One was a real lover and other was ignoring personality. A story of one sight love. A real love which never comes true.

please don't take this book, seriously and I know how does everybody feels, both brother and sister died for nothing. I also read a lot of books and used to get mad at authors lol so, I get it where y'all coming from. 

I love my book characters and I hated killing Ivy and her brother. I rly don't want to become a murdered lol.

I wrote this story to help those who fall in love too fast and blindly and this is what happens when you do. Don't trust everyone so blindly bcoz not everyone you know is true and there are some people who are not even true to themselves then why would they be true to you? 

This is what happens when you fall in love too blindly and you should know where to forgive and think do they deserve your forgiveness? 

Ivy forgave him no matter what he has done until she lost his brother. she realized she doesn't deserve her anymore but if she had cut Zayn off from her life before then her brother wouldn't have died. 

This is you and who gave them the right to treat you like this? your life and your priorities and always put yourself first before putting others.

I don't mean love is not real but I mean love takes time to understand each other and to get to know each other. it's not, love when you fall in love too fast but I don't mean love, at first sight, is bad. 

there are people who proved love, at first sight, is love. yeah, you can fall in love with somebody in love at first sight. you can't help but fall for that person so, give it a try and try to get to know that person more. 

I've read some books and I never felt there is love between the Main female and Male and Idk why but now, I get it. they meet in ep 1 or 2. 

They fall for each other bcoz of his handsomeness and her beauty in ep 4 and like that. 

They have their first kiss in ep 6. 

and they head to bedroom ep 7 or 8. 

they take it too fast and in my opinion love is so beautiful and it rly needs time to make it beautiful. I don't like it when I see the Main leads fall for each other just in 10 episodes. like I rly can't feel the love just like real life. love takes time to fire and these movies and dramas are feeding people things like. they fell for each other because she is sexy and he is hot like where is the love? the young kids who watch movies to learn what is love might think okay, so, this is love? and this is what, happening with our generation. even kids fall in love too fast. 

this is my opinion and if I'm wrong please, correct me but no bad comments 😅😂 

I don't know how to help y'all but this guy helped me a lot and please, do watch it.

https://youtu.be/4B0U9RrnqPg

This guy and his videos changed me to my real self. I found myself once again which I've lost in my childhood and he taught me how to live my life and now, I'm happy no matter what trouble I face. I'm positive even when the things around me are negative but negative cannot win against positive so, I always won and I want others to be positive to be happy.

He hurt her in every way he can and he made her hate him and now all he wants is her to forgive him. 

Is it possible? 

Just what's his story? 

Let's find out! 


Warning: In the process of editing and rewriting some parts.




This story includes self-harm, cussing, rape, and abuse. Please don't read, if you find it disturbing.


Thank you all for reading! It means a lot.

We are currently eating dinner and it was a peaceful evening.  Gian, my Son,  tells things  about his high grades. 
"My teacher always praises me Mom.I like her so much."He happily said to me.
I rubbed his head as a sign that i was happy too.

"Avita,  your father...You forgot him... "Red suddenly said to me. 
I stopped eating as I think about my father too.
"Maybe he had gray hair now."I said to myseld with a little smile on my face.

"You can visit him tomorrow. I will  bring you in his house in the morning. "Red said to me. 

"Thanks.  I guess I should try communiting and ride on  a passenger bus.So that I can have time to stroll around. "I responded to him. 

"Okay. If your mind change then I could drive for you. "He said to me with a smile. 

We continued  eating then after that whole night I didn't requested for Red to take me to my previous house (which is my father's  house). 

Honestly, I am scared to go alone but I want to see changes in the surroundings.

On the day I commuted,   I am almost lost when I came there  because  surroundings just  changed a lot.  Luckily,  I finally came into our adjoined house. 
I stopped infront of the gate and looked on our house.There i can see our strong big red tree at the back of the house.

"The appearance is same as before when I was 26 years old. "I said silently.

From inside,  My father saw me then opened gate for me. 
"Why you didn't  use the doorbell?"He said to me. 
"Ah,  father  your too old."I silently said as I saw him with many wrinkles and grey hair.

"Go inside. I am really old because I am now 75 years old."He responded with a little angry tone of voice.

While my father is preparing coffee, I decides to get the shovel and start  digging the surroundings of the Red tree. 

"Hey,  daughter, why are you digging the soil? "He asked me upon seeing me. 

"I am looking for my old love lists to the universe that you put under the soil which was many years ago. "I responded to him. 

He walks beside me and starts to get my shovel from my hand.

"You won't  see it anymore. "He said silently. 
"Why? Did you removed it already? "I asked him. 

"The soild already had eaten the paper."
"I put it with no plastic or bottle because I am lazy."He said with a laughed. 

"Ah,  why you didn't  tell me about that before? "I responded. 

"It was a long time before.I almost forgot.
 Let's  go inside.  Your stepmom prepared cake for you and the coffee is still hot. "He said to me. 

I went inside and starts drinking the hot coffee while we are looking into the red tree. 

"Father,  Louei, is he already at Cebu? His house was already built? "I asked him. 

"Yes, he is and of course his big dream house was already done.It was a long time ago.  However, he is yearly here at Tarlac for his charity. He is always visiting me."
"I was curious. Why you didn't  know that? "My father asked that  I didn't  answer. 

"That man, Louie fell inlove to you hardly.He told me but he was too late because you are already taken..."
"...by the way forget about it. Be happy in your husband and family life. Louei will soon find someone in his life soon.I shoudn't pity him.I will help him to find other woman."He even added.

"So Louie really likes me even in this time."I said  to myself as I silently listen to my father's words.

"I guess love lists to the universe isn't  true."I silently said while staring into the waving leaves of the red tree.

"Daughter, It's  true. Love list to the universe can manifest. "My father said that makes me stare at him. 

"Why did you say that? Do you have a proof?" I asked. 

"I taught that type of manifestation to you because I want you to marry your dream guy and be happy."
"However,  you had two love lists to the universe. The one came from your true-self ad the one came from your force love. The Universe will find it hard to give it to you. " He silently explained that makes me stopped drinking my hot coffee. 

The hot wind blows inside the house.
I was thinking that father is pertaining to Louei which is my true self and the force love is Red.

"Father, did you manifested mother and stepmother using this love lists? "I asked him. 
"Yes, i used this as a tool. Your mother is my dream woman. I was very happy that I became her husband but she died early... 
... but I never losts hope for finding true love. So, I created another  love lists then your step mother appeared infront of me and love me for who I am. "He even added with a sad tone of voice. 

"I now understand that I manifested Louie in my life because of my Love Lists to the Universe. And now because I also make one about Red. I also manifested him too."I said to myself while starting to drink my coffee again and thinking deeply. 

Before leaving,  father suddenly puts a folded paper inside the pocket of my jacket.

"What's  that father? "I asked.
"Check it when you are at the bus."He said to me with a tap on my back.

"Daughter,  God and Universe always work in tandem to bring you an amazing life.Please don't  suffer from sadness just because you lost an important person in your life." He unexpectedly said that makes me remember that in my real time I suffered from depression because of loosing Red when he died.I was full of regrets during that time that I also want to end my life. Father in this time seems know alot from my real hardship.

I hugged father and thanked him.
"Father,  I will visit you soon."I said with a little tear on my eyes. I controlled it until I get inside the bus.

I was curious, so I check the paper that makes me start crying.
It was my old lovelists that describes Louie.Father is kidding. He doesn't  put it back to the soil. He kept it for a long time just to return it back to me.
I was having conscience in what is happening in my life. I time traveled here and changed a lot not wondering myself in the past.Which is the real me. The real me who dream and accepted by the people who loves me.
 I know I love Red and I was very happy to our family but how long will it lasts to be here. I am living in a place where I jumped from time to time. I wasn't  permanent and my real self is out of nowhere. My old Love lists to Universe reminds me of who I am.I am the young woman who writes his dream guys personality that reflects herself.

I finally went home. I walked into our kitchen and saw Red cooking for our dinner.

Red is really an adult guy in this time. This time is so confusing because I just can't  believe that I had changed everything and makes him alive. I even got a chace to be his wife now and had children.

I was very happy but how long will I be happy? Should I say I love you now and end soon this dream? 

He notices me and smiled.

"You came back. How's your dear father? "He said as he removes his hand from the pan.

I moved next to him and takes his left hand then put it in my right cheek. I can feel that it was so cold that makes me feel so sad.

"Why you look so sad? "He said as he can feel me.

"I love you Red."I said with a smile wherein my tone of voice seems like going to cry.

I saw him smiled to me as my surroundings starts to change again. 

During this time all I want is to correct lots of things but I really want to be with Red. I want him to be forever on my life.

Avita Cruz is a female hardworking Computer Analyst who believes in law of the Universe. She was secretly inlove to Red for a long time , her ex-college friend, who became so closed to her until they graduated, that makes her do not look for other guy.

However, time goes , they get matured, they separated and met other persons in their life without speaking out their true feelings.

Red unexpectedly died in car accident, causing Avita to mourn and thinks about their wasted past after realizing that Red also loved her during college days...

Avida being depressed jumped to the cliff then unexpectedly woke up in times when she was a college student with Red being alive and young.

Given a second chance to change her ways, she grabs the opportunity to love Red and make him feel important...

by Bamnieellandmic



Have you ever met someone?

That you don't expect he'll came to my life 

And he'll gave you joy



Have you ever been so much in love?

That you haven't been felt before

Like he is only a man can makes you felt like this?



Have you ever makes dreams and promises

For someone who you really love?

Like you very sure he is the one



But have you ever loved and lost ? 

But you need to set him free

For just you want him to be happy



I remember the moment 

He came in my life

And made me believe in love again



I never thought he is the answers of all my questions and prayers

I keep wondering that maybe he sent by God for love me

I never thought he is like an angel helps me to understand about true love



He brought joy to my life which I don't expect

This could happened be happened in my life

He let me opened my heart and let me love him

That I never felt like this before



He let me to understand

What's love was

Like his love for me is real



I keep wondering why his love makes me weak

Whenever I'm with him I felt lose control

Like my heart can lose control to fall



I never thought his love was unconditional

I never thought I'm so luckily to find true love

Which people hard to find the love like his love



He keeps give me sweet love

That I never ask him to love me more

I never thought his love was so special



He is my dream come true

Like I don't want to wake up

Like as he always will be my man of my dream



But suddenly I need my decision to me

So I left him with my heart

I haven't choice to leave him without knowing the real reason




Until now the years has been past

everything has been changed

But this girl his loved before never has changed



She made to herself

That she will love him forever

Even it takes blue forever



I'm still blue

I'm still pain

I'm still longing his love until now



Someone asked me those questions 

That I'll never able to answer before

Those questions I don't know 



But since I left him 

I suddenly remember those questions

I never thought it hurt so much

But I got an answers



Have you ever love someone 

That you never been inlove

Like this before 



Have you ever cry for someone

That you really loved so bad

That you really wanted so badly



Have you ever talk to someone

And makes plan with him

As like you know that you with him forever



Have you ever keeps wishing on star

That he is the one who you been waiting for

As like your wish was granted because of him



I have no doubt to answer with all my heart 

It all because I do still love him

And my love for him will never changed



And yes, I had been loved and lost

For someone who was

Truly loved me

This is the real happening that happened with me one day...A professor named as professor Saqib javed ch of chemistry subject, during a lecture he said that "No one is loyal"...It was not wrong so we agreed I agreed too.....After few discussion he said that "People of jhang (city in Pakistan) are more loyal then anyone" some students argued but I agreed...After few argue, he said that "Do you know, when a man is unfaithful?" he added more, "A man is unfaithful only when he don't get a kind of love which he wanted"...I disagreed.....yeah I argued because this is wrong saying...
Do you know what is love?
True love is from soul not from body....It is just a feeling it even don't needs you to love if you love someone and someone loves you then it doesn't matter that either that one is with you or not if that love is true....
At this that professor argued.....he said that true love don't exist if it was existed then a child is not disobeyed to his parents...
Then I replied that "True love exist" 
According to me, the base of this world is love.....If love was not existed then this world would not be existed too.....
If love not existed then a small child was not attached to his mother's heart that he can hear her heartbeats in other's body.....
True love exists.....
Thanks for reading....

"What?? MEIMEI?? Did I even say something like that? Just your imagination! Don't expect too much! I'm not your brother nor you're my sister!!" Lu Jiang said
The place was silent for a long time. Lu Jiang kept on thinking about what he said. Finally Kai spoke
      "Actually, I don't care whether you're her brother or not! But... Yue! I never expected that you fell in love with Sora!!! He is just a slave! He is working for me. How can a Princess marry a slave???" Kai said with a smirk in his face
Yue and Lu Jiang both were frustrated. 
       "Why can't a prince/princess marry a guardian???!!!!" Yue and Jiang both said at once
Again, silence covered the place. 
       "Kai!! You're not a good prince! I will never allow my sister to marry you!!!" Lu Jiang and left
Lufan followed him. And left. 
      "I hate you Kai!!" Yue said to Kai and left. 
Sora came and hugged Kai and said
     "Thank you Kai!! Finally, we found out that Lu Jiang is Ying Wu Tian's second son! And he is not Yue's biological brother. Yue is Jiang's Niece!! Thanks a lot!!"
Suddenly, tears started to flow from Kai's eyes. 
     "Did I do something wrong Sora?? Why Yue fell in love with You? I loved Yue for a long time, but it took me some time to find whether she is my real princess or not. I want to marry her. What should I do??!" Kai said
Hiding his true love for Yue, Sora said to Kai
       "I will help you to marry Yue!! I will make her to fall in love with you! I promise!!"
Flashback*
Kai knew Yue fell in love with Sora. He just acted that he doesn't know about it. One day, while going through Guardian's information book, Sora found out that Lu Jiang real name is Ying Jiang. He thought Jiang is Yue's brother but, he wanted clarify whether it is correct or not. So, he asked his head about it. His head said
     "Jiang is not Yue's brother but, he is a part of Ying clan"
He wanted to know the truth from Jiang's mouth so, he made a drama! He made Yue to come to the garden. He thought of asking about her family stuff but, what he expected didn't happen. Yue confessed her true feelings to him. He never thought something will happen like that. When Kai saw their plan has changed. He was shocked. But, he thought of continuing doing what Sora said him to do. This was all Kai and Sora's plan. 
Flashback over! 
          "I will find 101 ways to make her fall in love with you. Before full moon, I will accomplish my task!!" Sora said to Kai. 
Will Sora make Kai and Yue feel their true love for each other that they had been hiding for a long time?
                           Next chapter preview
      "JIANG, I LOVE YOU!"

Imagine,
 Suddenly being time travelled to the past with your crush and getting to know that you both were prince and princess. Yes, Ying Yue, a random high schooler time travelled to the past with her crush Kai Qi, who goes to the same school as Yue. 
 It doesn't stop here, Yue have to marry Kai to complete the history but time changes, Yue fell in love with Kai's guardian Sora. 
 _____________________
 Why the history was incomplete? Was only Kai and Yue time travelled to the past or they are more people who were time travelled? Will Yue marry Kai or Sora? How will they be in the present? Will they be time travelled again after completing the mission?
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Started on: 14 July 2019
Progress: On going
Updates: Will start updating soon!
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"I fell in love with you in a spring night. But, our fate has a different plan. We couldn't live together in the past nor in the future. I fell into your arms and close my eyes as I say Our fate has been decided
 ~Sora~
 _______________________

So... I died, and I...met, nothing. Yeah, it's a real thing, the weirdest thing, because when I met him he was constantly changing forms, much like the one above all in the marvel comics, except his wasn't limited to just gender.
Nothing was the true being that had no end and no beginning, it was just there, always. This was the true God of the bible, of course he came down to earth to become a human, but that was to bring hope to mankind. You might know him as the jesus, who is called the Christ.
As it turned out he existed in multiple worlds, yeah they were multiple gods that were not on the same level as him, All powerful and Everlasting.
The angels that are puny in comparison to the real angels, and the devil, who himself is the embodiment of evil. The true devil and his demons, and apparently my older brother, not necessarily because he was banished, and disowned, so the term Lucifer is just Satan, and his followers are true demons.
As it turns out, I am his son, as he went to earth as a human, because he wanted to try something new, and find love, which he got lucky being able to find love on the first try and marrying that said first love.
I was never angry with him as I had always felt him there, always guiding me to the right path, even when he was gone, he was always with my mind, and teaching me about good and bad.
Now as his son I was truly immortal, but unlike the others, my power was still the same, even if I was the Creator's son, so I had to reincarnate until I reach the level my father is, which is eternity, because he is at a level, that even the strongest fictional, or that was once fictional, character that you have ever seen would be like a pea in comparison to an entire Universe.
Luckily the friends who stay true to me until my death in all worlds will be with me and him in paradise.

"Are you ready to begin?" Father asked with a warm smile.
I formed a determination look and nodded my head, a white light slowly enveloped me before I was gone.
When I opened my eyes I found myself unnaturally small, and was staring at a white and black, panda. My eyes slightly widened,
"Well, this is weird." he spoke but it came out as small baby sounds...
The panda smiled, " I have, both names will be, Ace, and Basi."

I don't know how, but I somehow found myself reincarnating endlessly throughout the known worlds, hey I am not complaining
1 girl per life-time

Prologue
It might be a bit sudden but listen seriously to the question I'm about to ask and think about the answer carefully.
The question, Is there real love?
These days, all youth love to talk about love. They boast that their lover is an attractive person and rich. You see couples left and right with their partners in tow, but I have yet to see couples who last for years. They tell their partners that they'll never leave them, then after a week, they act like total strangers to each other. Some promised each other they'll be there when they need them but disappear when they need them. These are what they call real love between lovers.
Is that true? I wondered
Love and lust are two different things. Just because you had sex the other night doesn't mean there's love. Kissing or Holding hands don't mean a thing. None of these give any meaning to your relationship. If there is one thing, it shows just how horny you are. 
I understand not all people go for lust, that there are still those who choose to believe that there is real love out there for them. Their hopes are trampled upon yet continue to walk the path they believe. In my opinion, it's nothing but a worthless gamble because I have experienced being trampled upon by these false hopes that there is real love waiting out there.

This story revolves around Hiroyuki Tanaka. A 16-year-old high school student struggles with his trust issues due to his past trauma. He meets a peculiar girl who has similar interests in hobbies, with whom he usually spends most of his time. Will she be the key to unlocking a new meaning for Hiroyuki?


Never show your true colors, be tough, be deadly, be a mystery wrapped in darkness.
It's better that way. 
Better than having your heart shattered in a million different ways.
Better than crying over someone who didn't care. 'Cause you are just this useless thing to them anyway. They don't want your affection and attention? THEN fuck them! Quit crying over someone who doesn't even care, who doesn't even know you exist. Grab your mask, put it on, head to war. Grab that sword shield, defend yourself, fight 'til you find your match.
Better than loving someone who won't love you back. 'cause you're an idiot with nothing to do but love other people. You're a little ray of motherfucking sunshine, aren't you? To hell with that, Show your rays of light to those who deserve it. To those who will show their colors, to those who will fucking care, those willing to give their all just like you. Until then, show them your darkness, show them the pain, show them the evil within you. Let's see if they'll stay.
Better than showing the real you, only for them to step on it, break what's already broken. 'Cause the real you is a GEM. The real you is a treasure. The real you is an achievement that everyone has to unlock. DON'T JUST GIVE YOURSELF OUT WILLY NILLY LIKE A FUCKING IDIOT! All they'll do is step on you 'til you're nothing but a pile of shitty emotions, 'til you're nothing but a sad sack of useless, uninspired crap. You're a GEM. Remember that. But 'til then, Show them the mirror, show them what they want to see, not what you are. Be a mystery wrapped in darkness.
Sure, the right person will arrive. There will be that one person who will shine light upon you're sad, useless, existential life. There will be that one person to remove you from you're box and love you for who and what you are and will be. There will come a time that they will drop their weapons, defenses, and everything just to be with your depressed ass.
But until then
Never show your true colors, be tough, be deadly, be a mystery wrapped in darkness.
It's better that way. 
Better than having your heart shattered in a million different ways.
Hide the treasure that is your heart.

Within this novel is my life written in letters and poems, written through the toughest, darkest times.

Some holds the stories of past relationships, how I fucked up and caused the inevitable end of it.

Some may hold happier memories, past or current events that made me happy.

Others are disturbing and dark, whilst some lighthearted and heart warming.

Here we go. 

These are the Letters of Myls Valentine


(I have three pen names, Myls Valentine, Crey Valentine, and AerisNightShade.

Just sharing :3

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