Graduation Party Under the Bridge

Rudy got out of bed and started walking with a crutch to the bathroom, he took off his clothes without any help.

Rudy turned on the shower and grabbed some soap.

"Why did I tell them that yesterday?"

Rudy started cleaning his body with soap.

"They weren't wrong...I'm useless...."

Rudy's throat felt tight, and his heart hurt, his lips also trembled as Rudy held back the tears in his eyes.

"Maybe I'll apologize to them....and maybe I'll stop doing drugs and tell mom what happened."

Suddenly Rudy's stomach felt sick.

*blarg* He wanted to vomit but nothing came out.

*Thud*

Rudy fell to the floor.

"....." Rudy was stay silent on the floor for a while.

After he showered he started to get dressed again and wanted to be with his mother. Rudy's mother was not able to look him in the eyes, she focused her gaze on her cooking, and it seemed that his mother still could not deal with what happened yesterday.

"Mom....., about yesterday I don't know what possessed me,..... I suddenly felt sick when I heard what my friends had achieved and I took it out on all of you I.....err.....hmm..... I'm sorry"

Lily heard the apology and turned off the stove and face her son even though Lily still couldn't see him in the eyes.

"Son, I will always forgive you and don't forget you....you should apologize to them too"

"Yes, Mom..."

Rudy saw the expression on his mother's face, he saw that his mother was afraid of him, she couldn't see him in her eyes. Instantly he knew his mum had never forgiven him sincerely. After he finished breakfast, he walked straight to Andre's house.

"Son, do you want to go to your friend's house? I can take you there."

"No, I know you're busy"

"Be careful on the road"

"..."

As soon as Rudy arrived at Andre's house, he pressed the button.

*Ding-dong

The door opened and it was Andre's mum, Cindy Ardian who opened the door.

"Ahhh Rudy, I haven't seen you in a while, oh gosh, you look so skinny! Come in and have breakfast first with me huh? "

"No thank you, Mrs. Ardian, I had breakfast earlier. Can I see Andre?"

"I'm sorry sweety, Andre is out participating in organizational activities at his campus even though it's Sunday, what do you want to say?, I'll tell him."

"Tell him I'm sorry about yesterday."

"Well, what happened yesterday?"

"I did something stupid and took it out on Andre. That's all I'm going to do, see you, Mrs. Ardian."

"Hey where are you going!, wait at least have tea with me!, if you're going to go somewhere at least I'll give you a ride OI!"

"....."

Rudy left Ardian's residence.

Rudy stopped the taxi.

"Where are you going, sir?"

"53 Eva, Stone Street"

Rudy entered the taxi car to Austin's house.

*Ding-dog

No one responded. He pressed the bell button.

*Ding-dong

Still, no one responded, once again he pressed the bell.

*Ding-dong.

Still, no one responded.

"Where are they? There's no one at home, but isn't it Sunday? Strangely, there's no one here."

Rudy got into the taxi again.

"Well, why did you come here so soon?"

"There's no one in the house."

"So where are you going now?"

"Herd's shop near the city hall"

"Okay."

Rudy got off the taxi and paid the driver.

The taxi left Rudy at Herd's shop.

Rudy looked at his wallet.

"TCH, I only have $2000 left."

Rudy started to enter the store, but he was stopped by Lala's brother, Edy Herd.

"Rudy, what are you doing here!" in a loud tone.

"Edy, I just came to apologize to her."

"Lala told me everything that happened yesterday, and she still doesn't want to see you!"

"If you already know, you should let me meet her."

"RUDY, she's still in shock from what happened yesterday. Get out of here, maybe you can meet her when she wants to see you again!"

"FINE!, but I at least tell her that I apologized to her"

"..." Edy just stood there with his arm crossed on his chest with anger without saying a word.

Rudy left the shop because he couldn't meet Lala in person immediately kicked out by Lala's brother.

It was getting late and he wanted to go home because he failed to apologize to his friends.

When Rudy reached the park, he grabbed his cell phone from his pocket.

"Maybe I should have the courage to call them first and try again"

Rudy started a video call to his group of friends.

"hmm..."

No one answered.

"Come on! Pick it up!"

Still, no one answered.

"It's almost night time, they should be home from their activities" Rudy started to look frustrated and annoyed.

Rudy had been waiting for a long time but no one picked up their phone.

"So this is the end...I lost everything...friends,.... family,...and the future, I destroyed the remaining relationships in my life with just a trivial matter, now....my future looks unclear....this is the end of my life" Rudy said in a weak and trembling voice. His lips began to tremble and Rudy held back the tears that streamed down his face.

Rudy sat on a garden chair and thought for a long time until he made a well-thought-out decision.

He finally decided to commit suicide by overdosing on drugs.

Rudy started calling the drug dealer.

"Hello, James?"

"Hey man, how are you, how can I help you?"

"I want to buy the good stuff"

"Okay boss"

"Where are you going to hide the goods this time?...AAA!!!! Wait a minute I want to ask if you have a higher dose!!!"

"Woah, Woah, Woah...I don't sell high doses, dead customers don't bring me, money boss"

"PLEASE I HAVE MORE MONEY THE HIGH DOSE IS ALREADY SHOPPING AGAIN!!!" said Rudy who pretended to be desperate.

"I can't sell big doses because my boss is not allowed to sell them, but I have a new product from my boss that he said he got 1 year or 10 months ago, and only now it's being on sale! there are rumors that this stuff is better than Sepecial K or Heroin which has the effect of restoring the spirit of life like feeling "Born once again boss~" and it has a very long effect, It's like you are falling in love again. While it's a new product, I'll give you a discount!!! I just bought this for myself and a lot of people ordered it!"

"Okay, the price?"

"$300 per one injection"

"I bought it for 5 days"

"OK I'll send my friend and put it in a box under the bridge column near Los Santos hospital"

Rudy started to put all the money he had left from his wallet in a plastic bag and put it under a bench.

"I put the money under the park's bench near the south of the fountain."

"OK. I can't wait to enjoy this too haha"

Rudy walked in the cold night towards Los Santos hospital. on the way, he met 2 policemen on patrol, 1 old and 1 young.

"Hey need a ride kid?"

"No thanks."

"Come on nowadays we have a lot of violent criminals on the loose, and they will target disabled people at night who can't protect themselves."

"hmm....okay."

Rudy entered the police car and took the back seat. and the old cop driving asked.

"Where are you going?"

"Los Santos Hospital."

The police started driving the patrol car toward the hospital. The young policeman sitting next to the old policeman started to look at Rudy.

"What's your name?"

"Rudy Hoyt."

"My name is Jack and this gentleman is Han."

"Oi!" Han replied.

Jack extended his hand for a handshake.

When Rudy extended his hand to shake hands, Jack immediately held Rudy's hand firmly and immediately opened Rudy's jacket sleeve.

Jack saw the infection of a needle puncture wound.

"Let's get to the point, you're a drug addict, don't lie, I can tell from your body and I've also seen the wounds, the infection on your arm, I want the names of the people involved!"

"Ahhh!....err..." Rudy's heart was beating harder and his face started to turn pale.

"Stop it, Jack!, We don't have a warrant"

"BUT SIR!, We have the evidence here!"

"Jack, if you intimidate him like that, you're just scaring him, there's a good chance he'll lie and we won't get any results, instead we'll get sued individually!

"What's the difference!, he might also lie if we ask him nicely, but this way we at least take the risk, if he tells the truth we can catch the Black Eagle faster!"

"Even if he tells the truth when we intimidate him and we arrest the Black Eagle members, he can also turn this around by suing us individually and all the criminals we arrested can be released again just because we don't have the warrant to interrogate him. You already know how the sleazy lawyers in this city will do anything to get "settlement" money, compensation money, or protect criminals and the mafia as long as they get their paychecks. You should already know that, especially since the incident a year ago where we were almost able to throw Burn's ass to jail but because we didn't follow procedure, he escaped again".

"Tch" Jack let goes of Rudy's hand.

"(I knew they wanted to set me up, they almost foiled my plan)"

Rudy let out a sigh of relief.

"Son, why are you doing drugs? Don't be afraid this is not a trap or an interrogation, I'm just here to help"

"I...couldn't continue my life like before, I lost the person I looked up to most right in front of my eyes...I felt like my dreams and future were shattered when I couldn't move my legs when I heard their words that I was a cripple...hearing that I felt crushed me from inside. And that's when I started using drugs to forget this pain....from losing my family, forgetting my bitter life, .... forgetting my mother's cries, forgetting everything... And as time went by I saw my friends from outside my room they had normal lives and I was still here, ....a pathetic loser, and that's where I felt more pain and despair. ... Sometimes I wish I was never born if I knew it would end like this."

"..... look son, life is not always bad, if you find yourself at the bottom of your life you should try to get back to your normal life, you are still young and you are also not alone you can improve your life from little by little, it's never too late. You can start with this." Han started to grab something from the glove compartment and gave it to Rudy.

Rudi accepted it. ..... It turned out that the item given was a brochure about a drug addiction rehabilitation facility, this place was called "Sanctuary" and on the side, there was a scribble of a pen that read Han and Jack's cellphone numbers.

"Thank you."

"Remember those who sell drugs here are the Black Eagle cartel, if you see them or meet them contact us"

"Ok."

"You not buying a drug right?"

"No."

"Why did you go to the hospital?"

"To get some painkillers."

"You're not lying, right? Black Eagles are criminals who are very ambitious for their greed, they often do everything possible to fulfill their ambitions, and often innocent people like you become victims of their games. for the God's sake....the world is at war they even remain parasites in our society."

"No, I just want to buy medicine from the doctor's prescription"

Rudy showed the prescription letter from the doctor.

"Okay then."

They had arrived at the Los Santos hospital.

The 2 policemen left Rudy, Rudy began to look right and left. he made sure that the place was safe when he took a new type of drug. Rudy walked slowly down to the bottom of the bridge, his footsteps echoing in the silence.

And after searching and finding the box of what he suspected was a new type of drug that he had just ordered and the label is "F.E.S-12".

After a while, he sat down and put his hands on his knees, head bowed low as if he would look weighed down by something invisible.

The faint light from the stars gave a glow to Rudy's face, and from that glow came sad and tired eyes, and his face had a look of long-lasting sadness, Rudy sat there for a long time, lost in thought, with only the sound of vehicles from above occasionally breaking the silence, he started to pick up the cell phone.

"Maybe I should say goodbye before I go...."

Rudy started typing a message.

"To all the people I love and care about

I'm typing this because I can't stand it anymore. I'm tired of living like this. I feel more and more like a burden to everyone, and my existence only hurts the people around me.

I know that some of you look down on me because I'm just a loser who doesn't go to college or work. It hurts so much to see my past life with my mom, dad, and friends gone and stuck in the past, to see that everyone has left me alone with their futures. Every day I woke up with no motivation or reason to live and watched life goes by without me out there.

I apologize if this seems very negative or selfish. I just wanted to say what was on my mind before I left. I don't expect anyone to understand what's on my mind.

To mom, I apologize for letting you down. I know you want to see me back to the way I used to be, but I can't anymore. To my friends, I'm sorry for disappointing you and hurting you. I know you tried to help me, but I've fallen too deep into this despair and I can't get out.

Once again I apologize for what I did in the past. I make sure you never suffer because of me again.

Goodbye."

Rudy started to lift the box, he was surprised when he opened the box he saw the liquid looked very strange metallic white and the needle looked very hot not even warm like other drugs. Rudy began to remember his past life from childhood when he and his parents saw martial arts movies together, then he first entered the school and met his friends at the dinner table. and when he started to enter his teens, when he entered the martial arts dojo and met Andre. His last memory, was when he graduated from high school and talked about the future with his friends. But Rudy didn't care anymore. He started to inject the liquid from 5 syringes one by one.

A few moments later Rudy felt tremendous pain and fell from his seat, Rudy rolled over and screamed in pain like his whole body was burned by a fire that felt very painful from head to toe. In the end, Rudy's body began to limp and stopped to move. And finally, he had closed his eyes... In the silence of the night, Rudy's body was submerged in the darkness of shadows.