✒ Chapter 49 : Show me all of you

Tears falling, Khein wiped them off quickly and sat beside Rei on the hospital bed. He smiled towards his sick boyfriend and asked how he was feeling.

"Hey" Khein said with his surprising gentle voice. Khein looked so pale and skinny after a few months.

"You must be mad at me" Rei said with a bitter smile. Khein shook his head immediately.

"No, I'm not. I just miss you so much. Are you feeling uncomfortable somewhere?" Khein asked with a gentle voice. He remembered back then when he listened to the recorder.

"Why are you still with that guy?" it was Rain's voice. A sound of glass hitting the floor could be heard in the background, Rain threw it on the floor.

"Just a little bit longer, brother." it was Rei's voice this time.

"Rei, your health is getting worse. You need to take the medication and stop going to school. How long do you plan on keeping it a secret from Khein?" Rain asked. Rei sighed heavily in the background and said, "As long as I'm still around him."

Khein's tears started falling as he heard how thankful Rei sounded in the recorerder while calling his name.

"I'll leave him for good without telling him. That way he would just hate me and get tired of me. He'll move on and be happy as he slowly forgotten about me. I could die in peace knowing that he won't suffer too much when I'm gone" Rei's voice said. His voice sounded so sad but he chuckled.

"I don't want to see him getting tired for taking care of me. I don't want to see him crying secretly for being powerless in front of me. I want him to be happy in the process of forgetting about me" Rei said. Khein remembered every word that came out from Rei's mouth.

As he looked at the weak looking guy lying on the bed, he too felt like dying.

"Where's Ethan? Why are you with that spoiled gangster?" Rei coughed and covered his mouth using his hand covered with tiny red spots. There was blood on his hand as he tried not to panic and closed his palm. Khein noticed it and he bit his bottom lip, probably to stop himself from crying again.

"Let me wipe that for you" Khein said gently and took a tissue from the table. He breathed heavily as he wiped the blood off from Rei's hand. He smiled at Rei as he wiped the blood on the taller guy's lips.

"Tell me if you want something, okay?" gentler than usual, Khein managed not to cry even with his heavy heart. Rei nodded happily and looked at Khein's forced smiling face. Center went out to see Ethan outside the hospital. The two were left alone as Khein smiled at Rei.

"How did you know that I am here?" Rei asked. His voice was lower than usual that Khein had to leaned closer in order to understand him.

"It's not important. What's important right now is that I'll always be here with you. I'm not angry and I won't be sad as long as I can see you everyday. Just rest well, hm?" Khein said while smiling. He never knew that holding back his tears was way harder than letting it out freely. He wanted to yell how much efforts he had spent for finding Rei. He wanted to nag for leaving him behind again. He wanted to cry so hard in front of Rei so the guy would never leave him alone again. But he managed to deal with his current suffering, he needed to be strong for Rei, for the both of them.

"Baby, you can cry." Rei said softly while patting Khein's head. Khein bowed his head, bit his trembling lips and inhaled deeply.

'You can't cry at this moment, Khein. Rei will be sad if he seems you crying.' Khein reminded himself.

"Kheiny, I want to see you cry for me one last time. I want to see how much you cry for me when I die. I want to see it while I'm still alive. I don't want you to cry during my burial, because I couldn't comfort you any longer during that time." Rei said with a lonely smile.

"Please cry while I'm still here. Don't cry when I die, I don't want to leave you crying. Kheiny, please let it out for once." Rei said softly and held Khein's hand. Khein's shoulders started shaking as he cried. He cried so hard that he coughed and choked.

"Please stay with me, baby. P-please d-don't leave me again. I promise I'll be sweeter. I'll sleep early at night. I will kiss you every minute. I won't be rude to you anymore." Khein choked as he gulped the lump inside his throat. His heart was throbbing and his chest felt so heavy. He looked into Rei's eyes as he smiled despite the raging tears flooding on his cheeks.

"I'll laugh with your silly jokes. I'll cuddle with you every night. I'll go to places where you love. I'll tell you every little thing about me. I promise, I will be good" Khein said while crying on Rei's shoulder. Rei hugged him weakly, but tight enough to make Khein felt safe in his fragile arms.

"Yes, I'll stay with you until the end." Rei said as tears began to stream down his face. Due to his longing, Khein cupped Rei's pale face and kissed him passionately. Rei was beyond surprise to receive such delightful kiss from his rebelous puppy. Khein was on top of him as Rei's head hit the soft pillow. He started kissing Rei on the forehead, showered the weak guy with butterfly kisses on the neck, and down to his chest. He was only giving light kisses to Rei's pale torso to tease his boyfriend.

"Uhm Kheiny..." Rei groaned. He had never seen Khein for a long time, and teasing him with his weak condition would only make him miserable.

"...please don't tease me..." Rei  begged as Khein continued sucking his v-line ever so lighty.

"Kheiny, you're making it hard for me." Rei said desperately. He was clutching the pillow under his head while watching Khein toyed with his hard as rock member.

"I'm punishing you." Khein pouted and kissed Rei's manhood. Rei bit his bottom lip real hard, he could taste his own blood from his lips.

"Baby, I'm sorry, okay. I'm sorry, I was wrong. Please, I want to put it inside." Rei said while panting. If only he had the strength to pin down Khein on the bed and flip the two of them over, he had done it already. Yet, his body felt so tired that only his lower region seemed to function accordingly with the current situation. Rei looked so helpless and a panting mess which Khein seemed to enjoy in pleasure. He began to question himself if he was a sadist before. Rei held himself longer that led him to cough blood from holding it in.

"Oh no!" Khein gasped as he saw the tiny amount of blood from Rei's mouth.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, baby" Khein said and wiped the blood off from Rei's mouth. He started kissing the pale guy underneath him and combed Rei's hair using his fingers.

"This is my first time doing it. I heard you guys like this kind of style but I'm not really a fan of it. But I want to do it for you. Don't stare at me for too long or I'll get embarrased." Khein said while riding on top of Rei. He was covering his face using his hands. Rei chuckled and placed his hands on either side of Khein's laps.

"I want to see it, Kheiny. Show me your face. Show me all of you." Rei said desperately and let Khein led their love making.