally for a reason, and it's not even that deep"

"You still put your life in danger"

Amy walks over and sits down by me while Adam puts the bandages on.

"Are you gonna tell them or do I have to?"

"Tell us what?" Stan says.

"About her and her obsession with-

Amy covers my mouth.

"Whatever she's about to tell you isn't true. She lying"

I push her away "Like hell Im lying! You just don't want everyone to find out your a-

"Shut up Scarlett!!"

"Whatever it is one of you are gonna tell me right now" Stan says

We all get up and sit at the table.

"What is going on?" Stan asked sternly.

"Can I have a drink" I ask

"Go ahead" Stan says as he starts pressing Amy.

I go to the fridge and look around. There's a bottle of wine in the door and a small bottle of vodka at the bottom kind of hidden away so I grab the bottle and put it in my hoodie and grab a glass to pour myself some wine. No one noticed until I got back to the table.

"Is that wine?" Adam says furiously.

"Yep" And I start drinking it quickly. Adam takes the glass from me.

"This is the problem with you two! You don't know any boundaries!!" Adam says as his face gets red as he sits back down. I take out the vodka and chug it. I get about half way through the bottle before Adam takes it.

"What is wrong with you?!?" Adam screams at me.

"I need to be drunk for what I'm about to tell you both"

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