Chapter 004.6: Found A Way Part 6

I'm on top of her while grabbing both her wrists with my right hand. I'm using my left hand to support and protect her head.

Eli-chan glares at me as she struggles to free herself from my clutches. Because of our movement since earlier, her blouse is being worn off.

I can see her undershirt drenched in sweat thusly reveals her bra underneath it. And I noticed her belly band personalized to hold her silver knives.

Eli-chan's moist reddened collar bone entices me for some reason. Perhaps because I am stimulated for all the physical work but I'm kinda excited right now.

“Eli-chan, you're kinda arousing me right now.”

“Ehh.....?!”

The ‘Eli-chan’ who looks like she'll eat me anytime if I let go of her is replaced by an abashed little timid girl.

“You don't actually hate me do you?”

“.......”

She just turned sideways and I felt her struggle but well, it's useless.

Hell, blushing Eli-chan is too adorable for me right now.

“Why don't you tell me the reason for you acting like you hate me? Is it really just because you're mad? Or is there something else?”

“.........”

She didn't answer but bit her lips. I lowered my head and sucked the blood off on it.

“!!”

She stiffened and struggled again to no avail.

I increases the pressure on her wrists and clamped her thighs with my legs to prevent her from escaping.

I inserted my tongue into her mouth but Eli-chan clenches her teeth preventing it from going in any further.

However, not even a minute had passed, she weakened her biting strength gasping for breath allowing my tongue to get into her.

“hNnggg...”

Our tongues intermingled with one another and she tastes sweet. It's a familiar chocolate candy.

The type you could buy anywhere for only 1-peso each. It tasted slightly bittersweet and so I likes it.

I can't help but lick her tongue because of that. The bittersweet chocolate mixed with her own flavor sends a pleasurable sensation into my brain.

Liquid flowed from her mouth. It rolled down from her lips to her cheeks then to her neck.

Driven by the excitement, I went into her porcelain smooth neck. It's moistened with her sweat yet she smells fragrant. The scent of my seventeen years old Eli-chan went their way into my nasal to my brain.

Both of us pants and breaths heavily.

Are we tired because of our activities earlier or are we just excited? Perhaps both.

Regardless, we are both breathing heavily.

“Mmmnnhng...”

I ignored the heat from the hot setting sun and massaged her chest which are still underneath a layer of fabric. A gentle knead on her soft breasts which made her moan softly.

“..Uhnngg...”

She tries to suppress her cries resulting into a cute groans exclusively for me to hear. Nobody else is our audience but the world. Nobody else hears her moans. Nor anybody watches our activity.

She and I are alone. We're the only sentient living organism above the building and these creatures kisses one another.

I slowly unbuttoned her blouse with my left hand. My right hand is still occupied with pinning her down.

Are we seriously in heat in here?

Are we gonna do it in here?

Under the heat of sun? It's not scorching as earlier but it's still hot. I'm already soaked. And I'm sure she does as well.

But I don't care.

I'll act on my desire.

Her undershirt was exposed to me. Drenched in sweat, the contours of her bra and knives are visible for me to see.

And then the fire died down inside of me. My excitement meter plummeted considerably to zero. The heat I felt inside dissipated.

“Why are you wounded?”

Eli-chan's eyelid trembled and she slowly stared at me. Her eyes moistened, brimming with subtle desire.

She looked around with drooped eyes seemingly confused.

“I'm talking about your arm.”

I freed her and sat on the ground then I

waited for her response.

“Uhhm... This.. is nothing..”

Eli-chan, still with reddened face gently sat up from lying down. She spoke in whisper. I could barely hear her words.

“Did you get into a fight? Who fought you?”

“Ehmm.. no..”

“Then what...?”

“I did it...”

She looked sad and avoids eye contact.

“Why?”

“...!!”

I sounded slightly louder than my default pitch which made her flinch.

“B-Because I was sad...”

She bit her lips when she said so. She looks timid right now completely different to how I've known her. The Eli-chan at her present state contrasts with the expressionless robot Eli-chan she tends to be.

“You hurt yourself because you were sad? Why?”

“Because...”

“Because what?”

“B-Because you lied to me..! Because you don't trusts me. And it hurts me. I don't want it!”

Eli-chan teared up with anger directed to me. She glares at me while she tries not to cry.

She said she was sad. That's why she made herself bleed. She wounded her beautiful skin just because she is sad.

No. For her, that sadness is probably significant. And she copes through pain.

I hurt her this much huh.

For me, to be honest, what I did shouldn't be that of a big deal. All I did is not watch her sing in person.

Yet she thinks that I lied to her. And I don't trusts her because of it.

I don't seriously get her way of thinking. I know she is just blinded by her dichotomous thinking.

She thinks in absolutes. She characterizes the world as either black or white.

I lied to her and that's all she takes. And this made her think I don't trusts her.

But that's not true.

“I always have trusted you Elizabeth. The moment you still worry about me even though I was choking you to death. The moment you unhesitatingly stabbed those guys just to show your resolve. I always have trusted you, you know.”

“.......”

She seemed surprised but then her face turned gloomy.

“......No.”

She shook her head lightly staring at the ground with lowered head.

“It is. I trusts you. Greatly in fact.”

“No. That's not true...”

“It is. Remember that I have always entrusted my back, my life, my goals to you.”

“But... You.... So no. You're just lying again..sniff... You're just justifying your... your lies...”

“But I am not.”

“Yes you do!”

“No I don't. Listen to me please. I am not lying to you. I really trus—”

“No please JUST SHUT UP!”

“.......”

“You.... You're just lying to me again! I don't know why, but YOU ARE LYING AGAIN! You're... YOU'RE JUST TRICKING ME! I know you don't trusts me so just please shut up... Because it just hurts me more....”

“‘You know’? No you don't. How are you able to know what I really think?”

“B-Because you li—Ah..!”

*Thud!*

I didn't let her finish. I immediately pushed her down to the ground. I was careful of course.

“What? Because I lied? So what then?”

“Let... go..”

“I lied to you but so what? That doesn't mean I lacks trust in you. That's not just all there is to it Elizabeth! I lied to you while trusting you deeply!”

I can now tell that she won't believe that I didn't lie to her. So I gave up convincing her otherwise.

This time, I'll try to convince her that I do trusts her.

“BUT YOU LIED TO ME!”

*Thud!*

She pushed me to the back and I almost hit the ground. But I stabilized myself instinctively.

Now we both stood facing each other.

“Fufufu. Yes. I lied. What of it?”

I curved my smile further with a squint.

“It means you don't trusts me Mark! And that's why you lied!”

She now looks visibly angry. Her movements are jerky and she's trembling.

“You're wrong.”

“No I am not! BECAUSE YOU'LL NEVER LIE TO SOMEBODY YOU TRULY TRUSTS!”

“Oh but I did. Because that's not how it works Eli-chan. That's not all there is to it. You're blinded Elizabeth! Driven by your ‘splitting’. Driven by your black-and-white mindset.”

“You're just making up excuses!”

“I'm not. Why don't I asks you a question this time? Do you trusts me?”

She was caught off guard by that.

“What? Of course I trusts you..”

“Then why won't you believe me?”

“Because you lied! It shows that you will never speak of truth to me. Because you don't trusts me!”

What? Ohh.

You mean to say you trusts me and would have believed whatever I say? However, just because I ‘lied’ to you last time, it means that everything will be then all a lie. So how could you believe me now, right?

Fufufu. That seems accurate. Her splitting is at works again huh.

“Stop with that already. You're sounding like a broken record. Repeatedly saying the same thing over and over again.”

“......”

We both remained in silence for almost a minute.

“Fuu... It's because of your mindset Eli-chan. You should change that. And you might just understand me.”

“Wh-What now..?!”

“The only reason you think like that is because of your ‘splitting’. You see the world in black-and-white. But it isn't Eli-chan. That's why I say you should change your worldview.”

She looked shock. Her eyes open wide seemingly in daze.

No way I gave her epiphany right? If I did, this is too easy. And although I like to have that result, it's anticlimactic.

But Eli-chan cried. Shivering with unblinking eyes, her tears rolled down her face. Tears that's look like a waterfall but gently falling down.

I have a bad feeling about this.

“So you can't accept me..? You can't accept... accept me for who I am? You wanted me to change?”

“I didn't say that I can't accept you Eli-chan. Please don't misunderstood. I meant to say that you should change your perspective but that doesn't mean I don't accept you.”

“Then you shouldn't desire me to change..!”

Agh. Of course she would think like that!

Damn your splitting to hell, Eli-chan.

“Sniff...”

She squatted on the ground while clasping her head. Her sniffing cries is audible as she shivers uncontrollably.

Then she cried.

“Waaah! I-Is that why I'm unworthy..?... Because you can't accept me for who I am....? Hic... Because you don't want me..?.. Sniff... You don't want me...? That's why you don't dare to trusts me..? Is that why?!”

I can hear her suppressing her cries because she chokes and she gasps.

Shit. Now she thinks I don't want her because I apparently cannot accept her.

For her, this seems logical.

I lied means I do not trust her.

Why I don't trusts her?

Because I cannot accept her for who she is. And it's validated with me wanting her to change.

“I never said that—”

*Slap!*

I wanted to pull her up but she slapped my hand away.

“Stay... STAY AWAY FROM ME! DON'T YOU DARE TOUCH ME!”

“No listen. You're misunderstanding me Eliza—”

“NO SHUT UP! I DON'T WANT TO LISTEN TO YOU ANYMORE! I DON'T WANT TO HEAR YOUR LIES ANYMORE! Don't try to make excuses. BECAUSE I'LL NEVER BELIEVE WHATEVER YOU SAY AGAIN! I get it! I get it okay?! You don't want me? Fine! You won't trust me? Fine! Because I hate you now! I don't care anymore! Let's break up!”

“No!”

“Yes we would!”

“I'll never accept that. I won't let you leave me Elizabeth! That's why sto—”

*Swish!*

*Drip!*

“!!”

I covered my bleeding forearm.

“I.... I'm sorry.... I didn't mean to...”

*Clank!*

The silver knife fell from Eli-chan's hand.

She looks really shocked. No, terrified rather.

“I'm fine.”

“I'm sorry.”

“Again— I'm fine.”

I walk closer.

“Please... Stay away... We are done.. Please leave me..”

“We're not breaking up Eli-chan.”

I'm 1-metre away from her.

“I'm begging you... Please... Leave..”

“I refuse.”

*Swish~*

I halted my steps.

She took another knife. But not to threaten me directly. But she aims it to her wrist. Threatening me with her life.

Radial artery is in there. Cut it off and you'll bleed to death.

“Please stay away... I'm begging you...”

“Very well...”

“Let's b-break up...”

“My answer won't change Elizabeth: No!”

“But—”

“Don't threaten me with your life to break up with me. I won't let you go even with death and hereafter.”

“.....”

She looks conflicted.

And we remained in silence. The sky starts to bleed and the world began to dim.

The birds flies in the sky. And the noises of the students celebrating the end of the school session resounds from below us.

“Mark... I have two requests.. L-let's make a deal..”

Hmmm.. What's her game this time?

“Very well Elizabeth, tell me what do you desire?”

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|Voracity's Note|

I'm yet to finished the illustration for this chapter. I'm having a hard time to draw just how big a C-cup is.

I WANT TO SEE SOME BOOBS!