"2017, February 6th, hazy. Just came back from Hai Nan. Reconciled with my biological father. She called me 'big brother', and at that moment, I realize there can only be more darkness in my life. Haven't written a diary entry in a long time, so I don't know where to begin. I guess I should start by apologizing.
"Tingting, that night at Hai Nan, we promised each other, after we return to Beijing, you'll marry Qin Yinan and I'll meet someone new. We promised to both start brand new. When we see each other next, we'll be nothing more than siblings. However, I'm sorry, I've lied to you again. The only reason I agreed was because I want you to stay in heaven. The abyss of hell, I've been here for years already. I can no longer return to a normal life.